Whatever

I've decided NOT TO CARE ANYMORE.

No presence, no future, no perspective.

Let's focus on what matters, that is, keeping the friendship, working hard at LKW and living my life the best way possible.


*


Tmr got power yoga class at 8am.

On Wed gotta see Harry Potter 5 again, but very gladly, cuz no words could do the justice on how much I salivate at RON WEASLEY. Hahahahahaaaa! :D Rupert Grint, you sexy, cute beast! ;)

Must go to bed. Nites. :)

My Hairstyle, My Everything

I don't know what's wrong with Asian celebs & their hairdos.







Why do they HAVE TO perm & bleach their hair like there's no tomorrow??? O_O It looks good ok, they look cute, but for example BYJ looks like a paedophilic gay or like a Ken or like a wax statue with such a hairstyle. EEEHHH!!! @_@

Cannot tahan.



Tell them someone something finally!!!!!

A Really Seriously Interesting Quack That Will Change Your Lifes Like Nothong Else

I just went to buy a new toothbrush. Interesting, right? I hope you're dying of interest now. *sarcastic laughter*
I also bought a nail polish remover and an Asia Spa Fa soap with CHERRY BLOSSOM. Woooooo, I'm soooooooo interesting!!!!

I won't even credit it, the flowers are beautiful but the pic ain't so. Or OK, here, the credits.




OMD no no no. Let's do somethong, let's not pointlessly quack. Right after my nail polish dries, I'll EAT SOME BREAKFAST (at 12.46pm, mind you), brush my teeth & take a shower, cream my bulus with sunscreen, dress up & then commute to madre's workplace where I shall APLLY TO LKW.

Duh.


I'm soooo interesting & fabolous. LOVE ME! *flies away*

I Must Throw Away My Clothes!!!!





If I don't do that, they'll EAT me alive. @_@

I cannot tahan it anymore!!!!!! *bangs head*

I tide up my tiny wardrobe.
Then I pick up one top, one jumper & pants to wear.
After I take it off when I come home, I put it on the chair/on the lowest shelf in the shelves by the wardrobe.

Another day comes.
I pick up different clothes and when I return, I do the same as the day before.

Another day comes & the routine repeats.

*repeat repeat repeat*


My lowest shelf is full of wrinkled clothes once worn.
I stuff even the "chair-clothes" to the lowest shelf, therefore it's even messier and even more wrinkled.

Now what do I do?
TIDE IT UP..?

Ha. You wish. =_=

No, I start putting everything on the chair again. Then when I come home & wanna sit by the PC, I take the pile of wrinkled clothes and throw them on the bed.
Later on, when I'm off to bed, I take the wrinkly pile of clothes and throw them on the chair.

Usually some wrinkly pieces fall down, thus I mutter vulgarities under my nose, pick them up angrily & slam them at the chair again.

The next day exactly the same procedure repeats.
The day after that too.

A remarkably long time passes, I lose all my nerves and tide it all up. And then what? To get to know that, read this entry all over again. =_=



*WHAT* do you advice me to do with this fucking bodoh habit?!
I'm going berserk by now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't have lots of clothes and yet this happens! ARGGH!!!!
And all those idiotic WINTER CLOTHES!
Duck you! I hate jumpers (especially the woollen ones), various long-sleeved whatever and all those heavy winter boots!!!! *SIGHHHHHHHHH*

I'm the happiest ducky in a tank top/t-shirt, skirt/capri pants and flip-flops. Well, being barefoot is even better, but that also requires crazy-colored skimpy bikini, hot sand & turquise water. ^^

Like this la:

WAHAHAHAHA, that was a shock, wasn't it?! XD

Okay, here is something better; I hope it will please the disgusted men's eyes after seeing Borat in sexy, skimpy, lime green...errr....DICKINI???? XDDD But hey! What about those chicks by him?! Liked it, eh??


ANYWAYS:

*ROOOAAARRRR*

With this I shall sign off and go check out some blogs. ^^
Mwah.





^^

I'm Not A Sweet Duckling

Ha! As if *this* was a surprise or something! :D

Why am I mentioning this obvious fact?
It's because I've realized that when I come close to hating someone, it's SCARY. I'm as crude, rude & mean as Snape to Harry.....and currently, one dude is experiencing this.

It has started very innocently.
I've gotten to know him via DD. The dude (can I call him XY?) has fallen in love with DD. I have his ICQ so we were talking. Blahblahbla here, yadda-yadda there.
XY is too shy to confess to DD (I understand this cuz I couldn't confess to S for seven years; however, I was advising XY to confess to her ASAP so he won't find himself in the same situation as me) and we were talking about this.........gradually I've been getting to know him better and better and I've understood one crucial thing about him: HE IS AN IMMATURE KID WITH MORE INFERIORITY COMPLEXES THAN IS HEALTHY.

Just a note, *ahem*, I hate guys like these, since I was with my then-bf who had inferiority complexes too & he was trying to mask it by acting all macho while he didn't have the character of a gentleman! (WTP la, my next bf will be prince William..! *giggles stupidly*)


I digressed.

So. I was trying to accept & respect him the way he is, I really was. I was almost successful but then last Friday (Feb 23) came and that had spoiled it all. @_@

XY & XZ (XY's friend) have asked DD if she doesn't wanna hang out with them in the downtown. She went, but under the condition of me going too because she knew about XY's love for her and she was scared of her mere life. :P
So I went.
I was pretending to be interested in those two fuckers bravely....and I was zoning out.....and wishing I was wherever else....and then, at 9.30pm I have excused myself, saying, I have to go cuz I must take a walk with my dog. DD went to sleep here so she went with me.

During our lovely little chat these two dudes were asking me WHERE I live. I told them, unsuspecting the consequences.

30 minutes later when I was with DD, these two assholes rang her up. They asked where we are & where I live. DD wasn't able to tell them. After a while, they rang her up again. And AGAIN. And AGAIN. And AGAIN.
In total they rang her up for EIGHT times.

They said they're coming to see us at where I live and they even had the fucking guts to ask *ME* where exactly I live!!!!!
I forgot to say that I've sent XY an angry SMS saying, "NOBODY HAS INVITED YOU!!!!". Yet the XZ dude has asked me where I live. I told him to fuck off.

HOW can people be so fucking rude?!
And don't those two feel that I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT THEM???!!!
Aaaaaarrggghhh.

That was really a Hell Friday. *fumes*



Know what's the best?

Both XY & XZ have DD's pics in their cellphones (without DD knowing about it!) and among these pics there is one with DD's lips.
On that Friday DD was looking at that pic.

"Hey, this is me!"

Both XY & XZ pretending a surprise:
"REALLY?! O_o"

I fucking bet they're masturbating by it everyday. @_@ *shrugs*



Today I met with XY at the History of Art classes. Oh gosh. I just can't hide it how much I despise him, his skinny body, his no fashion taste, his annoying questions & his inferiority complexes. Him & his girl friend were bitching something about me very silently but..... *yawns & walks away*


I will never get, WHAT DD sees at him....she talks to him as if nothing happened! @_@
Pretty amazing, considering their chasing & masturbating tendencies!!!!!



Argh. I'd kick his grape-sized balls if he was worth such an activity.

*

I was in Aupark today & all those people were oh so funny to me. They're all so superficial!!!! @_@ :P

There were times when I felt all orgasmic seeing a Hilfiger logo but I see a big change (to the better) at me now. I suppose it has started BIG & DEFINITE after visiting VSVU and deciding on my unis in all details.....it's like, I have finally understood that being original my own self & NOT a copycat following the latest trends, COUNTS.

Congrats, Miss M. ^___^





*

Okay. It's 11.24pm, I'm tired and I'm going to remove my make-up, take a shower, wash the hair and GO TO BED. Tomorrow I'm skipping the students works' showcase Cerebrum and instead of that I am looking forward for a LOOOONG sleep, a walk with Haku, a visit to the framery (?) where I'm going with my aquarell and another thing and last but not least - my cousin has a concert at 5.30pm somewhere so I'm most probably going to check her out. :)

I'm VERY MUCH feeling like wearing no make-up tomorrow & going out in my PJs but I can't cuz it's too cold and who knows *when* will I meet T?! HA?!


Yeah, I'm an ah lian afterall!
Guys = *must look pretty*

WTP!!!! @_@ XD

Another Weekend In PN

It's 11.40pm, I've sketched one thing & prepared few paintings for the Wed's scholar showcase of our works called "Cerebrum" (Brain) and of course, I've returned from PN.

Me is feeling VERY weak.

Must be that Maths overdose.... @_@

C (n, k) = n!/(n - k)! k!

BLAHBLAHBLAH. =_=


I'm glad that I've talked to hubooby today. FINALLY!!! ^____^
I'm glad that Hyun, my Korean friend whom I haven't replied for over 1 year (!!!!) forgave me for being such a bitch and after reading my super apologizing email with my ICQ & blog details he has just.......added me as if nothing happened. ^_^

He even commented on my cbox! :D

Hyun: Your friend is here now.My millitary service is 8 months left..haha;;
Wish me good luck~~

Saranghaeyooooo, Huyn oppa!!!!! :D

I'm glad people like *him* and *hubooby* still exist. ^_^ And baibee, of course! ^^ And Munie....... If I hadn't told you yet - I LOVE YOU. ^__^



Hyun is still in army - it takes 2 years in Korea - man, I'm curious on how he's doing...
Army in Slovakia is no longer obligatory but I think that it'd do just GOOD to the guys.
Let's take my classmates.

They have 65kgs, 4kg hair gel, Hilfiger jumper, no strenght, no manners & no IQ.

Uhm, okay, this was the description of UJ, but..... 99% of guys at my fucked up school is like that!!!!! *pukes*

Where are all those SHOULDERS?! ARMS?! Eeeeh???? Probably in the past centuries or all at Rain's body..haha! :P *hubooby salivates*

My father told me that when *he* was 17, he had 98kg of full muscles (he's like 178cm tall) and when he was helping out his friend (the friend was building a house) he couldeasily put one sack of whatever worth 50kg on one shoulder & another 50kg sack on another shoulder!!!! O_O

Those were the days.....

...now we have METROSEXUALS everywhere and these "guys" are probably weaker than bedridden me with a 39.5C fever. -_- PATHETIC.




Bae Yong Joon rules anyways. B)

Meow Meow

It's almost midnight & I still have to take a shower so I think I'll do this in the dry and boring bullet-point way. Sorry la!

• I keep thinking about S. AARRGGGHHHHHH. I want to forget him, but I CAN'T!!!!! @_@ The only solution for me is to leave this country and that's on what I'm working hard! ^^
  
• Haven't seen T for a while so my nasty plan of somehow inviting him for a tea can't work out! :P Good, at least I have enough time for gaining my missing courage.
  
• My friends said I look like a cat. Wahahaha!!!! MEOW MEOW!!!! :D
  
• Even after that tuition I got 3/16 points. I AM FUCKING GOING TO FUCKING BURN ALL MY FUCKING NOTEBOOKS & DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT THAT FUCKING MATHS ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  WHATEVER I DO ABOUT IT, I *ALWAYS* FAIL.
  
  *throws things around*
  
• GONG XI FA CAI!!!!!!!!!! ^___________^
  
• I hate my fucking school. SO MANY ASSIGNMENTS TO DO. Yesterday I went to bed past 1.30a, cuz I was working on the Southeast Asia presentation for Geo seominar which had to be *flawless* cuz the prof hates me more than Snape hates Harry Potter and I didn't want to give her the joy of telling me how shitty I am again.
  
  And whoa, today I got to know that the Geo seminar was CANCELED. *fumes*
  
  
• Tomorrow I'm presenting two assignments at the History of Art - Toulouse-Lautrec & Fauvism. ARGH.
  
• Friday - presentation of a book by Rudolf Sloboda called "Deep Peace". I must READ IT first though! ARGH!
  
• I have no contact lense solution anymore. I love my itchy eyes like hell.
  
• LIFE SUCKS, I WANNA HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tick, Check, Tick

I've just completed my English CV for La Salle. :) Wahlau, I'm so proud of myself! ^^ Yesterday I have written my reasons for applying and today the CV....the only thing left are the reasons WHY they should give me the scholarship.
That's not gonna be easy to write cuz I have to prove that I'M DA BEST & that I deserve the money cuz there's nobody as pefect as I am!!!!

:P We know it's true anyways.

Hahaha, just kidding! :D








What else is on the La Salle checklist?

* Completed application in English (CHECK!...it's done...in a
way)

* Passport-sized photograph (GOT TIME)
* Portfolio or
recorded audition (MUST WORK ON THIS AS HARD AS I CAN!!!!!!!!)

* Copy of academic transcripts in English (I'm under conditional offer,
will give them my graduation report card l8r)

* CV/resume & any testimonials in English (CV - CHECK! Testimonials -
soon to come)

* Evidence of English level (FUCK!!!! MY TOEFL!!!
AAARGGHH!!!)

*

I saw the S-guy #2 today at the bus stop. This is not T, this is the dude I saw last time before seeing S.
Isn't it weird how often am I meeting these S-guys?! O_o
Kucci says it's because "S in any form is my destiny" but I daresay she's WRONG. XD Haha, but I wouldn't mind that! :P

Btw, next time I will see T, I'm gonna invite him over for a tea to somewhere cuz he's a real cutie. A funny-looking cutie somemore! He looks like a brown poodle with glasses!!!! XD

(For credits CLICK HERE)




I would post more today but my PC is fucking slow & I can't tahan it! *fumes & bangs head*

Arrggh.

But know what have I found out today?

THAT I LIKE JAMES MORRISON & HIS MUSIC.

I hope it's not only cuz he also resembles a poodle! @_@ XD

Happy V Day!

It's a stupid & unecessary celebration anyways. -_~
Or maybe I'm saying that only because there's no boyfriend who'd hug me today, give me flowers & tell me something pukingly mushy...? :P

S? S' saucily sexy bro? T? Bae Yong Joon? Choi Dong Wook? Adam Brody? Keanu Reeves? Johnny Depp?

WHERE ARE YOU, GUYS?! O_o XD You still can invite me over for a candle-light dinner, you know. Hehe.

Hmm, whatever!
Seb was SMSing me to update today cuz he's curious on how is my Korean drama going on but I must disappoint him by saying that today was a totally ordinary day.

The most exciting thing that has happened was getting 3 plus points at Maths & completing my "Reasons For Applying" for La Salle. AND THAT'S IT.

Oh yes & I've tided up my room!!!!!


HOOOORRRAAAAAAY!!!!!! *throws confetti*



*


I STILL haven't replied to my ex. I even wonder if I should reply.....won't a total ignorance better?
You know, just imagine that you write someone an obsessive 3 pages long letter and you're awaiting the reply......you get no reply for almost a month.....and then one day, you get it & it's a nasty "DUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE" kind of reply.
Isn't that TOO cruel? Shouldn't I just let it be?

Wahlau. =_=


*

I must be mentally retarded because when I REALLY want to relax, I read stupid info about PRINCE WILLIAM. Good website for that is for example *THIS ONE*.

Yes.

Prince William.


HAHAHA!!! XD

One of my impossible wishes is to have sex with him one day. NO KIDDING NOW!~! XD Hahahaha!!! I'm no hypocrite pretending to be oh so pure and innocent....nooo....I'm an old pig....a virgin pig neverthless but a very perv one indeed! ^_~


*

I think I still want S. Or T. I keep thinking about them. KICK MY FEATHERS, SOMEONE!!!! @_@ XD


*

I KNOW THAT THIS POST WAS SUPER-RANDOM. I'll blog something proper when I have my thoughts sorted and tidied up....now the only sorted & tidied up thing around me is my room. :P
Nite! QUACK! :)

Argh, I hate Mondays!
We had the art course today but again we were doing nothing there.....seriously, I must STOP THE PROCRASTINATION cuz Cenfad/La Salle/Limkokwing don't accept procrastinators!!!

By the way, if anybody of my 0.000526 readers could nicely give me the first-hand info on La Salle, its students, the professors & etc.....I'd REALLY appreciate that! :)

It worries me on how am I gonna afford it all.
Fuck, I REALLY must start finding some part time job abroad, like, being the waitress in UK or something.

Is it just me or am I really only saying just what I have to do instead of listing things I HAVE already done?!
GRRRR.


Okay.
Let me list down everything & I SWEAR I WILL DO IT ALL AS SOON AS POSSIBLE:

• finish tidying up my room!!!!!
• transfer pics from my cam to the PC
• copy certain pics to friend's USB key
• send certain pics to other friend via ICQ
• look for a part time job abroad!!!!!
• pay up my recommendation thingy by the English prof!!!!
• make the Geo seminar presentation about the Southeast Asia for next Monday!
• print out the Toulouse-Lautrec assignment for the History of Art seminar!!!! TMR!
• wash my curtains
• throw out EVERYTHING unnecessary
• download April Snow with English subtitles
• call Li Hong
• draw, paint, draw!!!! LA SALLE & CENFAD!!!! ARGGHH!!!
• study, study, study!!!! GRADUATION!!!!! DOUBLE-AAARGGHH!!!
• tide up all the artistic items, cartoons, papers, giocondas & etc.
• clean up the floor
  

WAH!!! @_#
I've never realized it's so much. @_@ Maybe I should start by cleaning & washing & throwing out everything; the CNY is coming afterall & that's a great excuse for me to bring myself to tidying up! :P

*

I've decided I should somehow get T. T is the S-resembling guy....the curly one, with glasses. Heheheee. It'd be great to have a bf! ^^

Also I've firmly decided on confessing to S prior to my departure to SG/KL (if that happens) in the form of a letter/card! Ha! :D
I'll tell him about my undying 7 year old love & then disappear to SG/KL without leaving any contact on me.

I *LOVE* Korean drama moments. ^_~

Like this? ^_~

I drew it today in the simple MS Paint. My Photoshop is screwed up & not working, ok!!!! *howls*
Not that I actually NEED Photoshop as I totally don't get how to work in it. :P Whooops, hahahhah. XD

I suck duck!

ANOTHER Unexpected Brand New Episode Of My Own Korean Drama

My life is so interesting for the past few days! :D

It started with *THIS*.
Now my Korean drama has taken a very unexpected turn with my art course friend E inviting me for a coffee on Saturday.

RENDEZVOUS? O_o *scratches head*

We were SMSing to each other when it happened.

Me: "Heeeeey E! Wazzup with your architecture entrance exams results?"
E: "Fucking terrible, fuck all the architects, they're assholes, aaaaaahhhh!!"
Me: "I'm sorry to hear that! :( But maybe it'll make you feel better that I ALSO wasn't accepted into the uni. :P Wanna try out marketing with me? XD"
E: "I know it for 15 mins and I got drunk already... I'm gonna go clean the toilets, fuck the uni!"
Me: "Oh PLEASE!!! You're behaving like a kid! It's not like the world is ending with you not getting into architecture! You can try it next year or just abroad where it's usually easier!"
E: "Okay, sorry, I'm really a kid. Nevermind.. Hey, why don't we go for a coffee on Saturday?"


I replied why not. :P
I wonder if it's a date?! O_o Hopefully not...I like E a lot....but I don't like him *THAT* much! @_#
Okay, let's just see what will happen. :)
I feel soooo femme fatale! XD




You think that was the end of my Korean drama?
NOT AT ALL!

Today I got a short & nervously pissed off email from my ex-bf telling me how he finds it pointless & stupid that our relationship ended because of some virtual non-existent conflict on MSN which hadn't even mirrored our real something...I don't remember what anymore. :P

*AHEM* =_=
No comment lah. I DON'T know what to reply to him at all. I know I have to reply to him though because if I don't, his parents & siblings will consider me a real asshole and that's what I don't wanna, cuz I really like them. :)
Stupid diplomacy. Grrr. -_-'''


This still wasn't the end of my Korean drama....
I've seen T today! ^___^
For those who have no idea who T is - it's a guy who damn much resembles S, my forever crush. :P
It's not gonna surprise you much when I say that I DO like T as well, right? :P I'm a really pathetic duck. XD

I looked at him briefly.....smiled just super-briefly....and went away because I was heading to the tram stop with UJ & AL. On the way there I couldn't resist turning my head around one more time and he was looking at me! :D ^___^'''''


YAY!!!! :D
I'm a CRUCHE FATALE! Hahaha! :D
(la cruche - duck in French)




It's an amazing & nice feeling of being so wanted but it's kinda headachy too because I really don't know what to do.... I don't know what to reply to ex-bf.....I don't know how to behave at the meeting/date? with E......I don't know how to hint T that it wouldn't be a bad idea if *he* invited me for a coffee as well....AIYAAAAH!!!!! @_# XD

I need some relax....I think too much.
Off I go to watch Girls Out Loud! ^^

Hmmmmm!

This letter full of love & sorrow & heartbroken feelings scared me so much that I'm just looking at the Singaporean art unis of which my sayangku hubooby told me about.


Nanyang Academy Of Fine Arts.

LASALLE-SIA College Of The Arts Singapore.



I'll see, I'll see, I'll see.

Truth is that Singapore is a better city to study in than KL because it's relatively small, with a great public transport and with no ex-boyfriend. Wahahaha!!!!

KL or S'pore?
I'll know more after the interview with the GD dude who said that I'm an unpolished diamond. :)



SINGAPORE.
Hmmm.
^_^
I like both Singapore & KL, how can I choose? :P :)

By the price of the course I guess.

I must get to know how to get the TGD granted (Tuition Grant Deed) and then I should persuade my mom to let me study there for the full lenght of the course (if I get there)...then I'll HAVE TO work in Singapore for at least 3 years upon completing the course....wahaha, I'm soooo bad....just thinking of how to escape this winter. :P



I'll know more later though. Now I'm SO puzzled. @_#
Good night, ducky darlings....let me think this all over. :)

In Preparation

The entrance exams will be in 4 days (5 including today) and I hardly have 12 artworks from the min. required amount of 20. TEHEHEEEE. Impressive, isn't it? :P
I keep drawing, painting, drawing, painting & so on.
Just now I'm waiting for the aquarel paper to get dry so I can take my aquarel pencils and paint something there.....and after that I'll make myself the mushroom pizza (Dr. Oetker is my saviour), take the Koh-I-Noor Toison D'Or dry chalks and draw a landscape with it.

I'm supposed to be studying Society Studies, the 11th maturita question too because our prof is examining us tomorrow but I don't really care; I don't have the time for it! @_@

Will quack more later. :)

OK, I can't add the HTML of SiteMeter cuz it ain't workin' cuz my blog is ducked up. WTP.
What if I add the HTML *here*? Will *THAT* work?
It's pointless to add it here, I know, but I'm just testing it. :P



Not visible on preview. Sigh.
Quackever.

Sleepy & Skipping

I'm just talking to Manis (I'm finally at MSN) and we're both single, tired of life and its school/job and wanting a change we can't allow to come cuz she has to suffer in her job for a certain time in order to have better position later, by finding another job; I, in the last grade, just can't quit the school and leave and forget university.

I have to remind myself often, that NO GRADUATION = NO UNIVERSITY.

Fuck, but I oh so wish I could just quit this suffering.....

Today I woke up an hour late cuz the night before I went to bed at 1am and fell asleep at 1.40am...my nose started to bleed and mother suggested my staying at home. And so I did, instead of coming to school late, again. I called the doc so she could give me that stupid stamp to the list of absence but she refused, saying that I have to have a reason for visiting the doc.
I'm so pleased. -_-

Blaaahhh.

Like the right ah lian I did my manicure (the pedicure is awaiting me) and then examined my ugly irritated, damaged complexion (my nose is AWFUL), irritated & damaged it some more and then took up reading the Brunette's Diary at Lesk.sk, the portal for women.
I'm like a REAL ah lian liao, really, soon I'm gonna get hair extensions, gel nails & fake eyelashes....and then hallelujah! Haha!

*But actually I totally love those eyelash extensions which Xiaxue has*


OMH, this PC is so slow... I wanna throw it out!!!! @_@

The pedi now. And I'm gonna continue with reading Lesk.sk, it's stupidly soothing. Aaaaah. ^^
Shitty, shitty life!

Playing With The Template

HA! I like this! I can edit it all I wanna! :D Shame that nothing's good for me. =_= :P This poopy brown sucks, lemme change it again! :P

The Winter's Self-Made Meme (Cuz There's Little To Write Today!)

FAV WINTER SONG: "Last Christmas" by Wham! I keep listening to it all day long, like 50 times a day and soon I'll be able to sing the lyrics even in coma. Hah!

FAV WINTER FOOD: "Loksha", a potato pancake, the best one is with fois gras & cabbage filling. Yummm. ^^

FAV WINTER DRINK: Black tea with honey. ^^

FAV WINTER ACTIVITY: Sleeping, I'm a bear in my heart. And I can't ski. Nor snowboard. Sigh.

FAV WINTER PIECE OF CLOTHING: I wish I had *that* Hilfiger coat! *That* would be my fav piece of clothing. *_* ^^'''

FAV WINTER COSMETICS: Super oily nurturing cream for super dry & sensitive skin.

FAV WINTER PLACE: Erm, can I say French Polynesia? XD Oh, okay....or...Bratislava! :) You have to see our Xmas markets to understand!

FAV COMPLAINT: "I hate winteeeeeeer!!!"

FAV THING AT WINTER: It comes spring after it. :P Seriously. :P

FAV WINTER-THEMED DRAMA: Winter Sonata!!!!!! *__*

FAV WINTER TIME: The Christmas Eve and the New Year's Eve, Oh well, I'm not a Christian, but I like it! :)

CHRISTMAS WISHLIST:

• a good camera!!!!!
• a coat? or nope?
• CENFAD CENFAD CENFAD CENFAD....in the future

FAV WINTER ANIMAL: Elk & reindeer!!!!!! :D

FSV THING TO DO *RIGHT NOW*: Finish "Last Christmas" and then go to bed. Lazy to continue with this stupid meme liao.....and it's 11.30pm liao!!! Must go sleep. :)

2/5 Survived

3 more days to go! One concert tomorrow with the sadly un-talented Slovak singers. Heheh. One Maths test as well. Ughhhh. I still haven't revised anything, but it's not like I had any energy to do so....but I reaaly, really really should. Sigh. -_-

Just today I was talking with Ali on the fact that the way the society is determines our lifes too..well, more or less. We've agreed that people in SVK are seriously ignorant, not self-confident at all and always ready to lick asses (in the meaning of being fake & oh-so-empathetic just so they can get what they want once the person starts to like 'em).

Our school has changed into an institution where's you're virtually NOBODY if you don't wear at least Hilfiger. Or D & G. Or Versace? Oh, maybe Cavalli would do too. *shrugs*
Ain't that sickening?
OMD, when I'm a mother one day, I swear I won't buy any Versace to my spoiled, naughty adolescent kid. My duckness. VERSACE!

UJ's sickening me cuz he wears Hilfiger here & there all the time but his parents don't. Their clothes are like half cheaper than his but they buy him all these Hilfigers cuz....ehm, I dunno the reason actually. Too much love maybe. But he's so spoiled already! @_#
Please, girls in 2B grade, I know half of you has a secret crush on him, but REALLY - WAKE UP. He wouldn't be a good boyfriend for you. Trust me, if you've got brain, you'd kick his Hilfiger-clothed-ass in a week. ;)

It's also sickening me, how Kucci envies my 4000Skk worth of aliments each month. Yup, I've got 4000Skk/month but do I have a normal, complete family? No, I DON'T!!!!

Okay, what sickens me the most - on my sickening list - is that my life consists of two things:

• STRESS
• MATHS TUTORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really, seriously feel that MY LIFE IS ABOUT NOTHING ELSE THAN THE FUCKED UP MATHS.
What do I do during EVERY FUCKING WEEKEND for the PAST FUCKING EIGHT YEARS??!!!!

C'mon, you've guessed it liao.

MATHS TUTORING. Piestany. YEAHHHH.

There were times when I was in PN literally every weekend. That was especially 2 yrs ago when I was struggling with Physics, Chemistry & Maths. Now I'm struggling just with Maths, but cuz I have no one to help me at the tests, I'm failing. HOLY FUCKING SHIT, I CANNOT TAHAN THIS!!!!

Sometimes I wonder how could I survive the time of two years ago.

My mother was a really bad alcohol addict. Thus, I was crying every night.
I was constantly sleep-deprived. 3~4 hours of sleep/night? Oh, my routine.
Tests? I missed out on a lot of them before, so I was writing them on other dates. TWO, THREE TESTS A DAY? OH, another routine.
Every weekend in PN full of Maths, Physics & Chemistry and NO RESULT at the test?! Yes, I know how it feels.

I was at the verge of tears every damn fucking Friday when I was yet again off to PN. Even now I am whenever I have to go there again for the tuition.

IT WAS THE MISTAKE OF MY LIFE THAT I WENT TO THE GRAMMAR SCHOOL I AM STILL ATTENDING.

The only good thing at it are my classmates which are lovely, sweet people whom I really really like. But otherways? FUCK. IT. ALL.

Enough rants for today.

One more: AFTER MY FATHER HAS "REPAIRED" THIS PC, EVERYTHING IS FUCKING SLOW AND DOESN'T WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God, if You exist, then I wanna slap you. =_=

Listening to: "Babo" by TVXQ
Yay!: Erm...maybe we're off to Cape Verde Islands for Xmas & New Year! ^_^
Grrrr: Read this entry, OK.

Yaddayaddalalalaaaablahblahlalatralala

Such a boring day.

Me was on good terms with UJ and now again, we are like WTF cuz I told him that he's everything but a gentleman & he disagrees.
Well, but I am RIGHT cuz he is everything but a gentleman! AAARGGH!!! When was the last time he opened the door for me?! Never, yeah. H reminds me of Raymond, he also had no idea about the way of treating women. ARRGGH.
Thank god I'm not dating UJ cuz if I did, I would kick his ass & end that r'ship. Hahahaha. :P

Also I'm failing Maths & today is the parents & profs meeting so I'm gonna get killed.
BYEBYE, WORLD.




Life is sooo ironic.
Whenever I'm somewhere with UJ, there are heaps of yummylicious guys...but I can't do anything about them cuz I'm only with UJ and that would look weird if I came up to the guy and started some flirt or whatever.
On the other hand, when I'm NOT with UJ, the yummylicious guys are gone too.
YEAAAHHH. =_=

My application to the art uni in BA is sent...now I'll have to wait for the entrance exams date. Not like I care... I don't wanna attend that school anyways.

Wanna be in KL liao.

Cenfad Cenfad.
My own apt.
Sushi, K-food, char kway teow, wheat grass drink, chrysanthemium drink, Suria KLCC, Petaling Jaya, palm trees, pisang trees, stinky durians, dragon fruit.
Hot guys, neoprint machines, kool fashion, sexy shoes.
Exotic me! HAHA!! Angmoh chick, everybody's gonna look at me at Cenfad. Muahaha.

CAN'T WAIT FOR IT.

If God actually exists, He REALLY should help me with Cenfad!!!!! *wink wink to the sky*

^_~




Listening to: "Heal The Pain" by George Michael
Yay!: Dunno. My pants are shortned. YEAH.
Grrr: That meeting....ALAMAK!!!!!! @_#