Wednesday, November 29, 2006


Such a boring day.

Me was on good terms with UJ and now again, we are like WTF cuz I told him that he's everything but a gentleman & he disagrees.
Well, but I am RIGHT cuz he is everything but a gentleman! AAARGGH!!! When was the last time he opened the door for me?! Never, yeah. H reminds me of Raymond, he also had no idea about the way of treating women. ARRGGH.
Thank god I'm not dating UJ cuz if I did, I would kick his ass & end that r'ship. Hahahaha. :P

Also I'm failing Maths & today is the parents & profs meeting so I'm gonna get killed.

Life is sooo ironic.
Whenever I'm somewhere with UJ, there are heaps of yummylicious guys...but I can't do anything about them cuz I'm only with UJ and that would look weird if I came up to the guy and started some flirt or whatever.
On the other hand, when I'm NOT with UJ, the yummylicious guys are gone too.

My application to the art uni in BA is I'll have to wait for the entrance exams date. Not like I care... I don't wanna attend that school anyways.

Wanna be in KL liao.

Cenfad Cenfad.
My own apt.
Sushi, K-food, char kway teow, wheat grass drink, chrysanthemium drink, Suria KLCC, Petaling Jaya, palm trees, pisang trees, stinky durians, dragon fruit.
Hot guys, neoprint machines, kool fashion, sexy shoes.
Exotic me! HAHA!! Angmoh chick, everybody's gonna look at me at Cenfad. Muahaha.


If God actually exists, He REALLY should help me with Cenfad!!!!! *wink wink to the sky*


Listening to: "Heal The Pain" by George Michael
Yay!: Dunno. My pants are shortned. YEAH.
Grrr: That meeting....ALAMAK!!!!!! @_#

Tuesday, November 28, 2006


Me & UJ are not on good terms since today. Ahem.

He invited me for the glass plastics vernisage (?) few days ago saying that the sculptor is his late uncle. He also told me to ask Kucci whether she'd like to go or I did. He didn't, however, bother to ask her personally, so Kucci said she doesn't care & won't go.
I still wanted to go cuz I like glass sculptures in general, they are so airy and on the recent art course I asked Emil (one my boy friend from there with face like a pussycat, hahahaaa) whether he'd like to go for an glass art exhibition on Thursday, 5pm.
He said he'll see, but in general, why not, he'd only have to skip tennis, but whatever.

So I told this to UJ today.

And he got angry at me, asked me who's Emil, told me he doesn't know him & it's not my exhibition to invite random people over.
Sorry sweetheart, but its not your exhibition either....even though the artist is your late uncle.

The last drop was when he told me that I'm NOT GOING as well.

FINE! But alright. Either me & Emil or nobody!
I wanted to take Emil with so I won't be yet again in the well-known situation of me, UJ & his whole family together. I wanted Emil to be there (since Kucci wouldn't go) so I could avoid all those small talks with UJ's family and then make them think happily that my "relationship" with UJ is blooming & growing and blahblahyaddayadda.

However, taking Emil with turned out to be a mad idea.
Do I get it right?!
My friends all agreed on the theory that he's jealous cuz he loves me and he actually enjoys the fact that everyone thinks me & him are dating.

Fucking annoying, sorry to say this, but if he loves me, he's showing it off like a 4 year old kindergarten boy.

It's just me to whom he's rude. It's just me whom he playfully slaps until I have bruises like recently on my right arm. ARRRGGHH. It's just me whom he takes to all his shoppings and then asks me about each piece of clothing he's trying on.
I mean, HELLOOO!!!!!!
@_@ Get a grip man and either confess to me or stop behaving like this. It's tiring. I'm already tired of your wannabe angry comments on whatever I do; I know that when you tell me in a 'disgusted' voice that I'm ugly, fat, stupid & insane you don't mean it. I AM NOT THAT BLIND.

Hello, boy.

You rested your head on my shoulder.

You told me to grab your arm recently at that class' fiesta when we all were out in a forest. When I didn't want to, you looked straight into my eyes and ASKED ME to. Hm.

You put your hand over mine & then, like a 3 year old boy, exclaimed in a wannabe disgusted voice "Eeeew! Your hand! OMG! How come it's here?!" or something like that. Good that before you did that, I saw you eyeing my hand; I suppose you wanted to know its precise location.

Hello, boy.
I wasn't sure about that but now I am: YOU DO LOVE ME.
I think I should be proud on that, cuz when a boy whose brain is full of Bang & Olufsen, Apple, Aston Martin & Range Rover happens to have feelings for someone; for me somemore!; it's certainly a MIRACLE.
You are a human with a heart. Mmmmmm. Great to know!

This your "OKAY! YOU AREN'T COMING THEN!" was the last drop. I think I'm gonna ignore you until you get your brain back. Jealousy? Pffff. I'm sad that you don't understand that even though I like you (not *that* way, although there were times like that, I confess) I won't date you. No, I WON'T. Why??? Cuz I'd break up with you. I AM SURE OF THAT.


And fucking UJ, he infuriated me like never; I'm not one of HIS OWNNNNN Hilfiger jumpers to decide on whether I'm going alone or with some Emil when Emil was supposed to be a substitute for Kucci. KNN.

OK, I don't think this post made sense but whatever. He just came online to ICQ. I damn fucking bet he will NOT message me....and so I won't message him. Why should I, anyways? Pfff. =_-

Listening to: "Grandma" by Jay Chou
Yay!: I loooove Michelle, that my new friend from Grade 2. ^_^
Grrr: I'm FAILING MATHS. @_@
Finallyyyyyyyyyy here!!! ^__^

SORRY!!!!!!!! My net got ducked up... I couldn't access anythong. At first at least the ICQ was okay, but then even *that* got ducked up and I was abso-ducking-lutely lost.
No access to MSN.
No access to ICQ.
No access to my e-mail.
No access to uni websites which I needed a lot as I'm completing my application for the University of Fine Arts in BA now.
Well, the application is almost done, I just have to get my (awful) grades get signed by the headprof, get the stamp from my doctor that I'm a healthy ducky suitabooble for any uni and pay the entrance exams fee of 1200 Sk.

I should go liao, it's almost 00.30am.... I slept just VEEERY little last night and therefore I was cursing like 50 drunk pirates today. Hahaha.


Ain't that amazing? :D

More later!
Good night! ^^

Listening to: "No Snitchin'" by Chamilionaire
Yay!: Got 2 nice tops. Saw Borat & Devil Wears Prada. FINALLY! ^^
Grrr: It's just ME whom is UJ treating like a complete %&*^%%**^%!!! That must be from his undying, secret love for me. Or if not, I'm gonna cut of his d!ck. MWAHAHAHA!!!!

Tuesday, November 21, 2006




*huuuuuuuuuuugeeee enormous gigantic hugzzzz*

(And I still owe bday gifts to my baibee, so they will come soon too!)


I have to write that bodoh "formal letter to a lingo institution" for tmr's English class now.....AIYOOOH. =_= *yawn*

WHY do I see S in every other car passing by?! -_~ Must be some disease. AAARGGHH. And I thought I'm healed or whatever....but I'm not. He's so imprinted to my peanut brain...I just can't do anything about it. =_= SIGH. Sometimes I wish I hadn't met him....but that would mean that I'd be a different duck now. Sigh sigh.

I saw a FASCINATING GUY today in the school!!! *__*
He's tall....190cm maybe....lanky....with brown, messy hair....beautiful eyes....totally stylish look...and beautiful hands.
He's from the 3rd grade but he's the same age as me.
FASCINATING!!!!! *__* ^__^
I stood by him today & just couldn't stop staring...hahahaa...I hope he doesn't think I'm some total weirdo now. XD

OK, to Eng now, cannot tahan being awake for too long today.. =_=

Listening to: Jemne melodie radio, if you wanna try it's a radio with slow, mellow, relaxing songs.
Yay!: THAT guy!!!
Grrr: Nothong much actually. :)

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Lazy, Lazy, Lazy

It's Sunday today & my Sunday is held in the meaning of COMPLETE LAZINESS.
Shocking, ain't it. Ha ha ha.
So far all I did was chatting to people on ICQ, went out with Haku, got angry at the ducked up PC, ate & did manicure. WOOOW.

Yesterday I've been to Teresa's & Pedro's bday party and came home at 1.30am by feet again....aiyooh... WHEN WILL THERE BE A DAY WHEN I'LL BE HOME BEFORE MIDNIGHT???!!!! WHEN???? :P O_o
Maybe never. =_=

It's curious walking home alone in the quiet, nocturnal city... I had to cross the highway and for that I used the overhead for pedestrians... I saw the cars passing by under me, I saw the distant lights of the very historical downtown...I heard the rustling leaves on the trees...
I went half of the way with UJ who lives nearby me, but as he's everything but a gentleman, he gave a damn flying duck about walking me home - who cares, it's just 1.30am!!! - so I went totally alone for the last 15mins.

It'd be GREAT to have a boyfriend who'd walk me home at these late hours!!!
Bratislava is a safe city but never know whom can you meet at 1.30am when walking upstairs through a park full of rustling trees. Hm.

*thinks of various cute Koreans in polo t-shirts*


Yaaay, by the way, check out this Sang Woo's photo:

He looks so damn awesome & hot & lovely, like the perfect English gentleman, it stops my heart!!!! O_o *___* That irresistibly hot face! AAAHHHH!!!! *dies*

I'm over BYJ. ^_~ Hahahaha. KWON SANG WOO is the new SARANG of mine!!!! ^__^ *__* Saranghaeyo!


"La La La" by Se7en ROCKS DUCKS!!!! :D

It's still his mainstream R&B pop but I still love it. :P And he!!! OMD!!!! *_* *eyes pop out* VEEEERY VEEEERY HOT!!! ^_^
That girl....oh...couldn't she switch places with me? She'd be bored at home talking to people on ICQ and I'd be hugging Se7en and later kissing him. Muahahahaaa! B-)


I think my obligatory autumn depression is here liao!!! x_x


AAARGGHHHH!!!!! >_< @_#

Listening to: "Hot In Herre" by Nelly on a radio
Yay!: pretty nails? -_- *yawn*
Grrr: I WANT THE FUCKING SUMMER BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, November 18, 2006

I Love Days Like These ^____^

I'm going to die from exhaustion soon, but this day was too great & too crazy to ignore.... I have to type down all the things we've gone thru before I forget all the tiny & oh-so-important details. :)

It all started on 8am when UJ and his parents came to pick me up & we were off to Vienna. SHOPPIIIIING!!!! *_*
I tell ya, the shops in Vienna are 200% better than those in Slovakia! @_# I
I bought black pants, two belts (one black & elegant, the other thin, gold & with some golden dangly whatever), white-black polka dot tank top, black bra and a brown-dark brown-white stripey long-sleeved t-shirt with V-neck. Awesome. :)

Of course me & UJ had to listen to occassional murmurings about me being "his lady", some know-it-all-like type of winks (namely from his mom to me) and the best convo between all of us ever:

UJ's mom: "Well, have you bought anything?"
Me: "I wanted to buy a coat...but instead I bought some lingerie. :P"
UJ's mom winks, thinks deeply & then looks at us:
"Well, at least you could....!!!!"
Us alarmed: "WHAT..????!!!!"

I swear to the Mightiest Feather that she meant "Well, at least you could look sexy when doing it with UJ." I SWEAR SO. She THINKS we're sleeping together. Oh. My. Duckness. *faints from laughter* Yeah, we're such a harmonious couple, we also sure do have sex.
HA HA HA HA, lemme die from laughter please! XD

Well, after we've checked the shops & bought all, the UJs drove me home....and on 6pm I was meeting up with AL & one my other friend at one square so we could be off to some mega-prom or whatever.
That mega-prom was also MEGA-EMMBARRASING, but at least we had a bit of fun there.... I was pretending to be a tough hip hoppa and was 'rapping' stupidities here & there...hahaa....and with this my other friend we were salivating at guys in polo t-shirts & stripey/plain V-neck jumpers...hahahaaa...yes, we're mad. :)

AFTER that we've decided to go to the downtown, to Malecón (a Cuban bar) with live Cuban music on Friday but as the people inside were mostly above 35 yrs old, we felt rather weird & left. :P We've checked few other places to go to (Medusa, that bar nearby it) but then decided to go to Casa de Havana in front of Medusa for some mojito. :)
AL & Tt left liao so just UJ, me & Mi stayed....and had a great time. :) Later came the guys (in a rather drunk mood) and among them we've found Miki who stayed with us in Casa de Havana and we've danced to the latino music...poor UJ, Mi wasn't there anymore then and he was sitting all alone at the table. Muahahaha, boy, next time go dancing as well! :P

We've left around the midnight and went by feet the way to UJ's house from where I was planning to take a taxi home or wait for the night's bus.
We went, me, UJ & Miki and then sat down on some bench and talked for a while......and then UJ did a weird thing....he looked at the sky, sighed and said:

"Aaaaaaaahhh, this is so romantic here..! This tree & us here in the night and those lights of BA down there.."

We mumbled something like "Mmmm, yes.." and suddenly I felt UJ's head resting on my shoulder for a while. WTP. O_o Okay la, probably he does like me more than a friend. O_o

Then Miki left and me & UJ went all the way to where he lives and talked whatever... I swear we've walked 45km today! :P
I planned to call a taxi then and so I did - but well, they didn't have any cab for even despite UJ's protests I said I'm going home by feet. It's not a very intelligent idea, I mean, the area where we live is not very dangerous and we live like 15mins away from each other, but it was 1.10am and night, darkness & nobody out there...pretty creepy for a girl alone some more. O_o

UJ looked seriously worried and told me to ring him up all the time until I come home AND when I come home to send him an SMS that I am home. Sweet, isn't it? :D Such a caring ducky! :D

I came home about 30mins ago and...sorry....I must go now, my eyes are itchy & I'm feeling like I'm going to fall asleep here,'s 2.22am (weird time O_o), mind you!!! @_@ *yaaaaawn*

Without YOU my life would've been a boring shit....and this my love of course comes to all my friends here & abroad, I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!! *__* ^___^ :-*****

Thanks for existing. ^_^ You're my EVERYTHONG. ^^


Listening to: "Erase/Rewind" by The Cardigans
Yay!: ALL TODAY. The fact that I'm going to sleep now. ^^
Grrr: I'm tireeeeeed!!!!

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

99 Secrets

Check out what I've found at the SGClub!

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls. (Fine, you all should love me, I like the polo t-shirt, V-neck golf look now. There's hardly anything NEATER!!! :P)

2. Guys hate flirts. (Ehm? But one my boy friend told me that guys can't resist a deep, flirty look into his eyes. Or they means flirts as...girls flirts? OK, I'm bodoh. :P)

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.

5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about. (Do they?)

7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking! (Primitives!!!! >_<)

13. Guys cry!!!

14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" Would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate gays! (My cousin is the living example of this...and so is my father.)

25. Guys love their moms. (UJ. Ha ha ha. Mommy's sweetheart.)

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses. (I don't believe this!!!!!)

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.

28 You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys' weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting. (U sexy gal ok i wana hev sex wid u tonihgt ok ur boobs soe byg oooh u sexy thing wanna kissy kiss kiss ok ok bye - NO GUY IS BAD?! YEAH??? I love this young gentleman: WAHAHAHAAAAAA~~~ XD)

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty, even a small dot. (I wouldn't say so. -_~)

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. (OKEH. So UJ probably loves me happily ever after cuz all he does is TEASING ME. WTP arr!)

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts. (HAHAHAHAHAAAAAA, yeeeees, and no guys drink, smoke and watch porn, instead they read Shakespeare's books, play chess and iron clothes, AM I RIGHT???? *sarcastic laughter*)

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much. (I haven't noticed it yet. Well...okay...mai baibee is an exception. ^_~)

46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more. (Yup, and the girl takes it easily, hm?)

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up. (HAVE YOU HEARD & UNDERSTOOD IT, ALL YOU CHILDLISH BEINGS OUT THERE???)

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me"

59. Guys don't really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake. (Girls like me love GUYS who can cook or bake. Anybody like that out there? ~_^)

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding! (Weird.)

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well. (Yeah, I've noticed that liao. Grrrr.)

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things. (Interesthong theory :P)

86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you. (I don't understand this; EXPLANATION, anyone??? O_o)

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes. (What about ateists & agnostics? Ha?!)

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair! (Yeah, I've noticed liao too. :P)

97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you. (UJ once told me this but I'm not sure if he meant it seriously or sarcastically. :P)

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.



I'll share a thing with you.
I haven't seen him for like a half-year liao and therefore his face in my mind is fading...and fading...and even though he will always be in my mind ,(he is graffitti-ed to my brain after those 7 years of platonic love *weak smile*) my heart has lost that OOMPH.

I think about him trying to recall whatever detail.....and what do I feel?

Nothing much, really. -_- *sigh* I still remember how much I loved (or was just infatuated with?) him but now when I think about him, I don't feel those old feelings anymore.

Sure, we grow and with us growing, our heart grows too. Or so I believe.

I must sound like a mad schizophrenic to you now, don't I? :)
First I wail that *I'm sooo much in love with S & he'll never love me back & I MUST forget him and move on*..............................and when it happens (or it looks like so) I wail again, now at the fact that all *that* happened.

I shouldn't miss losing the last bits of interest in S I feel like I've lost a part of me. It sounds really weird & totally anti-girl-powerish BUT really, I feel so.
You wouldn't understand me, unless you've had such a long-term platonic love as me. :P

S is also responsible for me being who I am - I tried to be beautiful, neat, charming, well-behaved & polite whether in front of him (when I met/saw him) or just when I thought about him, checked my looks & my behaviour and then asked myself what would he think about it....yeah, I corrected myself, I tried hard to be THE GIRL.
Pathetic, isn't it...... hahahaha... :P
Ironic too, as we know about the 575645 times when I got completely emmbarrased in front of him. HAHA!!! XD
I'll be telling about that to my grandkids one day. XD ^_~

As the time went by, I accepted that I'll never, NEVER date him...I'll never be his girlfriend, that it's not possible....and I even managed not to die of jealousy when I saw him in the downtown holding hands with that his blonde girlfriend.
I hope he's happy. :)
(Seems like I haven't lost the oomph completely :P - my inner voice squeaked into my ear just now: "YEAH! You hope he's happy?!Don't you lie, girl. You want him to be happy - but you'd prefer him being so with you and nobody else.")


I wanna see him....I wanna....!
I'll be here for *counts on fingers* 10 more months (if the intake to Cenfad is in September) and then...not anymore, only during the Xmas. My point is - relatively soon I'm leaving and before I leave I wanna see my longest platonic love once again so I can remember him forever. :)
Cheesy. EWWWW.
But S is someone really special....I will never forget him.

Hmmm. I'm thinking about it once again, I have to say that I HAVEN'T lost the oomph nor the feelings for him - I just haven't seen him for such a long time and that made him fall into the back of my brain (but there he's having a good time, I hope).

I smile whenever the trolleybus passes by or stops at the bus stop where he used to get off.
I squint at the cars passing me by from Koliba if there is his Fiat Punto.

Yes, even until today. I'm such a pathetic girl. :P

Hmmm....actually... I wish I had a boyfriend now! ^^
Well, EHM, I think I could always get UJ (believe me, it wouldn't be that difficult, but I can't imagine kissing him, I just can't imagine him being my serious, real bf - damn absurd) but nope - my ambitions are higher! B-)
Maybe there'll be some outstanding Asian guys in Vienna on Friday!!!! B-))) Wish me luck.... I'm gonna flirt like there's no tommorrow...while shopping. Hahaha. :P

12.38am? O_o
Whoops..I'd quack more but I can't because I still haven't even taken a shower and tmr I wake up at 7.45am. Aaaah, this daily routine... =_=

Listening to: FunRadio
Yay!: I'm gonna buy nice, black pants on Fri. Mmmmm.
Grrr: I wrote that Maths today and....5 I think. Another one. *bangs head* So far I'm flunking Maths. @_#

This is gonna sound advertorial, but I don't mean it like that. :P

Tommy Hilfiger is not just a good brand BUT they have lovely adverts too.
Look at this one!!! *___*

*feels very fluffy & warm inside*
*eyes are shining*

THEY. ARE. SO. LOVELY!!!! *___* ^___^

Listening to: "Hurt" by Christina Aguilera
Yay!: It's so warm outside! I'm lovin' it! ^_^
Grrr: I haven't seen S for such a long time....buhuhuuuu.... T_T I wanna!

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Oooops, I Did It Again!

11.20pm and I still have to:

  • read 80 more pages from one book (WTP AAAHHH!!!!)
  • study Maths for tmr's test (but I think I'm gonna get anothet 5, fuck)

DUCK IT!!!! *bangs head on the printer*

Anythongways la.


*cough hahhahahahahhahah cough*

During the summer UJ & AL slept over in our apartment.....and today UJ told me that when he told that to his mother, she started to educate him about sex & the right sexual behaviour.

*falls from the chair laughing*

NO. COMMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD XD XD XD XD

I don't think I can face her with a straight face on Friday when we're off to Vienna. Probably I'm going to die in laughter spasms. XD

UUUAAAA. She really thought my only dream is to shag UJ??? Oh duckness. *slaps bontot feathers* I don't wanna shag anyone but if I really had to, I'd choose Kwon Sang Woo. ^^;;;; Understandable, ain't it???? ^____~ *RROOOAAARRRR*

Enough quacking.
THE BOOK IS WAITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Listening to: "When You Believe" by Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston
Yay!: I bought the new Inspire mag..mmmm!

Monday, November 13, 2006


I've realized that I LOVE Kwon Sang Woo.

*melts* I love men in suits.....

*melts even more* SUITS!!!!

*melts totally* And if they're as damn hot as him....

Those HEAVENLY FEATURES!!!! *dies*
Those LIPS!!!! AAAAAHHHH!!!!

I'm DYING. Mmmmm..... *___*

Oh gosh, I wish I had a boyfriend who looked (or was! HA!) like Sang Woo!!!! *___*

Listening to: "Something Stupid" by Robbie Williams & Nicole Kidman
Yay!: I have a new friend! :) She's UJ's friend but now she's mine too & we're totally similar! :)
Grrr: School tmr. AAARGGH.
I Don't Think He Himself Knows What He Wants
{Nor Do I}

I'd REALLY love to show you some pics from the prom, but after my father "repaired" the PC recently, I can't launch Photoshop, therefore I also can't resize the pictures and I can't add my blog's URL at 'em. FUCKIN AWESOME. =_=

But know what ah..... It went fairly well!!!! :D

My make-up & hair was by Alena Schulczová, so was Kuci's and we were totally the most beautiful ones. ^_^ It was expensive, yeah, but it was worth it!!! :D

Well well well, no more info about the prom, there'll be a separate entry about it later - with pics!!! B-) Stay tuned!

*oh God, make my Photoshop work*
*please please pleaseeee*


Yesterday UJ suggested:

"Hey, don't you wanna go with us to Vienna on Friday?"

Me, without asking who's "us" (as I thought it's "us", the gang) agreed with that idea immidiately cuz Vienna rulez and I've been there recently last December with Raymond and that was a pretty annoying trip.

"Okay, no problem, I'll go!" :D
"But who is 'us' anyways?"
"My parents and maybe my brother too."
"O_o !!!???"

Yeah. So I'm going to Vienna on Friday with UJ & whole his family. Actually I'm praying that his bro won't go, so we can take some Al with us....that's our girl friend and classmate and not a person from his family.
This UJ.
According to him, his parents no more think we're dating *whew* but now I have some feeling that he is kinda...hitting on me! Isn't he? *slaps head*
What's more absurd than anything else, he was talking about me going to Vienna with his MOTHER.

When will he propose to me, arrrr????!!!!

That's gonna come soon. :P =_=

It would be very nice of him to tell me about what he feels to me cuz then I'd at least know how to behave to him.

Okay la.
I'm talking to Pom now but I think I'll have to tell him "byebye" for now cuz I'm planning to cook myself rice, omelettes á la Malaysia (with soya sauce, mmm) and those fake crab surimi sticks.
Very easy, very light, very yummy. YEAAAHH.

Listening to: "Sebenar Cinta" by Siti Nurhaliza
Yay!: I skipped school today...heh...
Grrr: Got period, got cramps, got awful skin. AARRGGHH

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Glamour Queen I

I have my red satin knee-lenght dress, silver peep-toe sandals, fake bijoux earrings & necklace pretending to be from brilliants, the 2000Skk for Alena (hairstylist & make-up artist 2 in 1) on the table, Gucci Envy (awesome perfume for evening), some money on the account left for buying a nice bra tmr cuz I HAVE NO NORMAL BRA AAARRRGGHHH and some more money left on the account for the party at Dopler where we're probably heading tmr....or well, in 2 days, cuz it's gonna be around 4am on Nov 11th. :P


Wish me luck. O_o *shivers*

Listening to: "Without You" by Shinhwa
Yay!: The prom!
Grrrr: The prom!
Limes 4eva!!!


To hell with Azureus!!!!
:D *hopefully they aren't gonna sue me for this*

I TOTALLY love it. Downloading with LimeWire is so darn ducking EASY!!!! :D Just type what you want to the Search column and voila - you've got it!!! :D
Actually anything you think of! *___*

I've just downloaded (cuz it's so damn fast) some songs by Wheesung, Epik High, Mariah Carey, Robbie Williams, Siti Nurhaliza, Nelly and Shinhwa...haha....a weird group of artists together I know.... BUT I LOOOVE THEEEM!!!!! ^____^

*dances around & sings aloud*

Mmmmmm, Wheesung now.
Sentimental Korean ballads is what I LOVE. ^____^
Along with hip hop & R&B and 50 Cent's "Candy Shop" with the pakiest most perverted lyrics EVER:



Uuuuh, so...ROOAARRR. Hahahaha.

I talked to Mek today & she said that it's not that difficult to get into Cenfad! :D YEAAHHH!!!
Nice day today! I'm in a good mood!!! :D
Also I got a nice lime green cardigan from some second hand (no money, haha) and that rocks ducks.

Uh. 12.39am.
Off I go I guess....after Mariah's "Never Too Far" which is the most beautiful song EVER. *__*

Listening to: "Never Too Far" by Mariah Carey
Grrrr: The prom on Friday! EEEKKKK!!!! O_o

Monday, November 06, 2006

Tired & Pissed Off
{Lemme rant, just lemme rant a bit lah}

I can't even launch the MS Office!!!!! *screams in anger*

As usual, okay.... I know I'm always sleep-deprived and I know it's really unhealthy but I can't help myself with my insomnia or whatever - yesterday I again couldn't fall asleep until wee hours of like 2.30am or so. And I wake up at 6.25am. Hmmm... LOVELY. -_-

It's 9.20pm and I'm supposed to study for tmr's Society Studies and History of Art tests but it's not like I have any energy left for it. =_=


I YEARN for the time after maturita when I'm accepted (or not) to whatever uni!!!! FREEDOM!!!!
AAAH!!!! *___* *shiny eyes*

Sunday, November 05, 2006


Pardon me the title.
But. BUTT.
My father has finally done something with my ducked up PC and's ducked up another way. =_=
My Azureus ain't working. So isn't iTunes, Winamp and even the Windows Media Player!!!! All my mp3s are prob gone and if my Photoshop is working, then I'm a Goddess of Whatever.

I'm now reinstalling my MSN.....and I've already reinstalled my ICQ. *sighhh*

273-997-013, don't forget la, if you have ICQ and I KNOW YOU, add me!!! :)

I had this scary dream recently - it was about my blog! *covers ears & eyes*
There I was sitting somewhere in front of a PC and thought that nobody is looking at me, thus I blogged a bit and then viewed my blog re-reading the entry.....and then my friends came, I hurriedly closed the window but they had enough time to see the ah lian pinkness of this bodoh layout and exclaimed in a bored voice:

"Oh please, don't go hiding your blog before us, we've been reading it for like 2 years already!!!"

I gasped and almost fell from my chair, "You've been READING it?! EVERYTHING?! Like really EVERYTHING?!"
I remembered all the things I wrote here.
All those rants about my family, my ex-bf, this country, my school, my life...all the rather sensitive stuffs about UJ, S (amazing how they have met in one category together now), T, whoever....all those stupid swoons over ex, BYJ and 456458 other hot Asians!!!! ALAMAK!!!! @_# My friends read it all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IN MY DREAM ONLY LA. At least I hope so. #_@


I was reading the Limkokwing Uni materials which Raymond brought here almost a year ago (in Jan to be precise - was it such a long time ago liao?? O_o) and....and....I'm sending an application there too. :P I got manipulated by the perfect marketing strategies of the uni and now I can't resist it. Hahahaha! :D
It seems like a kool weapons on my weak personality....couldn't resist it.... *mumbles mumbles*

:D :D :D
I hope I get accepted, learn Bahasa Malaysia too, get ducking rich, buy a bungalow on some paradisey M'sian island, buy a maisonette in River Park Bratislava, buy an apartment in the centre of KL, find THE man and live happily ever after...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKAY. =_=
Stop dreaming, babe.

But mmmmm, I feel the taste of the wheat grass drink on my tongue. AAaaaAAAAaaaaahhhhh. I'm salivating liao.
SAVE ME!!!!! *____*

Listening to: "Get Along With You" by Kelis
Yay!: I have silver shoes for my prom. YEAAAAHHHH. Just 28 Euro, ain't that kool? :)
Grrr: Got Geo test tmr. =_= WTP. =_= I THINK I LOST ALL MY MP3S. FUUUCCCCKKKK.

Friday, November 03, 2006

Stoopid Silver Sandals
Mad Halloween With UJ & Some 2nd Graders
1st Snow!!!

That idiotic prom thing is in a week and I still don't have any STOOPID SILVER SANDALS. Sigh. Well, tmr we're off to Pandorf in Austria, it's a village with a kool (not just) outlet shopping mall and if there's nothing...then I'm going barefoot. :P =_=



So fun!
I went to the Aupark Palace Cinemas with UJ & his girl friend Misha (yup, same name as mine, heh) and her friend Dano for a horror (which name I dunno in English, sorry) BUT it's wasn't too scary. So then we (me & UJ) have decided to cross one dark park by feet and then go to Slavin & everywhere by feet in that darkness. Mmmmmmm. MAD. FREAKY. MAD. FREAKY. It started to rain as well! Like WTD!!!! @_#
I came home at 1.30am by a taxi with 56km behind me and a mega-thirst.
We two are fucking mad.
I'm fucking mad too cuz if UJ has any feelings for me, I shouldn't grab his arm when I get scared cuz I'm paranoid after the horror. Ya know, it like gives him false hopes & that's not good.


It SNOWED yesterday.
I HATE WINTEEEEEER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*bangs head & wails as a dying wolf*
I HATE that chilly wind.
I HATE that white snow.
I HATE the fact that I have to wear 781 layers.
I HATE how my skin is dry & how I can't breath & my contact lenses are freezing to my eyes.

Oh Mighty Whoever , let the winter stop liao, please, please, please!!! #_#

Very lazy again.
I think off I go & will maybe quack more after I'm back from the downtown; I'm gonna meet up there with AL and we're off to Segafredo for a nice, yummy, hot chocolate..mmmm..... ^_^

Listening to: "Good Stuff" by Kelis
Yay!: Found a kool Shiseido eyeliner which I MUST buy.
Grrr: FUCKING SHOPS HERE. Everything I like is either not in my size or it doesn't fit me. Or it costs too much, like that stupid & perfect Hilfiger coat for.... *sigh* .... 15 000Skk. HA HA HA.