Why?

What is it about Taiwanese dramas (well, Korean too sometimes - Winter Sonata for example) where bad guys with complicated brutally stylish hairstyles fall for innocent girls with no make-up, ballerinas instead of sexy high heels, black long hair in a (non-existent) boring hairstyle, boring clothes á la "I'm Mommy's good girl & revealed skin is a sin" & bigggg dovey eyes?

See:



Typical!!!! A wannabe hot guy (he'd be hot with different & normal hair) & an innocent girlie which looks like 6 years old even though she's maybe 19 (I dunno her actual age, I'm just guessing). And see those plushy toys?! OMFP! *faints*
Is it that Asian guys want boring women with no interest in their looks, pure & uncorrupted mind and no IQ as well & the dramas are just copying that trend? O_o Please, NO! *prays*

Another thing. The pretty gals who care about themselves are always the bad ones. Notice the very right gal wearing high heels & having a pretty hair.


(Both pics - credits to Ahnyounghasaeyo which will KILL me after seeing this entry!)

Now also notice the one on the very left (that's the one from the previous pic) wearing that hmm...blue buttoned sack for potatoes?, granny's slippers & having a "I'm-from-kindergarten" hairstyle with an awfully uninteresting fringe. Well, and the damsel in distress face expression which is horribly pissing me off, alongside with the retarded way she stands.

The same goes for Winter Sonata, only the good girl Jung Yujin played by Choi Ji Woo is WAY prettier & the bad ass Oh Chelin (by Park Sol Mi) is..well, quite similar in few things to this Taiwanese bad ass. Long curly dyed hair, high heels, make-up, trendy clothes. And she's prettier as well.


What's wrong with you, men?! O_o

Even Lee Min-Hyung & then Kang Joon-Sang has chosen the boring pure Yujin over the sexy Chelin with long (fake?) eyelashes & luscious lips. Why didn't he choose me? *cough*

.... -_-

(Credits for Yujin to Ngoisao.net)
(Credits for Oh Chelin to JKdramas.com)


Aiyoh. You, Asian guys in dramas must have some severe Cinderella syndrome. :P


When talking about looks & all... I'm thinking of trying a black shampoo. What do you think, how would I look?! Like idiot? O_o XD
My (HORRIBLY UNTRIMMED!!!!!!!!! *dies in horror*) eyebrows are almost black anyways, it wouldn't be such a brutal thing to do then...I mean - when your hair is, let's say, blonde & your eyebrows dark brown, it looks AWFUL. But if my hair will be black & my eyebrows too..... It can't be bad!

Or maybe I should try the Oh Chelin's hair color?
Well no, I'd look like a cheap bitch then. =_=''' :P


Poor Ray, I'm just giving him various random questions (e. g.: "Do you more like to have a girl with brains & a personality or someone who'll listen to you no matter what & follow you anywhere & have no brain at all?") and he's suffering replying.

BUT...BUT!!!! *dies in horror again*
He....likes....the...idea....of....HOUSEWIVES!!!!! Eeeeeeeekkkkkk!!!!!! If there's anything I would never want to be, it's housewife. @_# Better die..ugh...call me a crazy feminist but this is the 21st century & women are no longer dependant on men & WTF. *mumble mumble*

Eh, anyways. The rant has ended! ^^



Listening to: "Fantasy" by Mariah Carey
Yay!: It's WEEKEND.
Grrr: I'm tired. =_=
TMR: We're off to Aupark! Yay! :D Shooooooppingggggg~~~~~ ^___^

Primitive waitress assholes

Today would be a pretty nice day weren't it for the fucking primitive attitude of the typical Slovaks.

Me, Linda, Ali & Dada went out to the downtown (with palm trees in pots by the cafés & heaps of disgusting chest-hairy Italians stripping us with eyes) & we decided to sit in one café at Ventúrska street. It's on the corner of Ventúrska and Panská streets. I forgot the name of the café but in case you're in Bratislava or planning to go there, then do NOT visit a place right at the corner of these two streets.

Yeah. So we sat down & a bleached waitress looking like the last slut brought us the menus. We couldn't decide on what to drink - we didn't want a coffee nor whiskey nor mojito (Dada feels sick of it after returning from Cuba) nor tea....but we've spotted that they have fresh juices & Linda also spotted something of which she thought that it's frappe.
I'll now try to recreate the conversation we had with the slutty waitress:

Linda: "Excuse me...this *points at the menu* is something like frappe?"
Waitress: *arrogant bitchy stare at Linda* NO, that's a coffee with nuts. But we have frappe too."
Linda: "Hm, well okay, then one frappe for me please."
Waitress: *bored stare, says nothing to Linda & then groans in arrogant annoyed voice* Next?!?"
Me: "Is this *points at FRESH MANDARINE JUICE in the menu* from tangerines?"
Waitress: "That's from fruits."
Me: "Yes, but from what fruits? Tangerines?"
Waitress: *throws a you-brainless-bitch glare at me* "That's like a fresh juice freshly made from fruits."
Me: "I geddit but I'm asking you whether it's from tangerines."
Waitress: *you-don't-geddit-you-bitch-you-dunno-English? smirk* YEAH, tangerines.

Fascinating. AAARRGGGH!!!!! How can she be so fucking rude?! The location of that shitty café is absolutely posh, in the downtown I automatically expect a 100% perfect service, not arrogant waitresses!
In Slovak the tangerine is "mandarinka". The word "mandarine" also means "mandarinka", I know, but it's not well-known here & in this menu they somehow had the fresh juice chapter only in English, unlike the rest.

Then after like 40mins when I was finishing my mandarine juice (for 85Skk/2dl mind you!!!! FUCKING OVERPRICED!!!!!) the HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY came.

I found a piece of wire in it.
YEAH!!!!!!!!!
That's true!!!!
A PIECE OF A NORMAL, REGULAR WIRE!!!!!! *steams from ears*

I thought I'm going to die of anger seeing it. Not only the waitress was fucking arrogant & the juice overpriced but also I've found a fucking WIRE on the bottom of the glass.
Seeing it I got into thinking what to do.
At first I thought I'm gonna call the slutty waitress & smash her to the ground with my words but cuz there was one Heineken stage with a DJ playing loud reggae-latino music while smoking weed by it, I decided that I'll go inside the place & verbally smash her like fuck there.

Me: *taking up the wire on the straw & showing it off to the staff* Excuse me, but I've found THIS in my drink just now!"
Waitress: *says nothing, keeps throwing arrogant stares*
Waiter: *looks up closely* Aaaeehh...arm...this?! Well, maybe it came from the outside or something." (You fucking bastard, you think I actually PUT it there, issit?!?! PRIMITIVE DICK.)
Me: *sarcastic annoyed angry look & completely cold voice* "YEAH, totally..a wire!"
Waiter: So what now...hm..should I like offer you another drink then?"
Me: *steaming from anger & not wanting any other drink* Well, what I think is that I SHOULDN'T pay for it at all!"
Waiter: *all uneasy* "Sure, sure, sure."
Me: "Thank you very much." *walks out angrily*

From this I can see that those asses dunno what's a standart & customer orientation or a simple respect! FUCKERS!!! In any other café I'd get my money back or in other words, I wouldn't have to pay....and the staff would just KEEP THEIR MOUTHS SHUT & pray that such a thing won't happen again. But those assholes thought that cuz I'm a young Slovak student & not a rich German (Italian, American... foreign~) tourist, I would crouch down & agree to their fucking blabbing of the wire just appearing there in the glass by itself. >_< Argghh.

Btw, when the slutty waitress was giving us a change (it all was for for freaky 235Skk without my drink) she gave us 2Skk from the change in 4 50 haliers (like cents for US$). DAMN RUDE. I've never seen any waiter ever giving a change in haliers! *more steams* We left no tip only those haliers there. WTF.

End of rant.
The point of it?

ONE WOULD THINK THAT SLOVAKIA IS A MODERN COUNTRY WITH NICE PEOPLE WITH MANNERS BUT IT'S STILL FULL OF PRIMITIVE RUDE ARROGANT ASSES.

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My readership has actually DROPPED!!!! *faints from shock that it's even possible*
See here!

VISITS
	Total	835
	Average Per Day	14
	Average Visit Length	5:11
	Last Hour	0
	Today	15
	This Week	95

How sad. *sniff* u_u It's only 14 now, before it was 17! Man, I suck but okay, who cares. *fake smirk* Actually I do care but that's in my for-recognition-mumbling vain soul so I'll just pretend that I don't care, the always nasty Mich must be indifferent to the things like "readership". Huahaha. -_~ :P

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I loooove this template, I REALLY do. ^________________^

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Ray is coming back tommorrow!!! Yay! :D

Mentioning him reminds me of this beautiful NG wallpaper of Sabah, Malaysia I've found. That water seems almost...well...FAKE! O_o It's so wonderfully turquoise, I can't believe *such* a heavenly place is in this world....
Waaaahhh.... *_* ^_^

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It's fullmoon & I won't be able to sleep so I must go out with Haku now... 11.17pm, I hope no one kills me there. Yeah. In overall this was a shitty day starting with coming late to the school, screwing up the Maths exam, almost (thank God) falling down in the bus & this bitch at the fucked up café. Sleep is what I need, SLEEP & PEACE & PRIVACY.



Listening to: nothing
Yay!: Hm, nothing.
Grrr: Hm, everything.
TMR: Sleep until 12pm at least. Meet up with Pom online.

Wah! It's not well, for some weird reasons one pic is NOT shown. WTP. It's the background pic, why isn't it working? O_o

Listening to: "Cinta Tak Berganti" by Siti Nurhaliza. I looooooove that song, and "Percalayah" too even though I don't understand it but it's so aaaaaaahhhh!!!! ^___^

So springy

After editing the template for 468864 times & adding all the links in a different HTML style (or whatever it is), here is finally my beloooooooooved beauuuutttiful fresh clean neat feminine springy blog look!!!! ^____^

If you wanna see MORE beautiful templates, go here.

YAY!!! ^_^
Me is happy for a vain blog layout reason. :P ^^


Listening to: One song by Epik High which name I can't remember now. ._.
Yay!: This layout rocks ducks. And LI HONG IS OFF TO CHINA IN 2 DAYS AFTER 5 YEARS!!!! ^___________^ I'm so happy for her! *dances samba*
Grrr: Maths exam tmr. Haiyoh! -_-
TMR:

• school
• out with Haku
  
• online cuz of Pom
• meet up with friends - Thai cuisine
  OR
• wait home until maybe 6pm & go out with Linda in an ah lian way
  OR
• meet up with Li Hong if she has time
  

SHIT!!!! So many things!!!! >_< Clone me!

The Meme

I've found it at the nice Potatomus Maximus blog & decided to try it too. I hope I could!




I AM: The future Communication Designer! *big grin*

I WANT: To pay back my parents & grandma & uncle for all they've done for me.

I WISH: I wish....I wish...I wish I knew what was before the Big Bang.

I HATE: Fake people.

I MISS: The summer in Malaysia, Singapore & Thailand.

I FEAR: That I don't achieve what I want.

I HEAR: That I'm individualistic & sarcastic. I AGREE.

I WONDER: Why does the heart hurt when we're in emotional pain, even though the centre of emotions is in the brain & not in the heart.

I REGRET: Not going to the Súkromná stredná umelecká škola (Private high school of art) with beautiful design courses...

I AM NOT: The strong emotion-less asshole I may seem to be.

I DANCE: When I feel happy!

I SING: When I'm happy as well!

I CRY: More often than you think.

I AM NOT ALWAYS: As indifferent to you as I look.

I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: Photos, paintings, poems, drawings & caresses.

I WRITE: This pointless blog, English essays, poems & idiotic notes in the school!!!!

I CONFUSE: Everyone but especially myself & my boyfriend.

I NEED: To feel free & loved.

I SHOULD: Draw/paint more & chat less.

I START: I'll start my after-maturita-life by treating myself to a nice loooong soothing Thai massage. ^^

I FINISH: Physics, History, Biology & Chemistry this year!

I LOVE: When the sun is shining & all people are happily smiling. ^^

I REMEMBER: The days of my life by writing this blog & my diary.


Listening to: "Paradise" by Eddie. THANKS, JUSTINE!!! ^____^ *huuuge hugs* That boy rules, he's totally different from all the other K-pop stars & his English pronounciation is totally good. And the lyrics of this song...mmmm.... ^__^

Random Tuesday Quacking

I LOVE this picture.


Isn't it simply beautiful?
The blue blue sky...turquoise line of the pool or whatever...the woman staring up as if deep in thought...gentle rays of sun shining at her curved body...the deep blue, distant sea full of silver sparkling fish & colorful corals...

Whenever I feel like I need to relax, I look at this picture...
I imagine it's myself on the picture......And I feel good. ^_______^

Nice therapy, ain't it? ^_^

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My former Taekwon-Do instructor Roman has replied to my email telling me that our club had been closed & that now he joined another TKD ITF club - Taekwon-Do Klub Bratislava - led by his friend. I was looking at the pictures (click on "galéria") & I saw all the people I knew in the former club.

Oh man, I MISS TKD!!!!!! *sniff*

After the master Pak Chol Min (팤 홀 민, am I right?) left, a new master came, called Yi Yong Sok (이 영 족???? O_o Or "Yong" is 여 only??? I'm practicing my crappy Hangul, sorry~) but I didn't get a chance to see him yet cuz my lovely Chlamydia pneumoniae which I caught somewhere decided to linger in my lungs so I got antibiotics for 1.5 months & couldn't exercise for another 1.5 months which I prolonged until....now. *sigh*

Taekwon-Doooo.....AAAAHHH...... *_*



Anyways.
Today me & Linda went out to the downtown cuz Linda broke up with her bf (or it looked like that) & I decided that I must cheer her up so I bought her a beads necklace & earrings.
I'm such a good friend, I'm sure you all love me. Teeheheee. ^^

His Wavy Hair-ness SMSed me today....nice to hear from him after 45785389 years. :P He's either very lucky or very intelligent cuz he passed all his exams without studying - he couldn't study cuz he was watching some anime instead! *slaps head* Lil' kid!!!! XD

Mentioning His Wavy Hair-ness....
I got to know yet another Thai! :P She's from Chanthaburi (again), 18 yrs old, her name is Thip & she's damn kool. :D We had a lil' spazzy chat yesterday where we were drooling over hot Koreans. Wahahaha. XD If Ray saw that..... #_@ XD

I'm getting to know more & more people from Chanthaburi. :P

It started with Pom 4yrs+ ago & now it's also Pong, Thip & Pui. Well & one dude called Ninews but I don't really know him, he doesn't speak good English (and I speak no Thai), I only met him at some random conversation with Thip & 3 her friends. And yes, it was all in Thai & I understood NOTHING. :P
I think it's gonna be a lot of fun when I go there on Xmas. ^__^ I CAN'T WAIT!!!! :D ^___^

On Friday I finally am gonna have that Maths exam. EWWW. I'll die but okay - nothing is eternal, I must die one day too. =_=


Hmm well, now I should go for a walk with Haku - and then I'll relax.... I'll go read LOTR III in English or watch Winter Sonata & drool happily. :P ^^



Listening to: "Percalayah" by Siti Nurhaliza
Yay!: I made Linda happier, I'm happy toooooo~~~~ ^___^
Grrr: Man, I want just catch a lil glimpse of S. Somehow I can't,that's very stupid. Ray, if you're reading this, no need for jealousy, I'm no longer crazy in love with him but I just wanna see him! Oh, and I got 2/5 from Literature test. =_= Cialat.
DON'T FORGET: Be online on Friday when His Wavy Hair-ness promised to be online as well.

Logarithms Are Lethal

I've just returned from Piestany where my parents went to relax & I went to suffer. HAIYOOOH. I sense a severe discalculia here cuz really... I am so damn stupid... until now I don't understand it. It must be discalculia. *sigh* -_- Other people geddit, I don't. :P

LOGARITHMS ARE MY OFFICIAL ENEMY. >_<
After maturita I'll BURN all my notebooks! Wahoooo! ^_____^ I'll burn 'em all & then happily go waste 2000Skk on a 90min long traditional Thai massage at the Sabai centre at Laurinska street.

Aaaahhh, beautiful. ^^

Ray is at some heavenly beautiful Malaysian islands with family - darn, I envy him!!!! *_* ^^ I also wanna.... *sniff*
I also envy Chen (that guy from Bkk), his girlfriend from India came today to Thailand & doesn't plan to return back. No more long-d rship for him! Happy Chen. Got SANUK! ^^

Jong Moon oppa e-mailed me today! :D
YAY!!! ^^ He said he hopes to marry this year but I can't imagine married Jong Moon...hahaa..he's already 32 years old but anyways... Oh well, I wish I could attend his wedding in case he marries BUT I can't do so, unless money will start growing on trees or fall from the sky or something.

I know that this entry is VERY random, I apologize.

I miss S!!!!! I seriously miss him!!!! WTF!!!! How can I miss a creature which is completely *ahem* & thinks about me that I'm a complete *ahem* as well?! I seriously am abnormal. >_> Thank Almighty Duck that my crush on him is not returning cuz that'd be a complete disaster. *slaps head*

I'm going to have a MEAT-LESS WEEK.
No more meat, not even a 6 micrograms, it makes me sick. @_#

Eh, I should stop blabbing here, it has no head no tail & go watch Episode 12 of Winter Sonata. I miss drooling over BYJ! *Okay, I have his pics in my cellphone but, still~ ^^*


OH, BTW!!!!!! O_O
My English essay has gotten into the whole-Slovakia-round!!!! *gasp* O_O I'd never expect SUCH a thing to happen - esp cuz after choosing my topic I was staring at the blank paper for long 5 mins not knowing at all what to write. Hehehe! :P



Listening to: "Perhaps Love" by HowL
Yay!: I'm happy that oppa emailed me. ^^
Grrr: Got a test from LOGARITHMS tmr. Die die!!!! @_#
RANDOM WISHLIST:

• miso shiru
• steamed baby kailaan/pak choi & jasmine rice
• kimchi
  
• wheat grass drink
• all above served by (topless ?) Choi Dong Wook or Bae Yong Joon or both - and they'll both bring me a bouquet of English tea roses
  
• all above done on the patio of my future bungalow with mahogany floor & elegant white kitchen with orchids which is located on a Thai seashore with swaying emerald green palm trees
  

Yeah! I'm SO MODEST!!!!!!!! XD

The SMS

I've just SMSed my half-brother Tomas whom I've seen once in my whole life. O_O

Hi Tomas, I know it's kinda late & I'm annoying but....it's really stupid to have a brother & not to know him. :-I I'd like to see you someday so I can at least know how you look, I don't remember it anymore. :S If you don't want it, it's okay. Good night! :)

A bimbo SMS, I admit... In Slovak it looked a bit less bimbo-ish but still enough for him to delete it. -_-

I wonder whether Tomas still uses that number... I wonder if he gets my SMS... I wonder if he replies... I wonder what he replies... Will he want to meet up with me? O_o
We've been SMSing to each other before for some time but then we stopped.. *sigh* All I know about him is that he's maybe 24~27 years old (I don't know exactly), graduated from business, worked for SITA, plays futsal and..hmm...that's all.
It's sad to have a half-bro & not know him at all. We've talked on the phone for few times and he seemed like quite a nice guy... I wonder how he is in real life, in person.

Haiyoooh.
I'm scared of the reply - if I get any...his cellphone number might be different now, I really dunno.

Tomas, will you reply to me? Do you still remember me? Cuz I do... I haven't forgotten you but you looked reluctant to meet me before & I wouldn't dare to force you. Why can't I know you, why my father never let me know you? Fucker, ain't he?
I wish I knew you. Having an older half-bro must be great!

WILL HE REPLY?!

Fuck, fuck, I hope he hadn't changed his number. x_x



Listening to: "Coward" by BUZZ.
Yay!: I've been stalking S's dad & I got to know many things about him. Wahaha.
Grrr: WILL TOMAS REPLY?!?! I'm scared. @_@

Post Of A Hopeless BYJ Addict

Very annoying & stupid post, I recommend you to ignore it.

Episode 9th rewatched...MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH OOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....
Yu-Jin decided to break up with Sang-Hyuk who, in my opinion, is one clingy obsessive disrespectful immature asshole & went to the handsome wonderful great lovely (...) Lee Min-Hyung.
Of course Sang-Hyuk is being even a worse clingy asshole & he can't accept that he just isn't the one. Haiyoooh. =_=
If I had to choose between immature clingy assholes & Lee Min-Hyung, I'd run to Min-Hyung in a speed of light!!!! Wahahaha! *_*

Am I on a crossroad like Yu-Jin?
SADLY, I can't choose between Sang-Hyuk & Min-Hyung but.....my situation isn't too different.
Him or.....nobody?

Sigh sigh.
If BYJ came to me now, I wouldn't think anymore. *angelic smile* Someone call him for me please..

Tmr I'm off to Piestany and I'll be thinking deeply. At least I'll see whether I have a brain or no cuz thinking without brain is impossible. :P

I LOVE LEE MIN-HYUNG aka KANG JOON-SANG aka BAE YONG-JOON.


Listening to: "내사람" (Partner For Life") by SG WANNA BE
Yay!: Drooling isn't restricted! ^_^ AAH, BYJ!
Grrr: Why am I so fucking indecisive?

Edit at 9.28pm:

I've just remembered that me & UE have decided that I should write an AT LEAST shounen ai (or maybe yaoi?) fic about S & BYJ. WAHAHHAHAH!!!!! XD
The rough plot will be that S & BYJ fall in love & S gets pregnant but then they find out that they're brothers & S will go get the interruption.

I plan to write it in Slovak but IN CASE you're as mad as you'd like to read it, tell me - I'll just switch to English. ^^

Listening to: "Happiness" by Gavy N.J.

Boycott Chicken

I really love sweet & sour chicken (and any chicken actually)....except for today & the next century. Duh. I dunno why, but today I went to Bamboo Garden with K & UE, ordered sweet & sour chicken & felt awful by eating it. It actually smelled awfully to me. Like a corpse - and no one can deny that it is a corpse. BON APPETIT.
Oh my.
I dream about miso shiru!!!!! *greedy sniff*


And then.................pak choi & rice...mmmmm.....kimchi.......and after that.....some sushi.....aaaaahhhh... *___*

BEAUTIFUL. DELICIOUS. LIGHT. HEALTHY. NUTRITIOUS. SOOTHING. VEGETARIAN. Except for the sushi.

I can't stand all the meat anymore, it makes me sick. =_=

I wanted to cook my mangold leaves according to that yummy way but I can't cuz we don't have the oyster sauce - my mother threw it away few weeks ago. Sniff sniff. If I knew that I can buy it in the grocery store nearby, I'd go tmr....my craving for it is unbearable! :P

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Hubooby's bday gift for me has arrived today. ^^ I got a wonderful bright blue comfy cotton t-shirt by Hang Ten, super kool pink pen in a shape of hand with middle finger raised *very useful in school!* & Hell-No Kitty lil' wallet & hairclips. Wahahaha!!!! Saya CINTA these gifts!!!!! XD They're so kool, wahaha!!!!
TERIMA POOPSIH HUBOOBY FOR 'EM!!!! I LOVE THEM AAALLLL!!! ^____^

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Why are we the way we are? Why can't you accept & respect me for who I am? People don't change, you know. If you don't love *this* me....then you don't love me at all. Our relationship is enough difficult as it is with its 10 000km between us. Do we want to screw it up even more? You know what I want from you & I know what you want from me...however, knowing the certain thing & behaving according to it are two completely different things.
You're losing trust in me & that's kinda disappointing. My lovely Pom? Interesting. Tell me if you see another Pom that the one who's my good friend.

I know, this is yet another personal thing I'm posting up here. I'll tell you why am I doing it - I'm too proud to email this to you & putting it on my blog is the other way out; you maybe read it & maybe not. *sigh*
What has to happen, will.

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Bae Yong Joon's smile is from HEAVEN, I swear it is!!!!!! *sigh* ^_______^ Oh, I think I wanna marry him. WAHAHA, okay! I'm kidding!!!! *it would be nice though*

Okay, I admit he looks retarded here but I still love him. Wahahaha. :P
Only why, oh why he looks so much like S....that's not healthy. <_< *frowns*
Fine, duckies. I'm off to re-watch Winter Sonata's Episode 9. Jung Yu-Jin & Lee Min-Hyung hugged in Ep. 8. Why can't we hug?! Like me & BYJ???? *sniff* WTF!!!!


OK, OK, kidding. Hahaha. I'm *a bit* retarded. XD



Listening to: "My Memory" by Ryu. I'm feeling very sentimental today....mmmm.....hehehe! ^^;;;;
Yay!: It's FRIDAY. ^_______^
Grrr: Us. ._. I dunno what to do anymore!!!
TASKS: REPLY TO ALL THE EMAILS TOMMORROW FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!! Go buy the oyster sauce. Erase from your mind that BYJ looks like S - it's traumatizing!!!! Hihihi. LEARN SOME KOREAN. How can I live without knowing it?! Me, a quarter Korean? Not healthy. -_-

Being An Artist In Slovakia

I've just watched the Seoul Collection S/S 2006 at Arirang by Byun G. ? (if I'm right) & it was interesting. The models were ugly (esp one European girl, she looked simply awful with nose like a crooked potatoe) but the designs were really pretty.
I can't imagine STV airing something like this. All they can do is air "Slovakia Seeks The Superstar" and "Post For You" and stupid programmes for stupid ppl....at STV1 at least, which is a rather commercial part of STV.
Aigooo. Life in Slovakia sucks if you graduate from something artistic. My art prof's son Ivan is just getting his Master's degree from Sculpture & Restoration at VSVU (Vysoka skola vytvarnych umeni - University of Fine arts) but I can't imagine his career too well. By making sculptures he can't earn for a decent living & even though by renovating he could be well-off soon cuz many things in this country needs to be restored, the investors usually don't have the $$$ for hiring a restorator and all...
No way out.
Poor Ivan.

Especially fashion designers have it tough here. 5 million inhabitants, most of them are conservative villagers and even the state's TV isn't able to air the fashion show like Arirang does. There are few well-known fashion designers here but really just few.
Lea Fekete & Fero Miklosko are the most famous ones here I guess...

Still, it must be a great feeling to watch your own fashion show. Wah! *_* I'm proud even when I create a good make-up to someone, choose clothes well for someone or dye one's hair well..hah...I guess I'd fly to the starry sky from all the proud feelings. Hehe.

This is a very silly entry, full of blabbing.
And SHIT, I'VE JUST REMEMBERED THAT TOMMORROW I HAVE A MATHS EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*faints from horror* @_# H
ow could have I forgotten, even today I was replying to Pom's email telling him about it, aaahhh!!!!! >___< *dies*
Analytical geometry my ass..................... =_=

Btw ...

*HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SASEONG SEB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*
^___________^
Wish you all the best, man.
Be happy, safe, kool, funny & great as always.
*huuuuge huuGGssss*
TAEKWON!!!!
*bows*
^_____^

Haiyah. =_=
I wanted to watch some more Winter Sonata but it seems like I can't. MATHS EXAM. Wtf. I prefer drooling over Bae Yong Joon......................even though he looks almost like S (well, S isn't that handsome). Wahahaha. I'm abnormal, I know. :P

Btw duckies, I really really apologize for not replying to all your SMSes, I don't want my father to kill me, my bills use to be terrible (2000Skk++) & I really don't wanna risk death. *sigh*



Listening to: nothing
Yay!: I've sent out the letter to Ray today, ate yummy stuff at Govinda, finished my oil on canvas, swooned over BYJ (very healthy!), bought Indian sweets to my art prof & K & bought very idiotic yellow-white socks with bunnies. Wahahaha. XD
Grrr: 0th class tmr with English test, MATHS EXAM. Fuck fuck fuck.
DON'T FORGET: REPLY TO ALL THOSE EMAILS FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >___< Pick up hubooby's bday gift. Pick up contact lenses if you can. Wait for grandma to arrive. WRAP UP THE BDAY GIFT FOR IVOR.





I'm going to marry Kang Joon-Sang, whether you like it or no. *happy sigh*





Wahahhahahah, I'm really retarded. XD

Ugh, S & BYJ

BYJ rulez. RULEZZZ. But he's so damn alike to S, it's scaring me to death cuz now when I'm rewatching Winter Sonata (yes! I'm pathetic!) it's just.......so ridiculous!!!! *giggle*
I can't help to always imagine S as Kang Joon-Sang/Mr. Lee and that's spoiling all the beauty of BYJ. Oh my. Wahahaha!
It seems like I have some S-syndrome. =_= My endless crush for S faded many yrs ago & just when I thought I should laugh by heart at that all my liking of S which was really totally pointless & amusing, I watch Winter Sonata and the big cheeks of S haunt me everywhere. *slaps head*

SCARY. VERY, VERY SCARY.

I'm going to create a stupid meme right now. *cough* Nothing better to do, oh yes, I suck duck! Btw, it doesn't matter how are the things listed.

4 things you'd like to do right now:

1. Be able to hug Kang Joon-Sang tightly (sorry, Ray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
2. Miraculously make my skin smooth & beautiful & completely flawless AND tmr get my eyes operated with laser. 7 dioptries is no fucking fun. >_< *sigh*
3. Sleep on a bed with creamy white satine sheets in a luxurious hotel somewhere in Thailand (rather irrelevant, I know..but *yawn*, I'm tired!)
4. Receive a beautiful bouquet of fresh flowers from my true love, whoever it is~ *sappy sigh*

3 goals:

1. Get an uni degree from Communication Design (Bc. at least!), get recognized for my creativity and talent and of course either work in some outstanding ad agency or establish my own. Mwaha. I'm ambitious, yes, yes....
2. Meet aaaalllll my internet friends. ^__^
3. Be independant. Study at Cenfad (owh, financed by parents..), drive my own lil' car (in case the KL's public transport is really as sucky as I've heard), live in my own apartment and know, that whatever wrong I do, it's my own mistake. Ugh, so much individualism surely isn't healthy. @_@

5 creatures I'd like to be, if I weren't myself:

1. Jung Yu-Jin. I also want Kang Joon-Sang to be my fate!
2. Gandalf! :D I wanna know how is it to fight with Balrog of Moria...ooohh....
3. Ginny Weasley, I'd have a Harry Potter boyfriend! Yay!
4. Haku. His life is so damn trouble-less, I REALLY envy him. *sniff*
5. Drawn kawaii manga animal but not Pom. XD If I were just drawn, I would have no worries at all. Bliss!

3 things I yearn for:

1. Graduate from my school
2. SLEEP
3. Breakfast to bed tmr at maybe 12pm cuz that's only the time when I bother to wake up

AAAAAAAAAHHHHH YYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWNNNNNNNNNNNNNN, I'm sorry, I must go RIGHT NOW or I'll end up sleeping on the table with PC.
YAWN.
I'm so darn tired, I went for 0th class cuz I thought I'm going to write a Maths test & the prof didn't even came. Bitch. -_-

GOOD NIGHT.
Don't dare to annoy me with calls/SMSes/letters/owls/feathers/packages/gifts....NOTHING. Until noon please. Then I'll gladly receive a bouquet of pink-golden English tea roses, especially if your name is either Bae Yong Joon or Choi Dong Wook or Ray. *sweet smile* ^^

Off me go to ZzzzZzzzzz.

My house

I've seen the link at ducky sis' blog, so TERIMA POOPSIH!!!! ^___^

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. (Me? *gasp* Weird!) You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. (*nods to all*) You are very tidy person. (WAHAHAHA!!!! Totally! XD) There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people. (I hate commanding & controlling!!! I agree with the rest though.)

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself. (Very true!)

WOW!!!!
It's VERY accurate actually! O_O *gasp*
Interesting, isn't it? ^^



Listening to: nothing
Yay!: Tmr I'm gonna pick up the gift from hubooby & tmr we also have NO CLASSES.
Grrrr: That fucking Maths test WASN'T today & I woke up at 6am for shitty nothing. >_< Arrrgghhh.
CURRENTLY FEELING: Very very very very bored & rather tired. The only cure is Winter Sonata, really. Hehe.

Random Quack No. 7824751, 2185175, 1875

So today was a VERY useless day. *yawn*

After a sleepless night I went to school on 8am but I was in front of it before 7.30am. There I got to know that I'm supposed to be in front of cinema Hviezda (Star) at freaking 9am so I behaved sensibly (finally) and went for a nice cuppa of black Assam tea at Coffee & Co. ^^
There I was sitting...sipping my tea...reading LOTR II....sipping...watching people rushing to work...examining women's heels & clothes and noticing happily that Bratislava is finally becoming a multi-cultural city with the increasing number of Afro-Americans & Asians. Very nice. Me likes. ^^ It makes me feel like in EUROPE, not in a lil' post-communist country in the ass of the world. Mwaha. ^^

We (the school) went on a STUPID movie by Jan Svankmajer called "Alice". Oh. Never again. =_= I don't like Svankmajer, he's so.....disgusting!!!!! *ewww* Awful, disgusting movie. *bleh*

Aiyooh, anyways..... TOMMORROW I have a freaking MATHS TEST so I think I'll die (and study). @_@ Shit shit shit shit. Before the actual studying I MUST re-watch Episode 2 from Winter Sonata cuz looking at BYJ makes me feel good. Wahahaha. XD
Me is abnormal, that's a sure thing! :P ^^;;;;;


Listening to: "2 Become 1" by Spice Girls. Ha! Don't laugh!!!!! GIIIRRRLLLL POWEEERRR!!! :D
Yay!: Tmr will be 42 schooldays left until the beautiful summer holidays.
Grrr: MATHS! *drops dead* At 0th class!!!!! @_#
RANDOM WISHLIST:

• "Stairway To Heaven" or anything similarly sentimental, romantic & beautiful.
  
• Pic of S
• Like 6000Skk for my expenses. I'm fuckin broke! Aaaaahhhh!!!! I'm really like Pom, always broke!!!! We two must be siblings!!! *slaps head*
• A dress for summer.
  
• Go to Koh Samet with Mr. Anupong. WTF, I wanna go too, he has asked me whether I wanna join him for like 5 times already - he likes to torture me! *sssssnnnnniiiiiffff* And Ray is going to some islands too!!! Aaaaahhh!!!!! DIE DIE!!!! WTF AM I STILL DOING HERE IN SLOVAKIAAAAA???????
  

Curly-Haired Confessions

Hullo, my lads. *waves from Bratislava*

Today I'm full of memories so I shall tell you a story about myself & a guy on whom I had an endless crush for at least 4 freaking years of my life.
CURLY-HAIRED?
Don't think of Mr. Anupong. No, no, he is (was) WAVY-HAIRED but not CURLY-HAIRED! Curly-haired confessions are about someone else!
But before I start...I'll tell you a dream I had and you won't understand it at first and only after you read my story, you'll know how ridiculous & funny it is.

The dream went like this:
It was a warm June afternoon and I was sitting in my usual trolleybus No. 203 & going home. I was deep in thought of something - actually I was thinking of the ol' good days of me meeting S in 203 - and I was wishing he could appear there once again.

As if the Almighty Duck heard my wish, suddenly S appeared in front of me, but I somehow overlooked that it's him & thought it's my half-brother Tomas. I had his *ahem* in front of me clothed in his usual black jeans & he was also wearing that ridiculous khaki green t-shirt as always.
He asked me something (I forgot what already) & I replied something like "Hiii Tomas! *Blahblahblah* No, or yes? No?" (makes a total sense XD) and patted his ribs. *cough so silly* Only then I looked up & saw S standing in front me with a soft smile on his lips. I was in a rather big shock & in my mind appeared: "WTF!!! Darn, he's so handsome!!!! Even more than before! *gasp* Those wise dark eyes with black eyelashes hidden behind the cute glasses! Aah! That smooth olive skin & those lips and nose! That smile! O_O *_* But that hair..ugh ahahahaha!"
I was looking up at him wondering what is this all about. The bus stop where he gets off was drawing nearer & before he had to get off he looked straight into my eyes in a rather flirty manner, smiled broadly & finally left the trolleybus.
I was blushing from head to toes & in my mind appeared another big words: "OHHHH, what if he LIKES you?! What if?!?! Oooohhh, can't he ASK YOU OUT?!?!"
My way home in 203 went on and then I woke up.

Hihihihihiiiiiiii~~~~ *laughs stupidly at the mere thought of S asking her out*

*ahem*
So.
S.
I'll NOT call him here even by his nickname we gave him cuz in case he has nothing to do & googles it (he knows about the nick) and FINDS THIS BLOG, then HALLELUJAH TO ME!!!!!!!!! *drops dead*
I've had enough emmbarrasing situations with him already. #_@'''''
Let's just say that his nickname is derived from the word "sacharide" in Slovak. *ahem*. Chemical nicks & names ruleeee, right Justine? :P ^_~


Let me now come to the story itself.... *memories oh memories*

I was a little girl maybe 11 years old & with my friend K with decided to go to Mc Donald's in the downtown before heading to the art course.
I wanted to buy a menu & stood in the row with kinda little people in it. Then.... *dramatical pause* I looked to my right.
And WAH!!!! O_O
In the right row there stood a boy, 15 yrs old (maybe), who seemed like the most handsome creature in this big universe I've EVER, EVER seen.
My heart started to pound crazily and I was staring at him non-stop, hypnotized by his looks.

The boy had a smooth olive complexion, round glasses with thin frames, a pair of hazel eyes behind it, thick dark curly hair, funny round cheeks, pretty lips and a nice tall toned body with broad shoulders & very pretty hands.


(Btw, this pic is made by me & it's a VERY WELL DONE almost-caricature of S! Wahahaha! He looked almost like this. A bit less weird but still 90% like this pic. XD Face almost like here & better body. I wonder what I saw at him for all those 4 years. Haha. *slaps head*)

"OHHH!!!!", I squealed silently, mesmerized, "HE'S SO HANDSOME!!! *___*"


That was the day when I incurably fell in love.

I was hoping to see HIM someday again....and to my amazement, I met him the next day in my school!!!! O_O You can imagine how freakishly happy I was. :P

Whenever I saw him I was all getting hot & trying to look at him without him knowing and noticing my loving stares...we know it, right? Gila. :P

One fine day me & all my classmates were walking to our class No. 212 from the PE gyms and of course I was thinking about S.
Then I saw him standing ALONE by the school buffet & could do nothing better than shout loudly around the whole entrance hall:
"OH! It's him! That one by the buffet! That one whom I loooooove so much!!!!!!! *______*"
@_@
That was the Embarrassment No. 1. One of my biggest...hahhahah.... Imagine that.... Only he himself by the school buffet standing peacefully - and OMG! suddenly some little mad kid starts to shout something about loving him! *drops dead*
Poor little S. XD Poor me as well - he has noticed that it was ME shouting that! *dies*

Few months passed and my love was him was still burning. I went to school even when I was feeling ill just cuz I didn't want to miss the mere chance of seeing him. Such a motivation. XD

It was interesting how my crush for S behaved. :D

The 1st year I saw him I was MADLY in love with him.
The next year I thought that's he looks funny, he's stupid & cocky but I always paid attention to him anyways. By "paying attention" I mean noticing him whenever he moved.

The 3rd year I had a crush on him again. XD
By that time, of course, he has grown up into an even taller, weirder looking creature but what I liked at him - nose & eyes - was even better.

The 4th year I again thought that he's stupid, cocky & funny looking and because he was graduating from my school I was constantly telling my friends that "school without S is no fun!"

I've emmbarrassed myself in front of him for 468889643 times but I particularly remember the time when I lost a bet & I had to - hold your feathers - pinch his butt.
YEAH!!!!!
You hear it right! *dies laughing* PINCH HIS BUTT!!!! XD Poor little me & poor little S.
*mwaha*
He was standing by the buffet with his best friend whom we called "Sour Cabbage" (don't ask but it was my idea! XD).
I came to him & told him: "Eh...hi. Are you tolerant, have a good sense of humor & are you polite? Cuz I've lost a bet & I have to pinch your butt!!!!!"
UGH.
Sour Cabbage started to laugh his head off & S looked at me as if I was retarded (I was!) and said: "Ahem, I think you should leave it like that."
How polite & sweet, right? Wahaha! S is a well-mannered boy, he wouldn't kick my ass. XD

(It was my friend D who pinched his butt few months later & S thought it was me - I was laughing uncontrollably on the bench - but then he saw D with her hand still waving around his butt & said in a resigned voice: "Ehm, well, I think I'm leaving already~")

OH MY. *laughs uncontrollably at the memories*

I sometimes wonder HOW would it be if I actually gained the courage to ask S out. Wahaha. I guess that if we've started to date, we'd be THE WEIRDEST, MOST RIDICULOUS COUPLE ever!!! XD
Unlike Justine who at least knows G, I've never known S in person. Haiyooooh! I was always too shy to talk to him & all.....but once I've made up my mind and decided to ask him out after my classes. I've never done that though for the same thing - I was too shy!!!!

I know his full name, I know that his father is an architect (wow, impressive), I even know his brother (!) & I know where probably he lives. I don't know him though. I even don't have a darn pic of him!!!! Wahaha.

Who knows what madness besets my friend K but she's trying to persuade me that me & S are meant to be together.
@_@ *slaps head & laughs* UGHHHHHHH! She's really mad!!!! XD I told her that if we're meant to be together, we'll meet in Thailand on Xmas. Mwahaha. XD

I've just remember another thing...... *ehehe*
I went to the school buffet (yes, again! :P) to buy some drink & there I saw HIM. I remember that I was clothed all in white - white capri pants & white sleeveless top with a very nice sparkling pattern in front - cuz I wanted to look neat & clean (cuz of S of course). Bwaha! I did my best to come as close as possible to S and when he dropped some coins accidentally I came even nearer so my skinny shaved legs could "accidentally" brush against his body.
Ahahaha!!!!! XD
In case you're now imagining how he looked up lovingly & smiled at me you're WRONG.
In fact he picked up the coins & muttered angrily: "Hey people, do you really have to jam everywhere?!?"
And then his friend told him: "Heey [first name], come on!"

This was the time when I've got to know his first name as well. It's utterly boring & typically Slovak....even though he doesn't look Slovak at all.


In fact, he looks like Bae Yong Joon in the last episode of Winter Sonata!!!!!! *gasp* (there BYJ looked VERY weird)

See this pic????
Well, S has lips like that, glasses almost like that (if he hadn't changed them), cheeks like that & even nose like that!!!!!!

His eyes are different & his hair is different too. I can't decide whether having a different hair is worse or better though.....hahaha....cuz both BYJ (in the last episode) & Sachi have damn funny & terrible hair. XD

I'm SURE that S isn't a Korean though....I would've noticed that in the very 1st second of seeing him in Mc Donald's. :P

Bwaha.





Well my kids, the messy story of Sachi & me is drawing to its end.
Until this day I remember that boy for one simple reason - he's UNFORGETTABLE!!!! XD
Me, K, & UE regard him as our MUSE. Bwahaha. Poor him!!!! If he knew!!!!!! O_O *dies laughing*

The last time I saw him was...well....on the bus stop last year I guess. He looked ridiculous as ever, dressed neatly in his fave khaki green & black, guitar on his shoulder & curly hair flying around his mega-cheeks in a chilly autumn wind.
I looked at him, suppressed my laughter (he as well) & walked towards my father's flat, remembering all the unforgettable experiences concerning him & me. Mwahaha.

This would make a pretty end to the curly-haired confessions, wouldn't it???? ^^

I still wish we would meet one day. Heck, I want a photo of him!!!! Haha!

S LIVES ON FORCURLEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!

Listening to: "Cloud Nine" by psy. I LOVE Korean hip hop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yay!: I'm going to rewatch Winter Sonata RIGHT NOW. Gila. :P
Grrr: School tmr....
MUST DO: Email to Hanafi, ducky sis, Gou & Mr. Chew. Study Maths!!!

17

...is my age.
It's also the number of readers I averagely get everyday!!!! The proof:

VISITS
	Total	639
	Average Per Day	17
	Average Visit Length	6:03
	Last Hour	1
	Today	14
	This Week	116

Mwahahaha. 17 readers! Wow man....that's so fascinating, I feel like a star...just how come no one ever gave me something for free (e. g. 2 weeks at Koh Samui's beach bungalow for free??)?! XD

I'll tell you why!!!

The reason is simple.
I haven't defined the KEY CUSTOMERS of my blog (well, actually I doubt anyone defines it before setting up a blog).
In other words, no normal average person would read my blog cuz of the following factors:

* I'm from Slovakia but I'm a 1/4 Korean who listens to Asian music (K-pop rulezz!), craves for salmon teppanyaki, sushi, K-BBQ, [insert any yummy Asian food] on a daily basis, can cook only 3 Korean meals (bulgogi, bibimbap & pine nut rice soup), loves strictly Asian guys (only Sachi had the "privilege" of being my non-Asian crush - and for 4 or 5 yrs!!!) & has a Malaysian boyfriend who's actually a Thai-Chinese. Heck, I even use the Asian smilies! It's difficult to see me use :( or :) or ;) cuz I prefer T_T or u_u, ^_^ & ^_~ above them.
This all doesn't mean that I despise Slovakia & Europe - I love High Tatra, I love Kofola, I love bryndzove halusky (the national meal) but I'm also rather....Asianised. :P
So yeah. Like I said:
So messy & AZN-ised.

* I'm in endless love with DUCKS, THONGS, FEATHERS, ELKS, (COCO)BOOBS, (COCO)BRAS, PALM TREES, GLITTERS, DUCKWATER, POOP, TOWELS, TOMBS, DURIAN, CHILLI CURRY/CURRY CHILLI, PAKISTAN & ALASKA, BOXERS & KAWAII MANGA ANIMALS (oh no, I don't mean Pom!).
Except for the last thing I share this love with baibee, hubooby & partially with ducky sis Nisah.
Normal duckies don't understand WTP (what the poopness) am I quacking about.

* I use the Ducklish language randomly in this blog. You've seen it, read it & maybe wondered what it means.

When I say that I'm "sooo poopyliciously hapoopy", it only means that I'm very happy.
When I say that "he's my feathery darling" it means that he's just....a cutie & I love him. Hah.
When I say that something's "forthongever", it's forever as you've guessed.

There are countless more examples!

* I also use Singlish + Malay words randomly in this blog.
TERIMA POOPSIH la hubooby for teaching me. I'm pretty good liao! ^.^v
Knowing these lingos is banyak berbulu (now this was 2 in 1 with Ducklish!) especially when having so many friends from Singapoopore & Malaysia. I can read Malaysian & Singapooporean blogs & unless it's all written in Cantonese/Mandarin, Hokkien or Hindu - in other words, if it's in English combined with Malay words it's fine. I usually understand a lot from it.

It's kool too cuz I can write "SIAL KAU" in huge letters in my History notebook & no one can get angry so no one except for me knows what it actually means. *evil giggle*
And yes, I've done that liao. Mwahaha.

* Not enuff pics & when they are then it's usually something with ducks & etc. Or my wannabe camwhore pics but OOOPS!!!! I'm ugly! What to do lah?! O_o
I have no patience for make-up, Photoshop & posing like Xiaxue or Cheeselicious. In case of these two - they're prettier than me as well & they're both good at PS! Heck, I can't even do the round edges. -_-''' PATHETIC. *sigh*

* Who cares for my endless drooling at hot Koreans, especially at Choi Dong Wook???? For examply my boyfriend finds him awful & ugly. Or maybe he's just envious of his looks? *giggle giggle* Oh, anyways. Endless drooling for 4688643 times is boring. But that doesn't change the fact that he's hot, sexy, lovely, adorable & heavenly kool. WAHAHA.

* Who cares for my endless wailing & complaining???? NOBODY. -_- Not even myself. Hahahah. :P

* When I write about Slovakia (seldomly) or Bratislava, no one cares cuz no one knows where in the hell Slovakia is!!!!!!! >_< It's in Central Europe, you know? Just nearby the oh so famous Vienna.
See, see:

Fuck you Americans who shot Eurotrip & Hostel. Come see the real Slovakia. *mumbles angrily*

This is no Soviet Union 60 yrs ago. This is a modern country in EU, NATO, OSN & god-knows-what, we are called "the central European tiger" cuz of our economy growth & we have the most automobile factories in whole Europe cuz our employees & workers are said to be high-qualified, responsible & flexible.

We have a beautiful nature with lots of mineral springs, caves, deep forests & endemits living in there. We have famous spas & one of the best hiking paths located in High & Low Tatra in the world.
Some more, our hockey team & tennis players are very good!
Oh, and of course Bratislava. Come & see, you Americans who think that we don't even have a railways station. *remembers the Eurotrip*





All factors written liao? *re-reads*
I guess so.

The conclusion:
ONLY FEW DUCKS CAN RELATE & KNOW WHAT AM I QUACKING ABOUT.
Those "few ducks" - 17 readers/day.


I'm not keeping this for fame or what (I wouldn't get any anythongways)! That'd be ridiculous....and impossible too. :P


Irrelevantly..... I want the warm weather backkkkk!!!!!! T_T It's cold again....12C, rain & so on... *sigh* I wanna wear my new sandals & the MNG skirt & blahblah! Ah lianism rulez. :P

Irrelevantly 2..... I'm off to Piestany today. WHY? Tuition. =_= Lemme dieeeeeee~~~~~

Cenfad.
Cenfad.
Cenfad.
Cenfad.
Cenfad.
No 3rd grade, no Cenfad.

My mantra. *sigh*


Listening to: One song by Taebin I can't seem to be able to remember it's name. It's something like "Gge De Ul Sarang..." or what. O_o I forgot the English translation somemore! :P It's soooooo beautiful.... ^___^ Old too, I know! ^^
Yay!: It's weekend & I've slept for 12 hours. ^___^
Grrr: Physics & Maths.....my enemies whom I must kick to asses in order to get to CENFAD. Haiyoooh.
DON'T FORGET: Take the cam to PN, reply to ducky sis' & Hanafi's email, email Gourab, pick up the contact lenses on Tuesday!!!!!!

Feeling better thanks to YOU! ^_^

I'm hapoopy so I'm quacking in Ducklish!!!! Deal with it! ^___^ THE ENTRY IS FULL OF CRAP!!!!!

This day had a lot of positive bulus in it:

• My lovely ducky sis sent me a wonderful & looooooong email concerning my "I'm a piece of shit" problem. Ducky ducky... THANKS A MILLION. It really helped me out!!! ^___^ I shall reply you properly when I finish blabbing here at Blogger..
  
  It's very true what you told me..
  
  "You have to clean your act now or else there won't be a future in the uni of your choice. just keep that in mind, you need to work hard to achieve your dreams. nothing is every simple. not for me, not for you. it is very hard sometimes, i understand. but you can't give up. not now. you are this close to doing something you love, don't give it up, okay? :)
  
  when the pressure is building, remember, drop whatever you are doing, just take a deep breath, step back and grab a pen and paper and write down what is bothering you. because i believe when i write my problem down on the paper/mirror, then there is more space in my head to think :) then i can think clearly."
  
  ...and I WILL remember it & act like that!!!!
  *takes a deep breath*
  Ms. Ducky Myself, prepare for the remaining 44 schooldays full of terror & awful Maths & Physics. Don't die!!!! Not yet! You haven't bought your bungalow in Thailand yet! You haven't adopted your Cambodian baby girl yet! You haven't entered the darn uni yet! No wedding yet! Nothing! SURVIVE!!!!
  
  My dear ducky, I'm thankful with my whole BERBULU heart for always being there to help me! Me looooooooooooooooooooooooooooove you foreeeeeeeeeeever!!!! You're like a real sis to me....all complete with glittery bontot bulus! Wahahahaha! XD
  
  *huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge hugs* Lab you muchos!!!!!! ^_____________^
  
  
• My glittery duckyboy Ray sent me the following things:
  
  * the photos from this winter when he was here - I didn't have them anymore cuz I've removed them all on the day of the "break up". Korean drama behaviour, really. :P
  
  * two letters - they both kinda touched me as one of 'em was about our unpoopy rship & the other one was just a random one. Ray! Such a long letter, the 1st one! Wah! O_o Korean drama indeed.... *hihi*
  
  * a white boot cut Renoma microfibre thong which is gonna be VERY comfy! :D Hahaaa! Yes, you've noticed my THONG MOOD very well, I'm getting thongified these days & I'm happy for any thong..hah...and this one rulezz, the material is so nice. ^^
  
  THAAAAANKS MY MON MERDE!!!!! ^___^
  Eh, I hope we can survive this our lil' shit. Maybe all we need are to be kicked to ass for 2 times and we'll be OK. I'll ask my former saseong Pak Chol Min if he doesn't feel like kicking asses. Hahaha. :P
  
  I'll write you a letter during this weekend, OK? ^.^
  
  
• I bought new yellow sandals for summer for the "brutal" price of 490Skk. XD They have a lil platform (ca. 4cm), 3x 2 white strings across the sandal & yellow flowers on it. Looks damn summer-y & tropical....and I feel as if I bought it in Singapore, there I liked the shoes a lot & they were for similar prices. :D Sooo kool. I love it! :D
  
  
• It's FRIDAY!!!!!! 'Nuff said! *dances merengue around the room*
  
  
• I'm happy also cuz HE is the hottest sexiest yummiest loveliest *blahblahyaddayaddadrooldroolswoonswoon* man EVER alive!!!!!!!!!!
  Oh, Dong Wook oppa, WHY DON'T YOU LOVE ME?!?!?! *gets killed by Ray*
  So...err...What makes me happy?
  This photo (Credits to ToKorea.com.cn)!!!:
  Oooohhhhh, his looks are HEAVENLY. *dies* I'm completely obsessed with him, I can't help myself.....he's so DAMN CUTE!!!! I'm dying!!!! O_O ^______^
  
  Oooohhhh........ooohhhh.....aaaahhh....if I could just hug him & smell his (surely sexy) scent & rest head at his sexy chest and ahem...play with his (nest-style! XD) hair and....look into his eyes & BLAHBLAH!!!!
  
  I must stop cuz Ray will go & kick my ass. Wahahaha. XD
  
  Saranghaeyo..... *hearts in eyes*
  
  
  AHEM, I'm really sorry, I'm only a tiny bit mad, you know? *angelic smile*
  
  I like sweet kawaii hot Koreans with nice flat noses, sexy single eyelids, luscious lips, beautiful smile (Bae Yong Joon!!! *_*) & tall toned body.
  Ugghhhhhh. Aaaahhh.
  
  I totally can imagine Jong Moon oppa slapping his head in disbelief & laughing at me!!!! XD I think he has never met a madder 1/4 Korean than me! XD
  
  
  
  
• I'm happy cuz I have GREAT friends. ^___^ You duckies know who you are. I LOVE YOU ALL FORDUCKEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  
  
• Jong Moon oppa should get my letter by now or by next week. Whohohooo. I miss him!!!! I wanna go to Korea!!!!! *cries* Then I'd buy all of the CDs I want, nice clothes, Missha makeup which I like a lot, eat TONNES of yummy food & drool over those sexy Korean guys. <-- Ray, I AM loyal!!!!! ^^;;;;

Listening to: "Nae Ga Noo Neul Gam Neun Ee Yoo" by Taebin.
Yay!: Read this entry! ^^
Grrr: Tuition this weekend in Piestany. =_= TWO Maths tests next week. Shit.

A Piece Of Shit

My father returned from the meeting of parents & teachers and brought me the following news:

* I'm failing Physics & Maths
* 2 from behaviour is awaiting me cuz I'm an arrogant bitch
* I'm a slacking fuck who's skipping way too much
* If I fail the 3rd grade, I can't do maturita, I must repeat the whole year (1 more year there - please, just kill me~)
* If I can't do maturita & end up with not even the maturita paper, I can go clean shitty toilets or sell my body or wash the dishes or tide up autumn leaves at streets
* Forget Cenfad, forget your design, forget all your bungalows in Thailand, personal cooks, Baldinini heels, Connemara ponies, elegant white kitchens, mahogany floors, creamy white silky curtains, Shiseido & Kenzoki cosmetics, as many books & CDs as possible, FORGET ALL YOUR DREAMS, YOU FUCKING BITCH!!!!!!!!!

FUCKING SHIT.
I hate myself, I really fucking do. I've always thought how kool am I, how intelligent am I, how strong & nice & loveable am I and now I've finally woken up and saw the truth.

The truth is this:
I AM AN ARROGANT TOO SELF-CONIDENT DUMB LAZY IRRESPONSIBLE BITCH WHO DESERVES TO DIE & STOP ANNOYING THE OTHERS.

I won't go wail to anyone about this.
Don't even leave comments on this entry - I don't deserve 'em.
I deserve to fucking die & not poison this air anymore - I'm a pain in the ass to my whole family. Seven fucking years I were annoying my grandma & uncle, they had to tutor me....as you'd expect...with NO RESULT. I'm still getting 4 (D) from Maths & Physics. That means no brains at all - I'm as fucking stupid as some Jessica Simpson or any of those brainless bitches I've been despising all the time - until now when I've realized that I AM ONE OF THEM.

If I don't fucking start to STUDY now, I'm in the deepest shit of all.
My family is so good & intelligent - they all are with IQ at least 140, uni diploma (PhD.!), money, success, brains (esp my uncle who's a scientist) & a future.
I'm the black sheep, the shit, I'm the one who is different, stupid, IQ maybe 45, no money, no future, no brains & possibly not even one fucked up maturita paper.

I'm utterly disappointed in myself.
I hate myself for who I am - all this shit I am in is MY OWN fucking mistake.
If I ever want to even get to the maturita, I must start to STUDY. Fuck. STUDY. STUDY. STUDY!!!! I'll study until I get nuts and die from that - it's the only thing I deserve anyways! >_< *bangs head on the wall*


Why do I have a boyfriend & friends?
I don't deserve them.
I deserve to rot in a shitty hole, that's it. Guys, I love you all with my whole heart but I'm a piece of stinky shit so please understand that I don't deserve you. I deserve to die alone while washing a shitty toilet on the railway station at some village with 500 inhabitants who'll all call me a shitty whore.

AAARRGGGHHH.
I FUCKING HATE MYSELF.

Funny shopping

I should be sleeping already! WAH! =_= And irrelevantly...Ray read all he could in this blog so I MUST move to Yakutsk now & change my identity. Cialat. *sniff*
Gib emailed me today! ^^ Me is happy for her she got her Bc. degree! ^__^

Ah, anyways. Very briefly...

* my oil on canvas is DONE!!!! :D I even painted two little rabbits there. Mwahahahaaaaaaaa, it rocks. XD
* me & Kuci went shopping to obscure shops after the art course & I got gila and bought:

- A BRA (turquoise-white)
- A THONG (apple green!!!!!)
- BATH SPONGES (dark grey & magenta. Uhhh.~)
- CRAPPY HAIRCLIP (Made In China, very sexy, mmmm, 40Skk)
- LIL NOTEBOOK with something THAI written in front & a KAWAII MANGA ANIMAL (not Pom2005!) ~ I bought it only cuz of that Thai stuff written on it!!!!! XD I'm pathetic, hahhah. See see:

BWAHAHAHHAHHA. XD
Now you know what?

I wonder WTP is written there. I know like 5 Thais (+ Ray's mom & aunt and cuzin and..) BUT I don't want to ask them about that cuz what would they think?! *slaps head*

Hihihihi. Kawaii ne?! XD



Listening to: "Pride" by Se7en feat. Masta Wu. My fav song...tho...I WANT THE 3RD ALBUMMMM!!!!!!!! *cries heavily* Se7en is so damn sexy.... I'm losing my virginity just by looking at him!! *giggles* OH, MY MIND IS FULL OF PAKINESS NOW. *licks lips sexily & drags Se7en to a quiet place* XD
Yay!:I still can't believe I got 87% from a Chem test. OK, I was cheating but less than usually + whole the class cheats. I don't feel good cheating but sometimes it's just...inevitable. *angelic smile*
Grrrr: It seems like I'm UNABLE to go sleep in normal times. =_= 12.28am now!!!!!! AARRGGH!
DON'T FORGET: Send out that letter to Jong Moon!!!! Pick up that tea!!! Meet up with Li Hong!!!!

I have a HILARIOUS DIARY!!!!! *rofl*

Dearest Mr. Anupong A. from Chanthaburi & Mr. Raymond Ch. from Ampang are STRICTLY FORBIDDEN to read this entry!!!!!!!!!!!!! Also Pui, Phong, Munie, baibee & Gib must NOT mention anything to them cuz if they knew about what will be in this entry, I'll be forced to emmigrate to Yakutsk & change my identity. *shivers*

Shock?!
Oh, since yesterday I know very well what's that.
I'm sure you remember how I was saying that I didn't love Pom, that it all was a crap & that our 'relationship' was just a crap too. Oh yes & that I was dating him cuz I just 'felt like it' but I didn't feel any love to him.

HOLY. SACHI. <--- Don't ask! XD
O_O

I've opened my (written) diary yesterday. I like reading it sometimes cuz I find myself very ridiculous & I like to laugh at how ridiculous & idiotic I was.
So. *ahem*
I opened my diary & was randomly jumping from page to page. I knew that I kept this diary during the "Pom Times" & during the times when I got to know Ray and I 'broke up' with Pom and all this Korean drama. Yadda yadda blahblah.

It was interesting so I started to read it and.................................................. *takes a deep breath* .......................................................... THERE WERE WRITTEN THINGS LIKE THESE!!!!!!:

*flips the pages still in a state of shock & translates*
(The comments of Mich2006 are in grey & small btw.)


January 22th, 2005 (12.03am)

I LUV U POM! ^_^
Really. Seriously.. He's as INCREDIBLY SUPER as I think I'm gonna die from him. And btw, I have his recent 2 pix but I've printed out only 1 and even that one got printed out badly but Pom's face is OK. Here he is:
(I still have that pic! The one in my diary! *hihi* Hahahaaaa, he looks like some kawaii manga animal. *dies laughing* I must say that he looks better now - *cough esp topless cough* & thank god for that. *rofl*)

Eh, I don't mean it bad but he looks kinda weird, doesn't he? ^^ :P But in reality he's AS handsome as it's even impossible. I've seen him on the webcam again & he looks almost like Se7en (shit, I wish! *laughs*). Well, not really like he looks like that but he just reminds me of him SOMEHOW. ^_^
My collection of romantic lyrix from Korean singers has grown a lot, haha.
And that's cuz ----> POM.
Hehe.
Today he was calling me (ringing me up), I've rang him up back and he told me that he didn't think that I'd call him back. Hehe. He's POM. I can't just NOT CALL HIM!!!!
And hoooo....he told me "I luv u", totally like to the fone....aaaaaaahhhh.
Well, I'm going to bed or I'm gonna melt.
Hehehehe~ ^_^

*O_O XD*

OH MY BULUNESS. @_@ XD *laughs till tears flow from her eyes* I AM SO FUCKING RIDICULOUS, IT'S JUST HILARIOUS TO READ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *rofl rofl rofl rofl*
Oh Pom, if you knew..... XD
Wahhahahahhauihuhuuhuhuuhuhuhehhehehhehehehgigiigigihihiihihihahhahahahha~~~~~
*cries from laughter*

Shall I continue? *bats eyelashes*
I should be sleeping already actually (12.56am & I'm waking up at 6.25am!!!!) but I CAN'T leave this entry unfinished. I just can't. Lemme post another stuff from my diary:

*tries to stop laughter & translates*

January 27th, 2005

Today I feel like Pom doesn't love me..for a change.
I'm sure I'm again paranoid as always...I hope he loves me cuz I'd be able even to die for him. I LOVE HIM. POM, UR MY EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD... I LUV U.~ *_* (See how I automatically changed the Eng used into "da hip hop" way? Pom talks like that, that's why. *giggles*)
Tommorrow I have a test from Bio, I haven't studied at all yet. Fuck it. Fuck everything. I wanna be with Pom...and I wanna be sure that he loves me...cuz if no, I'm gonna die. :(
I was watching the Diary Of Sisters. Young-Hun and Yu-Jin hugged as beautifully in the end as I've almost died. *wipes tears*
I'm off to study. I'll write it badly tommorrow anyways...FUCK IT!!!! >.<

*wipes tears from laughter*

Wanna more?! XD
THE FOLLOWING THING IS DAMN HILARIOUS & I AM DYING FROM LAUGHTER AS I AM READING IT!!!!!! *cries laughing* But it's beautiful in its own way! Oooohhh!!!! OOOHH!!! Wahaha!!! :D Me ruk it! :D

February 14, 2005 (it's already after midnight --> 12.09am)

Tommorrow we have a test from PHYSICS but I have no strenght for studying it. (I've always been a slacker!) I really CAN'T MAKE IT. (Phy or the following thing? O_o -->) Pom sent me this kind of SMS (unchanged mistakes in English):
"HI MY DEAR, IM FEEL SICK I THINK I'VE FEVER. CAN U C ME ON 2MORROW? I MIZ U SO MUCH. WHEN DO U OUT FROM SK? I WILL TAKE U C MY FAMILY. I LOVE U, U R MY BREATH MICH."
Man. He's so cute. ^_^ That "u r my breath", he meant "my air" but we all geddit.
I think I'm gonna die, he's REALLY SUPER. My dearest boy ^_^ :D *hearts in eyes*
Things are working good for me... I HAVE THE ALLOWANCE TO GO TO SINGAPORE!
Lynna almost died when I told her that. ^_^ For half a year!!! I'll also buy visas to Malaysia & to Thailand. ^_^ (I didn't know I need no visas to Msia.)
I'll go to Malaysia with Lynna & I'll go visit Pom in Thailand.
AAAAHHH. ^_^
I'll be in Singapore!
With Lynna!!!!
I'll meet Pom!
I'll meet his family!!!!
AAAAAH. LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!

*laughs like a total retard & gets drown in wavy haired memories as she proceeds to write the following 3 lines*
Pom, soon we're going to hug each other
I promise U 2 luv U more than anyone
Ur my everything! ^_^
Lynnie, soon we're going 2 hug each other 2
I promise U 2 be ur bestest friend
No matter what! ^_^ (Awwww... ^.^)

(Oooooohhh noooooo, I'm dying from laughter seriously, the following stuff will make me die for 200%!!!!!! XD XD XD XD XD *points downwards*)
Pom - my star, my sun, the most beautiful flower out there, the darkest sky, the brightest snow...my EVERYTHING. I LOVE YOU POM.

Okay, I'm again getting crazy. :P (I admit that, Mich 2005! *rofl*)
G2G. Physics is expecting me, she can't wait for me!!! >_< -_-"






*cramps on tummy from all the laughing*
Oooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. XD I think my diary is HILARIOUS. *laughs* I'd post more hilarious entries from my hilarious diary but it's already 1.25am here & that means that if I went to bed now, my complete sleep time would be only 5 hours....and it'll be less than that actually. *sigh* Boxed panda look again. =_=

But...but....THAT DIARY!!!!! I AM IN A BRUTAL SHOCK!!!!! O_O *faints*
Was it really ME? ME?! ME, MICHAELA?!?! O_o :D
I totally forgot that I was so crazy in love with him. Hihihihihi! :P Nice to remember that....but...now when he comes online I'll start to laugh like a retard & he'll ask me why and I'll be like "Ummm...u know.... *innocent sweet smile* ^^;;;"
And!!!!
Usually I have my webcam on both with Ray & Pom. And it's usual too that when Ray is online, Pom is online too....and....when I'll be talking to Ray & suddenly Pom comes online & we'll start to talk....I will start to laugh like a deranged ass & then BOTH Ray & Pom will ask me what's wrong with me and then HALLELUJAH!!!!!! *drops dead imagining that*

DEAR LORD, NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD XD

Wahahhahahhahah!!!! I can't take this!!!! XD XD *rofl* I shouldn't have started to read my diary. Now I can't look at Pom the way I did before cuz it'll remind me that he's "the most beautiful flower out there" and I'll end up crying from laughter. XD
And then.....IN THAILAND ON XMAS!!!!!!! O_O @_@
Oh no.
Oh no.
Ooooohhhh noooooooooooooo~~~~ XD
I'll MEET him! I'll MEET also his FAMILY!!!! And he wants me to meet his mom & etc., etc.! OMG, ooohh wahhahahahha, this is gila, I'm dying. XD

Oh. My. Godness.
NO MORE DIARIES. XD

It seems like I loved Pom & that's really shocking cuz I thought I didn't!!!! *faints* Thank god that the SMSes I've been sending him at that time are removed already. *whew* I'm sure it was something mushy. XD


I will no more call him "HUSBAND 2014" (the cooking business deal, rememba?) cuz it reminds me of the entries in my hilarious diary. XD And that's scary! Eeeekkk!!! So much love!! Overdose! Eeekkk! Isn't it amazing that I'm supposed of so many deep crazy feelings???? *giggles*

Oh, btw. Recently when we were supposed to meet online, he was wearing the t-shirt I gave him a long time ago (my diary, Jan 28, 2005: I've just packed the t-shirt & CD for Pom. ^^ I hope that he'll like that t-shirt!!! It costed me 99Skk, except of that tree for Jong-Moon it is so far the most expensive gift I've ever bought. But for Pom...that doesn't count. He's special 2 me! ^_^). AMAZING, ISN'T IT?!
Men. I'll never understand them. :P


Ray, you have no this kinda entries in my diary cuz I was just blogging when we've declared our love. Ehehe. Sorry la.
Still, stay tuned for the diary entries where I mention R for the 1st times. It's AMAZING. *giggles*



Listening to: Some Jay Chou. Dunno what is it but it's from the Initial J album.
Yay!: Ooohhhh Pom, if you knew about this, you'd die laughing with me, I'm sure of that. XD
Grrr: Oooohhh Pom & Ray, if you knew about this, I'd have to emmigrate to Yakutsk & change my identity, I'm sure of that. XD :S
DON'T FORGET: Pick up the tea from R at the post & send out the card to Jong-Moon oppa!!!!!