Wednesday, January 31, 2007

To Duckhell With My Sleeping Habits!!!!

I'm not going to school tomorrow so I should rest & all and it's past 1am and I AM AWAKE. Grrrrr~~~ >_< I'm talking to Teresa, I've watched ER at Discovery and I'm still supposed to take a short walk with Haku.....

...I don't know if I'll go though, he is sleeping so soundly. :)

Suddenly I feel like drawing a lot, trying out new media, challenging myself..... WHY ALL THIS HAD TO COME *AFTER* THE ENTRANCE EXAMS?! O_o
I'm seriously pathetic & unpredictably weird. XD

OMD, 1.18am liao. I don't think I'm going with Haku......don't wanna wake him up. Instead, I'm going to get some sleep....eyebags are really sexy but hey, I shouldn't overdo them! XD

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Better Than Expected

I was expecting a COMPLETE failure but it wasn't THAT bad. I wasn't accepted into the 2nd round (I wasn't expecting that either) but surprise of all surprises - I was just 9th under the line!!!!! O_O *faints*

Know please, that there were 109 of us and just 30 were accepted into the 2nd round from where only 9 candidates will be given the chance to study Graphic Design at VSVU/AFAD.

I'm speechless. NINTH!!! :D And I wasn't going to the consultations with the VSVU professors like the other people did (they tell you which your works are good/bad and why..and they remember you so you sort of a have better position at the exams), I didn't study history of art AND I had a portfolio with shitty stuff, there were even things from 2003.

My friend who was there too was the last above the line (so she was 30th). Now notice that her father is a graphic designer and she had like 2kg heavy portfolio with over 20 works done in Adobe Illustrator!!!!
And she was WTD....I wonder what god/goddess of graphic design was the person at the top place. O_o

Either way, I'm happy it over. :) Now I can focus on maturita, on various art exhibitions, on my own art (ah, the irony....after the entrance exams, issit?! Why not before ar? XD), on TOEFL and on the portfolio for CENFAD. ^^

On other note, was reading ex-bf's blog yesterday and I just can't get him!!!!
Read this entry please.
*yawns* Am I reading right? The boy has some anger problems? Oh, I'm happy I'm not his girlfriend anymore. Bodoh.
Well, while you're at it, read this entry & this entry too.
May I ask you, WHAT THE FUCK?!
Why he writes blog when he hates it?! I sense more personal complexes than IQ. *rolls eyes* I wonder if these issues with blogs are the remains of the previous issues about my blog; I posted here & there sometthing about our fucking up relationship & he totally hated it, he hated my blog & he was trying to stop me from posting such stuffs.
I love it, when people try to control me! *pats her katana gently*

Okay, must go to school liao. :)

Monday, January 29, 2007

The Entrance Exams Are Over

I'm not really feeling like mentioning the EEs much but....!

Hopoopfully, HELLO KL!!!!!!!!!!! :D

I sucked like shit at these.
We had a test (I guessed 80% of the questions) from history of art & history with 50 questions and then two artsy assignments.

One was the portrait of the model. I had it all good only my composition was like fuck, the head wasn't in the middle but more to the left!!!! Goodbye, points. =_= Otherways the proportions & the shading were quite fine....but the composition..... *AHEM AHEM*

The other assignment was to make a poster on the "Slovak movie" topic.
Know what's the problem?
The Slovak movie industry is practically dead, broke & most of our movies are simply lame. MY POSTER WAS LAMER THOUGH. @_# The initial idea of it was good but because I didn't have all the materials I needed, it sucked. =_=

My idea was a poster with a black silhouette of block of flats (= communist/post-communist/modern era) and a......okay, lemme draw it: :)

It looked roughly like this. That dark grey thingy was supposed to be a movie screen and that cock (heh) there is supposed to be a symbol of the traditional rural Slovakia. That double-cross is a symbol of Slovakia as whole, it's in our flag too. That weirdly green thing was actually a golden's used in floral compositions. :P
Sadly, I didn't have black paper so that black silhouette was painted by black acryl..... *sigh* It looked like a crap then. =_=


Quackever lah. *yawns*
I was expecting it anyways. Tomorrow I'm going to pick up the portfolio and oficially get to know that I'm not passing to the 2nd round of EE. Quackever. :P

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Fuck This

I'm going to embarrass myself on Monday. My "artworks" suck a big shit & I don't have a drop of a talent. Fuck this, I'm going to write a make-believe entry a la Justine's, maybe it'd cheer me up.

Farewell Graphic Design, come to me, Marketing. I hope we'll be good friends.
An Eventful Icy Night

Just one word.

Today, in a span of 40 minutes I saw a guy who resembled S very much...curly, dark, shoulder reaching hair, glasses...yet he wasn't S..I felt sad after he had left the bus stop.

"So close to S, yet so far!"

Well, I didn't know what was about to come yet. ^^ :P

After this S-resembling-guy left, I felt cold so I was walking around the bus stop until an old man asked me:

"You're stressed, aren't you?"

We've started to talk.
And later on, this Norwegian writer & translator wanted to "invite me over for a wine", took my mobile phone number AND - fucking perv asshole, he did this after I gave him my number - wanted me to kiss him.

WTP. SCARY!!!!! @_#
Go cut off your dick, pervy Pakidude. *grrr*

The minute I started to talk to him at the bus stop where I was waiting, another thing had happened:


He got on the same trolleybus as me & that Norwegian. He sat down on the doubleseat diagonally in front of us & facing us...and anytime I looked at him (=every 5 seconds), he was looking at me too. O_o

He had a rose in his hands, btw.

AMAZING! :P I didn't know that guys come from the city with a rose! I thought girls do that! Well, but maybe his gf was at their house? That'd be so sweet.... Hm, or maybe he's a gay and he got the rose from his boyfriend. XD Or maybe his mom had her birthday? That'd be so sweet too. ^^

He hasn't changed a bit. :)
He still looks that fragile, his hair is still curly, thick & shiny, he still wears the same glasses and his skin is smooth as always. :)
Mmmm, nostalgy. :)

I have realized that I no longer love him.
A success after those long 7 years, isn't it? :P
Seeing him now, my heart jumped only one nanometer and that was wasn't like in my S-heydays when I'd stop breathing when seeing him and my heart would flutter around like mad....
No, it was different now.
All I felt for him was just CARE.

I guess that I have REALLY moved on then....and that's superb, yet I feel a bit sad, because S had been a big part of my life, an endless topic of talks and a good object for comparison (e. g.: "This guy is ugly....S is much more handsome!").

Ah, sigh. :)
C'est la vie. :)

However, if he asked me out, I'd agree to it. Just for the sake of it....and for finally being able to kiss those lovely lips and hug those shoulders. ^^

(Eeeerm, this didn't sound like I had moved on, did it? O_o XD)

I wish him a lovely life. ^_^
I'm never gonna forget him!!!!! ^___^

I almost wish I hadn't moved on. *sigh* =_=

Friday, January 26, 2007

Three Circuits Of Our Minds

Yesterday me, DD & AL were out for a nice lasagna and the conversation was just floating real topic....nothing much....until we've came to the topic of universities.

"And where would you like to study?"
"Dunno yet but I'm trying many schools."
"I'm kind of counting on Graphic Design but there's a huge chance it won't work out so then lalalaaaa, I'll go for some Marketing & Advertising."
"Well, I need to get to Architecture.

From there we had moved on to the guys:

"You'll get there, don't you worry!"
"I need to get there, really. Architects are such a hotties, mmm!"
"Mwahaha, as if the designers weren't... *daydreams* ...and if Iget to KL...imagine all those cute, hunky Asian designers in black plastic-rimmed glasses...." *fans herself*
"I want a hot & NORMAL snowboarder!"
"I stick with architects. And designers too."
"Same in here."
"Only I hope the designers aren't all GAY cuz they at least tend to look so, with their super-styled outfits and sexy haircuts."
"Hmmm, yeah.....well...ARCHITECTS R DA BEST anyways! :D Hellooooo, Malaysian arch hotties! Come to me!"

And from the guy talk we had moved on to how shitty our life is:

"Whatever, no one's gonna notice me anyways. I can just dream on & better study not talk crap."
"I hate it how we're nobody! Everything is so uncertain!"
"And I'm sooooo tired of everything, I can't stand this fucking stereotype anymore!"
"This fucked up high school MUST E. N. D. already. Then I'll feel way better. Arrgghh."
"I'm constantly sleep-deprived! And I'm lazying around so technically, I could be sleeping!"
"Yeah, I know this too!"

....and so on & so on.
On these three topics only.
Maybe I should get to know some punker and talk with him/her about...errr....punk music & tattooes? :P I don't know what the punkers talk about. Haha.

Okay, back to work, I'm going to paint something with temperas now, then I'm off to art prof's atelieur and then I have to be in Aupark at 6pm; me & Kucci are going for a alcohol-free coctail! ^_^ Mojito virgin, I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO SIP YOU!!!! :D

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Quack With Me, Flirt With Me

I have got inspired by Potatomus Maximus and got myself this nice Cbox. ^__^
NOW, if you wanna, you can quack with me and leave me millions of bodoh messages and hopefully I'll reply! :D

By the way Seb, my ICQ is 273-997-013, add me....and sorry for not replying to both of your SMSes, I couldn't, cuz recently my bill was 2500Skk ( = 662ZAR says Xe) and that's fucking too much!!!! @_#
I must cut on's mad liao! @_@

On other note....
I have already drawn (or - "I already drew"? I HATE ENGLISH GRAMMAR!!!!) that chalk drawing but I don't really like it. It's either ugly & uninteresting or I'm too harsh on myself BUT something tells me it's the 1st thing. =_= :P
I wanted to draw that aquarel too but I CAN'T FIND MY AQUAREL PENCILS!!!!! O_O
Wah, I hate being so messy! I need a maid! *bangs head on the floor* T_T >_< @_@

4 days to go, roughly 5 more drawings/paintings to complete. ALAMAK!!!!! *freaks out & dies* How am I gonna make it?! O_o Should I not sleep or something? Is panda look attractive to you?! Will sleep-deprivation help me with my non-existent talent for fine arts?!

What do you think???? O_o

I feel that I no more like the snobby polo t-shirt guys perfectly styled and all.
All are POSERS. FAKE POSERS. Our school is full of them!!!!!!!! They like to wear anything Tommy Hilfiger (optionally Ralph Lauren, Lacoste and Dolce & Gabbana), white sneakers and black jackets with fake fur at the hoody.
Hip-hop yo muthafucka!
These guys also *must* have gelled up hair and they're usually very skinny, very disgusting and look very homosexual. They *must* have iPods and usually they have never earned a single koruna (Skk) by themselves; they're fully sponsored by their loving parents.

Cannot tahan!!!!
And cannot quack with UJ anymore cuz he's like that!!!! *runs away to SG and hides behind Bryan* @_@ XD
I don't know why I've talked to him that much. Probably because his topics (Range Rover, Apple products, Bang & Olufsen, Aston Martin, Lamborghini, villas, Tommy Hilfiger, hair gel, mojito...erm, that's all~) were all brand new to me and I've liked the talking about unusual things.

Hey, but what have I found UNDER all this after few months?


Sad, isn't it?

I've realized that I'm sticking to the S-type of guys as always; intelligent (MUST-HAVE), natural, polite, with good manners, with glasses and with a nice sense of humor.
Golfista look will do good though, I love it. ^^'''

Yesterday I got on 203 trolleybus and I had sat down. Then I've noticed a guy sitting almost in front of me (there was one seat in front of me and in front of *that* seat were 2 other seats facing my & that seat before me) and a thought sprang into my mind: "Not a bad stuff!"

After a bit of an analysis I've came to the conclusion that his features were like those of BYJ.
I'm seriously pathetic! XD
Why ar?
Hm, maybe because S' face resembles BYJ's. So that leaves us to the fact that this guy's (let's call him U as "Unknown") face resembled S'! Wahahaha. :P

I digressed.

You know those scenes in romantic, sentimental, tear-jerking Korean dramas when the guy & the girl see their reflections in the windows? The girl sees the guy looking at her....she sees it in the window...looks into his eyes in that reflection....and he sees that too and the piano starts playing a slow, mellow melody and.... *the viewers sob & their hearts melt*

Ha! :D
So fun! :D I missed the piano music playing though and U wasn't any Korean hottie with black, shiny hair and a dazzling, tender smile; actually he was sand-haired and even though his BYJ-ish lips had the potential of a dazzling, tender smile, he hadn't smiled even once. *sobs*
Maybe I was depressing him. XD
No noooo, actually, I know I wasn't because even after he got off the 203 he had turned to look at me one more time....and he kept doing it for 2 or 3 more times.

How do I know it?
Because I've been doing the same. :P Tehehee.

Mysterious Unknown Guy In 203 With Rimless Glasses, will I meet you again? O_o
Maybe amazing things could happen, like befriending or even *gasp* dating.
Not that I need a boyfriend now, I'm enough busy these days even without one and the worst (TOEFL, maturita) is just about to come, but...well, it could be amazing! :D

Let's see what will happen. :)
Oh, bittersweet unknown FUTURE! ^^
In Preparation

The entrance exams will be in 4 days (5 including today) and I hardly have 12 artworks from the min. required amount of 20. TEHEHEEEE. Impressive, isn't it? :P
I keep drawing, painting, drawing, painting & so on.
Just now I'm waiting for the aquarel paper to get dry so I can take my aquarel pencils and paint something there.....and after that I'll make myself the mushroom pizza (Dr. Oetker is my saviour), take the Koh-I-Noor Toison D'Or dry chalks and draw a landscape with it.

I'm supposed to be studying Society Studies, the 11th maturita question too because our prof is examining us tomorrow but I don't really care; I don't have the time for it! @_@

Will quack more later. :)

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Not In The Best Mood

Today was a completely USELESS & ANNOYING day. I actually wonder how come I've survived it in a relative health.
After school me & Kucci went to the cinema to see Happy Feet, but I have to warn you that IT IS A COMPLETE CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


If you expect a cute, funny, adorable movie รก la Ice Age, think again. Happy Feet is neither for kids, nor for the adults; it has no real plot, no charm and the characters are damn too realistics for a children's animated movie. The only one good thing was Nicole Kidman's voice singing the songs; she's really good! :) Otherways....Cannot tahan. @_@ It was pain in the ass and those baby penguins even weren't too cute!!! Blehhh.

I was really disappointed cuz I had expected a far better movie than this....and what's worse, I was counting on it in terms of making my mood better. Sigh. =_= Mission unaccomplished.

On other note, sayangku said she's gonna introduce me to Bryan! OMD!!! Finally I'll get to know some NEW DUCKS!!!! YEAAAHH!!!! ^___^
I'm so tired of this stereotypic life, I think I'd even appreciate getting to know Borat Sagdiyev, but BRYAN is a far better option of course. :D
He can cook, arr?? ^_~ Indeed, he's a boy that must be treasured in a dark purple velvet with golden embroidery. Hihihihi. ^^;;;;
I am booking him, okay? ^^v

We have a girl called Kate on our History of Art seminar and she's so........TALENTED. Seeing people like her makes me wonder if I'm any good for the Graphic Design.... I almost think I'm not. Just now I'm checking out the Limkokwing's Faculty of Communication where I'd like to go if (when?) I don't get to VSVU and Cenfad.
Today this Kate had a little assignment about Vincent Van Gogh and his paintings and she was reading his biography from an A4 sized paper with one Van Gogh's painting below, in the bottom part. I thought it was cut out from a magazine & just glued there but was Kate's own copy of Van Gogh!!!!!!!
I gasped and a minute later Kate's friend showed me another Kate's painting - a copy of one Salvador Dali's surrealist artwork origionally painted by oil colors on canvas and now, in Kate's version, with just colorful pencil and on looked the same. O_O

There are so many talented people around; sadly, EXCLUDED me.

It's a shallow thing but this Kate even looks like an artist because she is one. By 'looking as an artist' I mean that you can see that she has *her own* style, she looks just different....not like us, the crowd around. I've always thought that looking like everyone else probably also means that I AM like everyone else and here I'm getting it approved. *sigh*

Isn't it disappointing to learn that you're not an artist talented enough for Graphic Design SIX DAYS before the entrance exams????!!!! =_=''''

I guess I'll try out the Mass Communication, Marketing or I'll just learn how to be a pooperfect make-up artist with Alena. Hmmmm. ._.

I haven't seen S for such a long time already! *sobs*
I keep going home at the 203 trolleybus but sigh, he's nowhere. That's disappointing too! x_x I wonder if I'll get over him when I go to KL (if I will); I'm counting on this actually and I'm also counting on meeting some kool dude there and blahblahblah....*K-drama happyend, come to me, thankyouverymuch.*


I'm pathetic, hm?
Sigh, I know I am. =_=

Monday, January 22, 2007

LOTS Of Art & Design Today

I'm starting to feel like a depressed aspiring graphic design student.

Today me & madre went to the VSVU's Open Door Day (?) what means that all ateliers were opened to the public and the studennts were having an exhibition of their artworks.
I'll show you the pics tomorrow or on Tuesday cuz now I don't have too much time, it's past midnight & tomorrow I have school....

Anyways, I bought 4 Designums (design magazine) and a book about the history of contemporary design......I spent 3 hours with the students' artworks....they were so GOOD...and then, when I came home, I drew one PORTRAIT with pencil & one STILL LIFE with giocondas.

WOW!!!!! O_O

Pics tomorrow or on Tuesday as well.

Oh yes and why DEPRESSED? Cuz the quality of students' work clearly says that I HAVE NO CHANCE on Jan 29. :P Cenfad, my last & only resort where I wanna go anyways!! *_* ^__^

Oh, how I hate attitude like this!!!!! *fumes*
I'm talking to one dude on ICQ now.

Okay. An insight into the situation is required.
I have a profile on one stupid Slovak website full of posers in Hilfiger jumpers & Dolce & Gabbana jeans. Well, and there I just posted an "About Me" where I made fun of all these guys by pretending I'm a primitive ah lian critisizing the real *me*.....and there I also included a part saying:

"And she's a 1/4 Korean or what! She's gonna like it in that Kululalala Lumpur or where coz, u know, she's gonna have all those squinty-eyed riceppl ard u know! Brutally kool!"

Now this dude was like: "A KOREAN!!!! XD"
Me: "Well, but I AM a 1/4 Korean!"
Dude: "You silly girl! XD"
Me: "But I REALLY AM!!!!"
Dude: " I see it, you're a silly girl! XD"
Dude: "Or yes?"
Me: "Jesus Christ, YES I AM."
Dude: "Jesus, okay, sorry!"

*after a while*

Dude: "So you're a 1/4 Chinese?"
Dude: "Or a Japanese?"
Dude: "Or a Korean?"
Dude: "Or something, whatever from wherever??"
Me: "Typical European primitive atittude like Asia is all the same place. " *fumes*
Dude: "But Koreans are kool!!!"
Me: "Am I saying they aren't or anything?"
Dude: "We have a Korean car and it's a bit squinty but it's still good."

LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate people like this. Primitive assholes.... GRRRR. *bitches around silently*

I went invisible on ICQ and now I'm going to log off cuz I have to shower & get my beauty sleep, it's already 12.28am! @_@

EDIT: Akon feat. Snoop Dogg have a new song called "I wanna love you" currently aired on MTV. Today I happily downloaded it from LimeWire and found out that the REAL version is called "I WANNA FUCK YOU" and the lyrics are dirty like hell with something about wet pussies!!!!! OMD!!!!!!! @_# XD

Saturday, January 20, 2007

What Makes My Blog Boring

I'm watching Girls Out Loud Episode 5 Part 3 at now & due to my greatmaster' (greatmistress'? I'm a woman afterall) ability to multi-task, I'm also reading various blogs when I'm waiting for the GOL to load.

All those blogs are so sizzling hot, hip, fancy, funny, stylish & well-written.

(I've read Xiaxue, Cheesie, Kenny Sia, Jolene Lai, Justine :) and Potatomus Maximus so far today.)

And my blog - apart from being crappy - is mainly BORING.

So let's ask myself:


*Due to the Reason 1 - "No real dedication" must go watch GOL again. Will come back after like 8 minutes!*

*OK. Back liao. Episode 5 was really kool but I swear, if a guy asks me whether I want to buy a flat with him, I'm gonna kick his balls off!*

Reason 1: Already mentioned. NO REAL DEDICATION.

I don't take this as a serious job, I'm not showing off my non-existent writer's ambitions and I'm not trying to make my 0.003 readers laugh their heads off (although it may occur sometimes, usually unintentionally) while reading my daily quacks.

My entries are usually about:

  • How shitty life my is

  • How crispy, sizzling, saucy, lovely, cute, crunchy & rapeable various Korean celebs are (especially Bae Yong Joon & Choi Dong Wook *salivates*)

  • How is UJ stupid

  • How is my one-sided platonic love/obsession/personal degeneration with S going on, how much I miss him/love him/don't miss him/don't love him anymore and how I'm 'surely' gonna confess/move on

  • How much I hate Maths & going to PN

  • How much I miss Singapore & Malaysia and how I'm DEFINATELY going back there

  • How I MUST get to Cenfad, or else............. x_x

  • How much I wanna eat *this* or *that* and usually *this* and *that* are from Singapore and Malaysia so I can't get it anyways

Limited, isn't it? Ooooh yes, it surely is.

Reason 3: NO PHOTOS.
I'm just lazy to upload pictures because uploading pictures means resizing them, adding the blog addy there and then uploading them to PhotoBucket....well, and finally uploding them to Blogger. I wouldn't mind all this if my Photoshop was actually working but it isn't so whatever.
Oh yes and what if my friends in here found it? CANNOT TAHAN LA!!! @_#

I'm actually worried that UJ is gonna find some pics from summer which I uploaded here to some entry.
If that happened...... *jumps* #_#
This blog is way too full of my Entries With Limited Topics TM and thus, I wouldn't want to have it read by SVKians. What if S understood that it's about him? And UJ? Gosh, I'd probably die then. @_@

OK. I may be an aspiring graphic designer but I CAN'T DESIGN WEBSITES. I'll never have a sparkling glamour wonderful blog like Xiaxue or like any 13 years old HK schoolgirlie keeping a blog & knowing all about web design & Photoshop at this tender age.
I'm 17 and I'm glad I know that <> < / b > without spaces means that the letters will get bold.
I'm ashamed!

Thus I can't express everything exactly the way I want to, although, I must shamelessly and proudly say that I'm pretty good. Only I got 3 from the recent English test....hahaha....okie, but I've never been able to write regular tests. :P I'm good at essays, not at the tests!!!!

I don't know many people who combine English, Malay words which hubooby taught me and weird duck-related phrases all in a neat package on a blog by a Slovak with Korean ancestors and with a Hungarian surname. Gila! :P

There you go.
There are more reasons but due to the Reason 1 I must now go watch GOL 6 hosted by the kool chick Ros and the ah lian prototype, blog icon Xiaxue.
I can't get used to the fact that Xiaxue is such an ah lian in reality too! And I thought she's just acting it or what! I thought she can't wear THAT much make-up in real.....and that she surely wouldn't wear that much pink girlish Barbie stuff at once!!!!!

My illusions about the world were yet again kicked hard.

Friday, January 19, 2007

Working Hard On Being A Panda

I've been studying Economics until now (from 10.45pm though) but now I'm having a pause & doing WHAT..?
Reading news about Bae Yong Joon at Joon's Family. *slaps head*

(S' lips are likes this; mmmmmmmm, hey sweety u want kiss kiss ok u sexy thing? <---- Pakitalk! XD)

It's indeed very relaxing & it deepens my irrational, unconditional love towards him but it certainly DOESN'T deepen my knowledge of the Economics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aiyaaaah....but economics is just SO WHO CARES for all those dry, boring formulas about trade, market & money? *yawns* Not me. x_x

12.27am liao. I'm waking up in less that 6 hours and I STILL don't know it all. -_- My fault though, I shouldn't have been talking crap on ICQ with guys on UJ's gayish appearence and other unimportant stupid gossip. Sigh.

Well, tomorrow (or actually, today~) I'll have a presentation from Renaissance for which I'm hopefully going to get 1 and then this Economics test from which if I get 3 I'll jump 5 meters high & dance salsa. :P

All guys should be gentlemen like BYJ. ALL GUYS!!!! YOU HEAR ME, ASSHOLES?! :)
I'm like a crazy Japanese ahjumma....they love BYJ. Hahahaha. :D I go for older men, OK! He's 34 years old! :D

One day, in my next life, I'm going to be Choi Ji-Woo and I'll star with BYJ in Winter Sonata. Oooohh, those hugs & kisses. *fans herself* *_* Can't wait! ^^v XD

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Keep On Singin' My Song

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
And nobody's gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothing's been going my way lately
But I decided right here, an' now, that my outlook's gonna change

That's why I'm gonna
Say goodbye to all the tears I've cried
Everytime somebody hurt my pride
Feelin' like they won't let me live life
Take the time to look at what is mineI see every blessing so clearly
And I thank god for what I got from above

I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace from me
They can say all they wanna say about meBut I'm gonna carry on (carry on)
I'mma keep on (keep on) singin' my song(La, la, la, etc.)

I never wanna dwell on the pain again
There's no use in relivin' how I hurt back then
Rememberin' too well the hell I felt when I was runnin' out of faith
Every step I'm 'bout to take moves towards a better day
Cause I'm about toSay farewell to every single lie
And all the fears I've held too long inside

Everytime I felt I couldn't try
All the negativity inside
For too long, I've been strugglin', couldn't go on
But now I've found I'm feelin' strong and I'm moving on

I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace from me
They can say all they wanna say about me
But I'm gonna carry on, (carry on)
I'mma keep on (keep on) singin' my song

Every time I tried to be what they wanted from me
It never came naturally, so I ended up in misery
Was unable to see all the good around me
Wasted so much energy on what they thought of me
Than simply just remembering to breathe

I'm humanly unable to please everyone at the same time
So now I find my peace of mind living one day at a time
In the end I answer to one god
Comes down to one love till I get to heaven above

I have made the decision
Never to give in
Till the I day I die no matter what
Im gonna carry on, I'mma keep on singin' my song

(They can't take anything from me)

This is going to be my MANTRA, MY SONG.
I had a bit of a breakdown yesterday, I got aggravated like fuck & all, dunno, I cried, I bitched, I yelled AND was so exhausting.......cannot tahan anymore.
Today I'm going to the school with my head head up proudly to FAIL MATHS.
That's life.
Get used to it, you lazy bitch.

HARD WORK PAYS OFF but not everytime. Forget all the tears, babe. Forget the anger. GRAPHIC DESIGNER DON'T NEED THE FUCKING MATHS!!!!!!!

I think I MUST get to KL, otherways lif's just fucking unfair. You know - yin yang principle; endlessly fucked up shitty high school ---> great uni life ----> fucked up job? -----> great retirement!

Whatever, fuck it anyways.

I think even if I had a bf now, he'd break up with me for my negativism.

BF: "Sweeeeety, I love youuuuuuuu!"
ME: "Hey, stop this mush, we're gonna break up anyways, all good things come to an end."
BF: "...."


Must get dressed & all and go fail Maths now. WHO CARES?!
I don't, 13% is cool considering my knowledge is 0%-ish!!!!!

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Apparently NOT Feeling Like Looking At Maths Which I'm Gonna Fail No Matter What I Do =_=

Long title, right?

Short post though. And VERY angry.

{OK, I'm in Europe, I should move elsewhere, preferrably to Asia}
FUCK YOU, SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


UJ is a weirdo.

Me: *flips through his notebook with straight As noted down* "I haaaaaate people with straight As.....they're weird!!!! I'm not gonna talk to you anymore!"
(I don't hate them, but they ARE weird! It's not humanly possible to get straight As, at least not at my fucking school!)

UJ: "Jesus Christ....okay....I'm gonna write here some B!"

WTD!!!! :P


Should I bother with that Maths, or not? O_o
Maybe just a bit, pro forma. That won't hurt me, although it's certainly gonna make me throw the Maths notebook outta the window.

This reminds me of - you know what am I gonna do after my graduation? ^_~

I AM GOING TO BURN ALL THE NOTEBOOKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RITUALLY!!!!! YEAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't wait liao. *evil laughter*


I haven't seen S for few months already, yet I still think about him and feel the urge to mention him every 5 seconds. Someone, please kick my ass, so I'll shut up finally cuz I'm tiring myself with it already. @_@
13%. 13%. 13%.
Oh, if S knew how stupid am I. He'd laugh his ass off.

And I know I'm very vulgar, but I don't care. Blah. I'm gonna take care of myself & become ladylike when I'm outta this fucking school. Bleh.

I have an awful headache, Ibalgin gulped down liao, itchy eyes, ecsema, & 13% from Maths. So yeah, I'm failing. Well, just a little detail, I have a TEST tomorrow and I was just desperately trying to practice those equations and sadly, it was worthless. A waste of time, really. =_=

Luckily, we can fail on the 1st semester....we just can't fail on the other semester with the graduation.

I've never failed anything (thanks to cheating, friend's help at the tests & endless hours of tuition) but IT'S TIME.

Also, I have the entrance exams to VSVU on January 29 and I still have to do around 20 much do I have already? Like, ONE?! Fuck it!!! Yes, ONE!!!!
I wanted to draw that still life with giocondas today, but somehow, I can't.

In all my horoscopes I read: "Focus on your studies, forget guys, work on your future..." & yaddayadda and I'll tell ya, I'd really like to do that only if it wasn't SO MUCH AT ONE TIME!!!!

I love that insomnia too, yesterday I went to bed at midnight and fell asleep at 1.30am. Mmmm, I felt "SO FRESH" a zombie, really. #_#

It's 10.35pm now.
What should I do? Try to study or go read some blogs & then go to bed?

I'll see. Hmmm.

Btw, sorry if I don't reply to your SMSes but I don't wanna have the billhigh like shit again, recently it was like 2500Skk and that's WAY too much!

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Back From PN

I have so many entries called "Back From PN"....I think that truly reflects my shitty life. @_@

Week full of shit.
Weekend full of shitty Maths tuition.

CAN DIE LA!!!!! *bangs head*

I had a very good mood almost all day long, probably due to the nice dream I had, but now it had strangely dissipated and dissapeared in the shit of life. Gah.

Know what my nice dream was about?

About having a cute Korean architecture student boyfriend in KL who wore yellow
polo t-shirt, black rimmed plastic glasses (Sung Si Kyung-ish glasses) and with
whom I used to go to Kinokuniya and Starbucks at KLCC. Oh yes, I met him in KL
cuz I studied there.

Only if it was not just a dream, right. ._.

It kind of kicked me off though; whenever I recall me & my cute K-bf strolling around KL under the scorching sun and in the 85% humidity sweating like shit, I feel that I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO MAKE MY DREAM COME TRUE.

Yesterday I draw a portrait btw; I chose a pic which hubooby sent me ages ago, there's some Ben guy smiling naughtily and so I drew him. I wanted to show you the portrait but as my brand new Olympus is a completely SHITTY camera, it's making problems & I can't upload it to the PC and then to here. WTP.
Next time, okay?

It's pretty good, btw. Muahaha. Long live self-flattery! :D

Me & DD have just decided that our future dogs will be called Tequila (DD's) and Mojito (mine). HAHA!!! :D Can't wait liao. ^^

OMD, imagine if I did that! XD
I think he's enjoy it if I had Jessica Alba's body, but sadly, that's not true, so I think he'd just vomit. =_=

Enough mumbling. Must go procrastinate until I decide to take a shower & then to draw a still life with giocondas. ^^

Friday, January 12, 2007

Sexual Baelution, Maternal Instincts & The Almost-Cured Bursitis

I've just returned from the doc, pizzeria and the short walk with Haku. As I've mentioned yesterday, I have a bursitis on my left elbow but it's curing fast. ^^ I feel like retired cuz I got the Coxtral prescribed and that's what old people eat...haha... :D

Today at the doc - more specifically, at the chirurgy ward where I went for check-up - I saw a little, curly, red-haired girlie running around. She was so CUUUUTE!!!! ^___^
Seems like my maternal instincts are awakening........


I refuse to share my precious DNA with anybody else than S or his sexy bro Peter/Bae Yong Joon/Choi Dong Wook/prince William/(acceptable) Kwon Sang Woo.

CHOICE 1: He's twice older as me, okay, but he's the prototype of an IDEAL MAN for me (even with this ponytail! That's for the new drama, ok!!!! Stop giggling!) so I would.....oh...naughty....cannot say! ^_~
Okay, here he looks weird, I admit, with those grandpa glasses but you know why I chose this pic? Cuz of that SINCERE LAUGHTER. Me loves it. ^_^

BYJ looks almost like S and vice versa, so CHOICE 1 represents them both. Oh, and S' sexy brother Peter, but he doesn't resemble BYJ, he resembles GOD with his 186cm, swimmer's toned body, veeeery broad shoulders and heavenly face. Yummy! ^^
Oh, am I naughty!
Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir? XD

CHOICE 2, Choi Dong Wook. 'Nuff said! *_* He's young, hot, sexy, adorable, cute and LET'S HOPE he's intelligent too. Hahahaha.

CHOICE 3, with Kwon Sang Woo. I think you're getting the drift now; I usually go for well-mannered, shy, handsome gentlemans with beautiful eyes and smiles. Oh, and I like messy hairstyles. And glasses would do too, those black plastic ones are the coolest ones cuz they look soo like you're an architect/designer! :D
I'm superficial, it's official now. XD

CHOICE4, but this one is not that important and interesting. And anyways, William also reminds me of S with these features he has got so it all leads to the same point anyways. :P
Am I pathetic or WHAT?! =_=

S/Peter/BYJ/CDW/KSW/William...doesn't matter...Our children will still then be adorable, intelligent, sweet, cute, funny, well-behaved and with rich, adorable, intelligent, sweet, cute, funny, busy & naughty parents. I LIKE THAT. XD

BY THE WAY, not only I got my maternal instincts awakened there! :D I was called a Chinese! :D
I met two girls (11yrs old maybe?) at the chirurgy ward who were waiting for check-up just like I did and we've started to talk & suddenly they told me:

" have such big eyes....actually we thought at first that you're a Chinese!"

I was like, "O_o Really? :P" cuz I really wasn't expecting that my 1/k Korean quarter is *that* visible (even though they thought I'm a Chinese. :P). Maybe it's thanks to my Sung Si Kyung-ish hairstyle, probably it emphasizes my face or something.

Oh, alright....time to do something else than just blabbing here. It's 3.18pm so now I'll go make a good, steamy cup of tea, reply to Raymond's & R dad's emails and take another walk with Haku....and to Aupark! :D SALES everywhere! YEAHHH!!! :D
I have nothing to write actually, only that:

  • I've found a pic where BYJ looks EXACTLY like S, but I'm lazy to post it now here.
  • RULEZ ^_^ BYJ forever, hmm? ^_^
  • I have bursitis of my left elbow! :P See Wiki for more. :)
  • Today I took a walk at S hill again. Ah, nostalgy... ^^
  • CONDUCKTULATIONS, BAIBEE, TO YOUR SLOVAKIA PROJECT!!!! :D Thanks for promoting my country among people who think it's in Eastern Siberia! ^_^
  • I bought a new hoddie at Pull & Bear and now I'm broke
  • R's sis is hoping me & R get together again one day. WTP!
  • R's mom misses me.....and vice versa! T_T
  • I must ask R's mom for the fried rice recipe :P
  • ANY HOT ARCHITECTURE STUDENTS TO HUG ME?! Koreans preferred. Muahahaaa. :P
  • Friday tmr! ^_^

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

I Look Like Sung Si Kyung

That's right. New hair, new look. This time like Sung Si Kyung! XD

This is Sung Si Kyung.

And this is me:

I'm either him or his twin. XD

And I don't like my hair much cuz it looks too sporty & like from a Korean boyband, but that's the price I pay for telling the hairdresser to "do whatever she wants with my hair, as long as she cuts off my fucked up hair tips". Aiyah. :P =_=

I'm not in a good mood. @_@
The fucking pressure I feel from everywhere & everyobne is gonna kill me soon.... There are so many things I MUST do... I think I'm gonna explode soon. Fuck, I hate this life.
I need to change the environment but that's KL and for that I have to endure this fucking pressure.

Where is my giddy, crazy, hyperactive, good mood when I need one? -_-

Sunday, January 07, 2007


I had a dream where I was horseriding & I was with my cousin in some wood or where....first at a beige sidewalk, then in our old horseriding club (closed already T_T). Amazing. O_O

I went to analyze it & see what I've got:

To see a horse in your dream, represents a strong, physical energy. You need to tame the wild forces. The dream may imply that you have been horsing around. Or perhaps you need to be less arrogant and "get off your high horse".

To see a black or dark horse in your dream (well, mine was terracota red), signifies mystery, wildness, and the unknown. You may be taking a chance or gamble at some unknown area. It may even represents occult forces.

To dream that you are riding a horse, denotes that you will achieve success through underhanded means. You lack integrity. If you are riding a horse that is out of control, signifies that you are being carried away by your passions.

To see the woods in your dream, represents life, fertility, rejuvenation, and spring. Alternatively, it symbolizes the unknown and unconscious. You may be discovering your instinctual nature.

Beige represents the basics, the essentials and the barest form. It may also indicate your neutral or unbiased position.

To dream that you are walking on a sidewalk, your steady progress and direction in life. You may be moving on to new walks of life.

What should it mean then? O_o
That I 'lack integrity', YET I 'have a steady progress & direction in life'? :P
Actually, probably yes, cuz even through all my cheating at the tests and being scattered, I know what I want & am (more or less :P) working on it. Mwaha.

The wood was of course a mixture of brown trunks, greens, dark greens & olive greens & even golds, as it was almost autumn:

Green signifies a positive change, good health, growth, healing, hope, vigor, vitality, peace, and serenity. Green is also symbolic of your strive to gain recognition and establish your independence. Money, wealth and jealousy are often associated with this color.

Dark green indicates materialism, cheating, deceit, and/or difficulties with sharing. You need to balance between your masculine and feminine attributes.

The olive green color symbolizes natural wisdom and Zen. You need to achieve peace in your environment.

Brown denotes worldliness, practicality, domestic and physical comfort, conservatism, and a materialistic character. Brown also represents the ground and earth.

The golden color reflects your spiritual rewards, richness, refinement and enhancement of your surroundings.

Erm, what about this now? O_o
That I DO 'need to achieve peace in my surroundings', I just agree. I also agree that I 'strive to gain recognition & establish my independance'...only it's not that easy, especially with 65Skk on my account!!!! That's like...not even 2 Euro! FUCK!!!!! @_# XD

I REALLY need a part time job...another one, besides my hostessing which is very irregular... But that must wait after my VSVU entrance exams. Sigh.

I'm going to cook myself oat porridge now (sounds disgusting? ^_~ Actually, it's yummy!) which is not only delicious but also great for hair & skin. :D

Oat flakes + milk ===> cook, then sprinkle with Granko or cinnamon/cane sugar. ^^

MY ELBOW STILL HURTS!!!! Uuuuaaaawwhgfhjhvghjcggf, I'll die! X_X Why does it hurt? @_#
Also I have period cramps but no period. I wish it'd come already, I can feel it's just around the corner....
OK, I can't add the HTML of SiteMeter cuz it ain't workin' cuz my blog is ducked up. WTP.
What if I add the HTML *here*? Will *THAT* work?
It's pointless to add it here, I know, but I'm just testing it. :P

Not visible on preview. Sigh.
My Rapist Alter Ego Gets To Blog Today

I really wonder what I've been doing last night cuz my left elbow now hurts like hell & is red & swollen.

Perhaps I've been fighting with Leif (my plushy elk).
Or I've tried to rape S!!!!! XD

I hope it was the 2nd option, that'd be far more exciting...hhahahhaha, just kidding. :D

Anyways, apart from raping the forever muse, crush & icon S, I also wouldn't mind raping Se7en:

Shit, how can anyone be THAT hot?! O_o I don't think he's real actually; he's probably just a holographic image or what.........mere humans CAN'T be that hot!!!! *salivates*
Even my friend who doesn't like Asian guys said that he's "da 1st class". I can just agree.

Wah, I wanna tie him, tear the clothes from him and....

DUCK OFF, YOU RAPIST ALTER EGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAARGGHH!!!! >_< @_#

*Mich the non-rapist comes*

Hello, duckies! ^^
Mind my rapist alter ego, it's just frustrated or something....that must be my inner Lil' Kim or something. Sigh. :P

But Se7en?!
OK, even though I don't really wanna rape him, I wanna date him! DUCK! I wish it was possible. =_= But maybe he's an asshole anyways.....but a hot asshole at least...hahhahah....

Enough duckshit. Grrrrr.
I'm going to update my SiteMeter now, I kinda removed it from my blog when updating this layout & forgot to put it back.....lemme do that now so I can see if this is read at least by 3 ducks from which I'm one. :P
Quack quack.

Friday, January 05, 2007

I Want A Boyfriend!

Tsung Long got his Maya. Munie got her Hiro. Teresa still has her Ivo. Jasmin has her Aladdin. Mulan has her Li Shang. Fiona has her Shrek. S has her blonde....*gulps down nasty words* ...girlfriend. :P



Me got who? Nobody! *sniff*
Well, everyone thinks I'm dating UJ but I can assure you I'm not doing so. I know him too well to be that foolish to date him...haha... You know what I mean? I mean that the 1st impression of him is superb but the 2nd is just TERRIBLE. XD Dun wan.

I FINALLY saw My Sassy Girl today (with this annoying Chinese dabit talking to the Korean!!!! SHIT!) and..uuuaaa!!! T_T

Besides all the emo "I'm-so-lonely-and-have-no-hunky-Asian-boyfriend-to-hug-me" effect it also reming me of Chia Ching AKA Peng as I called him here when I was ranting about him.
I've lost all contact with him already.
I wonder how's he doing?
We were the closest friends ever but then...I dunno...he somehow drifted away from me and I felt sad & angry and then later when he apologized, I was too proud to accept it. :(
Fucking pride! >_< T_T
Because of it I lost one of my closest friends!!!! *sob sob*

Anyway, I digressed.....the movie reminded me of him cuz he said that he totally loves it and it was him who has sent me the My Sassy Girl wallpapers. I still have them, by the way. Sigh.
It was also him who told me that he loved the idea of those "10 Rules" and are mine, in case you wanna date me (haha):

1. Don't ask me to stop being sarcastic.
2. Don't take advantage of me even though it's very easy to do so, I admit.

3. Support me.
4. Bear with my moods and vulgarities I use.
5. Don't try to control me. I have my life!

6. Be a gentleman and behave like a man.
7. Love me the way I am. In other words, don't try to change me!
8. Hug me when I'm sad. Hug me when I'm happy too! :D
9. Be yourself. No posing to impress me or WTD.
10. Give me my freedom but be there when I need you...I'll do the same for you. :)

Now just to find someone to follow them.....*sigh*

I'm counting on KL though. Hehe. Thousands of hunky, adorable Asians around! WAH!!! *shiny eyes* And cuz I'm an angmoh, everyone's gonna want me cuz an angmoh girlfriend is a nice trophy. Right, Raymond? XD
Ah sigh, then I'll have to see who wants me as a trophy and who means it seriously.

I'm feeling emo, maybe my period's gonna come, so bear with me, please. :P

And the fact that I'm a 1/4 Korean complicates it even more! GRRR!!!! >_< @_@
I think I'll also have to count on KL; I say I love Asian guys and Asian food and Asian cosmetics and Asian cinema........and when I'll finally live in Asia, my illusions will drop and well, then I'll see everything. Who am I? I'll learn it then!

Oh... Ilkka is online! *_* ^____^
I think I'm going to talk to him.
I can't multi-task anymore, have you noticed that? SIGH. =_= T_T


Okay, our agreement with Pom (that if we don't find anyone suitable, we marry in 2014, wahhahah) is still valid so he's my last resort. XD He can cook and he's a cutie, what more can I want? :D XD
He has both IQ & EQ too.
The only thing he lacks is.....English!!!!! @_# The boy should learn it better. Wahahaha. Maybe I should tell him. :P

Enough emo mumbling, no one's reading this anyways. :( Or is it?

Thanx. ;)
Lazy & Contended/SUPER WEIRD DREAM

Munie & Hiro are a couple! YAY! ^_^ Congratz you two, you're LOVELY!!!! ^___^

Lynnie & Manis got the gifts from me & they like it.. I'M GLAD!! ^___^

I just went to Teresa's Friendster profile and I must say that the saying "Love is blind" is sooooooo true. My ex-bf would surely NOT win the competition for the most handsome man if there was any. Teheheheeee.

I'm late as usual, but SELAMAT HARI RAYA to you, duckies.

Just sent out an e-mail to Cenfad (the 685648976589th e-mail liao) about the min points of TOEFL & the date until when to send the application with all the documents & portfolio...

I had a DAMN WEIRD DREAM today starring S & me. @_@

In the dream I (with some friends) somehow sneaked into his house when he was having some party but I was too scared & shy to show up in the living room where him & his friends & his bro we hid into another room where we hoped not to be noticed.
However, his mother found us and I dunno why, she instantly started to hate me; the first thought I had was "Oh, now that's gonna be a hindrance! How can me & S date? Well, he wouldn't want me anyways, right..."
We were shooed outta the house but later on we've returned.
I dunno why there were blankets in that room we were hiding in, but the second time we sneaked in, the mother came and started to yell at me to get out....I stood up and she saw my period blood (!!!!????) at the blanket!!! Hah! I really don't get this part of the dream...... Anyways, I was sent to wash it off and there I found myself in a long, cold-looking hall with lots of doors and lots of bathrooms.
I went into one and then heard S walking into another....I hid but later his mother came & was yelling something at S got to know we are there and his bro too.. I greeted his bro terribly embarassed and then I remember that all of us were jumping above the fence and running away to the foggy night.


Lemme check it out at DreamMoods.conm....until then - bye! ^_^

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Back From Egypt/Busy Life/Obligatory New Year's Resolutions

I AM BACK! ^_^

And once I find out how to resize the pics without Photoshop (which doesn't work & I can't neither reinstall it nor repair ir, WTP), I'll post some of them here, I promise! :)
Until then, please, survive just my quacking.

Few facts I've learnt about Egypt while I was there:

  • The MEN are dick-using idiots annoying, bothering & verbally sexually harassing everyone & women the most, of course (even the veiled ones! WTP!!!!!).

    "Hey, sweety!"
    "U r very beautiful!"
    "U have time? Just a second! One minute! One minute, please!"
    "Hello! Where r u from? Slovakia? Ahoooj, si velmi krasna!"

    ...and etc... =_=

  • The RUSSIANS looooove NY's Eve in Egypt. There were like million of them at our hotel, and so, the 1st thing I heard few mins after midnight in the year 2007 was the Russian anthem which was sung by our lovely, drunk Russian guests. Hahaha, yes!!! XD

    And the best thing was, after the 'celebration' at the hotel we went to our room...there my mother & grandma switched on the (Russian!) TV and so it happened that I've heard the Russian athem AGAIN that night.

    And then?



  • I LOVE Arabic writing! *_* It's so beautiful, it has the same kind of beauty like, for example, Korean or Tamil. It's just..different. It seems like an art to me actually. :)

  • I LOVE Islamic architecture. It's simply beautiful! ^^

  • The Red Sea is wonderfully TURQUISE. Mmmm. I'll show you the pics once I somehow resize them. :P

  • I CAN live without make-up but I CAN'T live without the books. Oh, seems like I'm not that big of an ah lian afterall. :P Good, good! :P

  • I definately wanna LIVE in a warm country. Not in Egypt, of course (there not even burqa would spare me the annoying) but...ok...I'm annoying with this Singapore or Malaysia. :P ^^

  • Cannot tahan life in such a dry, windy country. @_@ Even though it's PRETTY there.

  • I HATE AzurReisen. I don't give a shit about how I'm gonna damage their name now or whatever - THEY SUCK A FUCKING BIG DEAL!!!!!! >_< After arrival on the Hurghada Intl. Airport we all got on a bus happily thinking that within an hour we surely will be lazying around in our rooms.
    Actually we were cruising the tiny Hurghada for unbelievable 4,5 HOURS. That's longer than the flight itself which is 3,45h long!!! AAARGGH!!!!!

    As if it wasn't enough, the departure flight was scheduled at Jan 3rd, 5.15am. We had to get up at 2am (no kidding) and be at the reception desk at 2.15am where the bus would come and take us to the airport.

    So we all did as we were told, but.... was 3am and NOBODY COMING. So a friend called the fucking bitch rep (he called her! if he didn't, we would never know cuz she didn't give a damn!!!) and she said that OUR FLIGHT HAS BEEN DELAYED & SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHEN WILL WE FLY. So it could be anytime!
    Later the friend called her again and got to know that the flight will be on Jan 4th, 5.15am again.

    You can't imagine how tired am I after two almost sleepless nights! @_@

    Fuck SkyEurope too, I love it when they play around with flights. Aaaargghh.


Aiyah, I was stupid not to take notepad & pen/pencil/giocondas to there...I was like, soooo bored there. =_= At least thank god for that cam cuz at least taking pics was consuming my time.

Well, now I have exactly 25 days for 20~30 paintings/drawings which are required for the VSVU entrance exams....omg...I must start to work but tha won't be *today* cuz my eyes are soo itchy...cannot tahan. -_-

Actually, I'll have a very VERY busy schedule now:

January: 20~30 paintings/drawings, VSVU entrance exams, get a new EU passport!!!!
February: TOEFL exam
March: study for maturita + draw/paint
April: study for maturita + draw/paint
May: MATURITA + draw/paint
June: portfolio for Cenfad + have the maturita report card translated into English & verified & blahblah
July: submit the application for Cenfad (or submit it when it has to be submitted; I dunno if there's a date for that)
September: if I get accepted, FLYYYYYYYYY to KL! ^_^

Today I read in the plane that FEAR STANDS BETWEEN OUR DREAMS. The article said that we must overcome our fears because our dreams are important...and if we fear something, it's a hindrance barring us from pursuing our dreams.
My case; I'm actually pretty scared of living totally on my own in KL - I'm scared I won't make it or something.....but I know that I must OVERCOME IT & GO FOR IT, cuz I know that *that* is wat I wanna..uni in KL.

Same with laser eye operation. I'm totally, horribly scared of it, but what else can I do, with -7 & -7,5 dioptries? -_- T_T

BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH, you all must be tired from my blahblahblahblahblahing already. *yawn*

Lemme finish with the obligatory New Year's Resolutions:

  1. I will DO MY BESTEST BEST to graduate & get into Cenfad!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  2. I will visit art exhibitions & generally WORK ON MYSELF
  3. I WILL BE MYSELF, however big pain in the ass will I be then (hahaha)
  4. I will go to bed BEFORE 11.45pm!!!!! <--- this will be hard....but I don't wanna have those eyebags anymore @_@
  5. I will try hard to have this room TIDY O_o
  6. I will take care of myself & be less influencable (?)!!!!!

Ha. That's it. ^^
I'll blog more when I recover from my post-flight weariness... *yawns*


PPS: Thank you, MUNIE, BAIBEE & RAY for your Xmas cards & gifts! I love them all!!! ^___^