Nice Day

Today was such a fine day. I even didn't write that Physics what's very beautiful cuz yesterday I was too tired to prepare the professional cheatsheets.

Talking about cheatsheets....
CHECK OUT MY MASTERPIECES FOR THE VERY LAST TEST:



I know it's very bad of me to cheat like this (especially when I find Chemistry as really interesting) but...but....my cheatsheets are so GORGEOUS!! 8D
Ignore my Thai-Arabic writing, no one can read it but me. :P


Since today I have new titanium earrings in my ears. Hypoallergic they say - I hope it's true, for my ears get inflammated even when I wear silver or white gold (!!!) earrings and that's just outrageous. Sorry duckies, I was born to be pampered in luxury, I can wear just gold & platinum!!! XD (And hopefully also titanium & chirurgic steel.)

These earrings are just like a little grass green sparkling stone in a shape of circle. It's really pretty, it sparkles and glitters and ooooohhh la la la, it matches well to my swampy hazel-green eyes and also to my oddly-colored dark hair! ^___^
I'm lazy to take a pic of my ears but it looks like this:

(I'm sorry, I can't give credits cuz I don't remember the website anymore. :S)

Ohohoooo, I feel soooooo pretty now!!!! EARRINGS!!!! :D I'm lovin' it! ^___^


The let's-change-our-apartment thing is getting serious! :D

Prepare your maps now. :P

Yesterday we (me & madre) went to check out one apartment at Guothova street - just the exterior - and today madre went to check out the interior. The owner was madre's good friend's aunty so it was kinda fun...hehee...
Also yesterday we went to check out one another apartment at Cesta na Kamzík but it wasn't good.

BUT BUTT!!!!
Koprivnica!!!!
We've booked one hella pretty apartment with 3 rooms, 92,31 square meters, one loggia & one balcony. ^^ It's at Koprivnická street which is quite near to a forest & it's also quite near to the downtown - 15~20mins by tram.

I wonder where will we move in the end.

Most probably it'll be away from Kramáre, the district we live in now, and that means that it'll be also away from S who lives at Koliba which is on the other side of the same hill.
Maybe I'll forget him then.
And maybe not.
Aiyah.

I'm starting to look at all the places with a big sentiment and all. On my way home by trolleybus 203 (or 204, 209) I often catch myself thinking: "For how long will I keep commuting home this way?"
Not for too long for sure.
Goodbye S!

Oh, S - today I met his younger brother Peťo! ^^ He's also kinda hunky and I've never noticed how tall and toned he actually is, only now when I stood by him. :P



I'm a really terrible & ungrateful ex-gf.
Today I sold the bracelet he gave me, got 700Skk for it & I plan to spend it on a nice t-shirt for mai baibee.
I feel kinda awful now but WTB, what would I do with the bracelet otherways? I don't want to wear it & I never would - and should I like, throw it away or give it to a drug-addict to waste it on heroin? -_~
No matter what, don't want to spend even 1Skk on me. No - it must be spent on other people. Spending it on myself would be like...in a way...like turning back to the ownership of something from him. And that I don't want to happen. I want all to flow away like a river and then...then I'll be happy. :)

That reminds me of buying the "Goodbye, Tsugumi" book by Banana Yoshimoto.
The synopsis?

"Maria is the only daughter of an unmarried woman. She has grown up at the seaside alongside her cousin Tsugumi, a lifelong invalid, charismatic, spoiled and occasionally cruel. Now Maria's father is finally able to bring Maria and her mother to Tokyo, ushering Maria into a world of university, impending adulthood, and a 'normal' family. When Tsugumi invites Maria to spend a last summer by the sea, a restful idyll becomes a time of dramatic growth as Tsugumi finds love, and Maria learns the true meaning of home and family. She also has to confront both Tsugumi's inner strength and the real possibility of losing her."

(Credits to Amazon.co.uk)
I've heard that it's a beautiful book & I like Japanese literature so I don't think I'll regret buying it. :)

Oh anyways. I think I'll go relax, I need it....and then I'll prepare my LAST cheetsheats from Chem ever! 8D



Listening to: "Miracle" by M to M
Yay!: My earrings! ^^
Grrr: That mad Maths prof B**** wants to give us ONE MORE TEST. Aaaarrggghhhh, I don't give a fuck about Maths, I JUST WANT TO HAVE HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Briefly & Happily

• TODAY I HAD THE LAST PHYSICS CLASS OF MY WHOLE LIFE
  
  Yeah! YEAH! YEAHH!!!!
  Let's partyyyyyy lallalalallaaaaa traalallalalalallalal hihihihhiiiiiii I even didn't fail although I was damn close to it, lallalallaaaaaa, 32,5% and if I had 29% I'd fail, mwaaahhahahahhahaaaaaa, LET'S PARTY ALL NIGHT LOOOONG YEAHHH BABEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  
  ^_^ I'm just so happy.
  I love Physics but NOT in the school. Bleaaaurrrgghhh. But otherways, gimme a Physical book and I'll read it happily. I know I'm weird. :D
  
  
• Today's conversation with Pom:
  
  Me: Hey Pom, what do u want for ur bday? (It's on Aug 9th but whatever)
  Pom: I don't want anything~
  Me: U must want something!!!! But I can't give u a car. :P
  Pom: Haha, why do u think I want a car?
  Me: All guys want cars.
  Pom: Hehee... Or maybe a motorbike.
  Me: I have NO MONEY for that!
  Pom: Then PS3. ^_~
  Me: Too expensive!
  Pom: Ur heart~
  Me: I'm not giving that so easily. ^_~
  
  Why do I think that Pom's feelings for me are like mine for S?
  Gah.
  I feel like in the middle of a Korean drama, really. :P ._.
  
  
• It was like 29C today!!!!!!!
  
  
• I'd better go now & carefully prepare the cheatsheets (I know I'm an asshole) for MY LAST CHEMISTRY TEST of my whole life & also read those 3 Spanish articles and try to learn them. Oral thingee from them tmr. Mierda. -_~
  
  
• I love Burberry. Please, if you love me (*hint hint*), buy me something from Burberry. Hihihihihi.
  
  
• You know, I actually think it'd be better if we moved to somewhere far far away from S and all my nostalgic memories.... I'm getting crazy thinking of him & knowing that him ever returning my feelings is a nonsense.
  I'm starting to hope that we move away.....and I'll forget it all. *sighhhhhhhhh*
  S.
  Why, oh WHY did I have to meet you 6 years ago in that McDonald's? -_-
  

Listening to: "Careless Whisper" by George Michael
Yay!: That last Phy.... ^___^ Oh, and I bought a new black mascara. :D
Grrr: Not an easy day tmr. Sigh.

Dense And Tense

It's fullmoon what again means that I'll sleep 5mins from the whole night & that tmr I'll look like a stunningly real ZOMBIE. Can't wait for it. =_=

***

The whole weekend was very tense & dense (hoho, it rhymes). My father is a demanding possessive kind of person & he's da king at creating a stiff, dense atmosphere full of tension. Hey, in some ways it's a lil bit like my ex.
Madre is thinking of breaking up with him for good cuz she says that she just feels like being with him makes her feel like "there's no way out of stereotype" and that with him she somehow feels "caged" and "not free inside".

Pcha.

LOVE.

What is that???
Nothing eternal for sure.

But see what I created one fine day when I was playing with Photoshop; I think it's beautiful. ^___^


I love its atmosphere. ^^ Of course anyone could create that in AP, I know, but I still love it. ^__^


Oh well. MIDNIGHT liao. I must go take a shower and then go to bed, tmr I'm waking up at 6.25am & I have a long day, with art course and all...



Listening to: "2 Become 1" by Spice Girls
Yay!: I slept until 1pm. Me gusta mi vida muchos! ^^
Grrr: This. My. Father. Arrghh.

A Belated...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHANGMIN'S LOVE JUSTINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Be happy, giddy, great, perfect....simply be as perfect as always. ^___^
Wish you LOTS of happiness, love (from G & ChangMin!) & success....and all....ALL your wishes coming true.

18 YEARS!
OMG!!!!!
It sounds so matured and important. Now you can marry ChangMin. Now it's the time. Hahahahaha!

ALL THE BEST!!!
^______^

*huge squishy hugs*
*sends naked dancing ChangMin to Justine*
*sends Jae Joong ONLY with the stethoscope to examine Justine's health*
*makes Jerry Yan to come & give Justine a bouquet of roses*
*arranges a romantic dinner with G*

^____^

A 71 Years Old Lady Blogging

Inspired by the kool future stomatologist Jolene Lai whose blog I love to read AND who'll hopefully not kill me for being a copy-duck.

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Such a busy day today!

I came back from Paris and now I finally have the time to call my daughter, cook lunch & cut the roses in my garden. They need some treatment, I hate seeing those old withered leaves on them.

Tommorrow my daughter, her husband (whom I'm still not really accepting) & their 3 kids will come to my villa & really, I don't know whether I'm awaiting them happily or angrily.
Me & Yasmine REALLY need to talk.
That her husband isn't treating her well, she's closing eyes before the reality & that's plain stupid. If she had my experiences....but aah, that careless naive youth...!!!!!!!!!

Would you believe that my 1st grandson Jano has successfully gotten accepted into the London College Of Communication?
I'm really proud of him!
Finally a person in my family who's not disappointing me.
He's well-mannered, intelligent, handsome and talented. He'll follow my designing path as he has gotten accepted into the Interior Design undergraduate course.

Sweetheart Janko, why are your siblings and parents so...so unlike you?
YOU are the only one whom I can take to my get-togethers with friends without fearing that you'll emmbarras me & yourself.
Next year I'll take him to that annual street art exhibition in Belgium, Monsieur Sacré has already sent me the invitations.


However, his brother & sister.... I really don't understand why Yasmine lets them wear those awful clothes, lets them speak like the worst worker & most of all - lets Peter play football.

IS THERE A MORE PRIMITIVE GAME THAN THAT?!?

I highly doubt it. As if he couldn't play squash instead, or tennis, or golf or well, maybe even the basketball...
No. Football. Good heavens, men are really weird and their mothers as well.
Ellen is a very sweet, good girl, only she should forget that her boy. First love never lasts. Of course she wouldn't believe me if I told her that - her world is now all pink & beautiful!

I'm glad all this is over me already.


It's been a year since my beloved husband has left me. I'm still wearing black and white (white is the color of sadness in Asia) and I still keep his emails to me which he had sent me from Iceland. I've never believed that I would marry anyone but then when I met him... Ah, it's been over 50 years and I still remember every single second of it..

Somehow the Alzheimer isn't affecting these kind of memories.

Is it well or bad?
Sometimes I think that a little amnesia wouldn't be bad.
I'm old, I deserve to live my last years of life in happiness, harmony and peace, not in pain, tension & stress.

Spare the old lady!


Oh, Janko is online, I think I'd better go talk to him. He has his first serious girlfriend and I must educate him on how to treat women. He might be the last gentleman alive, for all I know... I have noticed that "gentleman" is a very rare thing to see nowadays.

Good old times, where are you?

***

I LOVE writing fictional entries! Haha!!! ^^
Hm, by the way.... What if the "new phase" in my life has something to do with my psychotests' results? O_o *shivers from fear* Like I get to know that my IQ is 60 and I have no hope for entering and graduating from any university????!!!????
OH GOD.
If that's the thing, I'll die. Why have I even taken those tests!!??!!! *bangs head*

I'm sure I'm an imbecile. =_=


Listening to: "Hero" by Mariah Carey
Yay!: A nice soothing warm herbal bath & wonderful sweet pancakes. ^^
Grrr: Really...those psychotests.... *drops dead*

Yet Another Weird Dream Being Analyzed

I can't see my side section!!!! O_o
Can you??

Aaarrggghhh. Idiotic template/blogger/Mozilla/me!

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I had yet another weird dream.
I'm very lazy to write it here all, but let's imagine that dreams have meanings - I'm gonna pick up few things from there & ask DreamMoods.com what could it mean:


TRIP.
We (some students, me & madre) went on a trip to a forest. We've gathered on the playground of our school (yet again! Recently it was with that Chinese guy, it took place on the same playground~) and during a nice sunny day went to a promised nice trip.
The meaning of going on a trip:

"To dream that you are going on a trip, suggests that you are in need of a change of scenery. You are feeling overworked and need to take time out for yourself for some fun and relaxation."

How true. *sighhh*

HILL.
The trip started with a damn steep path to a hill with bright green leaves on trees & etc. Spring. ^^
"To dream that you are climbing a hill, signifies your struggles in achieving a goal."

O_o

FOREST.
"To dream that you are in or walking through the forest, signifies a transitional phase. You may be following your instincts.

To dream that you are lost in a forest, signifies that you are searching through your unconscious for a better understanding of yourself."

In my dream, there was both, walking through the forest & getting lost there as well.

PINK & PURPLE FLOWERS.
I saw trees with pink and purple flowers in my dream, lots of them. They looked really lovely & I ran to them and took few. Hohooo.

"Pink represents love, joy, sweetness, happiness, affection, kindness. Being in love or healing through love is also implied with this color.

Purple is indicative of devotion, healing abilities, loving, kindness, and compassion. It is also the color of royalty, high rank, and dignity.

To see colorful flowers in your dream, signifies kindness, compassion, gentleness, pleasure, beauty, and gain. It is also symbolic of perfection and spirituality. Your dream may be an expression of love, joy and happiness. Alternatively, flowers may denote a particular time or season. If the flowers are white, then it symbolizes sadness."

AMAZING, isn't it???? O_o *scratches head*

TREES.
I saw trees everywhere, as we were in a forest. I even climbed up a tree and stayed there. With some my friend, she looked Asian and had layers in her hair. :P

"To see lush green trees in your dream, symbolizes new hopes, growth and desires. It also implies strength and stability. You are concentrating on your own self-development and individuation.

To dream that you are climbing a tree, signifies that you will achieve your career goals and reach those high places in society. The degree of difficulty to which you climb the tree will measure the speed of your achievement of these goals."

Oh, it seems like in 3 months I'll be going to Ascott Horse Races, wahahahhahah. XD The more I look up the symbols, the more amazing it gets. Seems like I'm entering some interesting maturing phase in my life, so everyone, BEWARE. ^^

ROPE.
I climbed up the tree using a rope. Then I climbed down to take those pink & purple flowers, but after that I climbed up again.

"To see ropes in your dream, represents some connection or a way to tie/hold things together.

To dream that you are climbing up a rope, indicates your determination to succeed and overcome adversity. It may also represent your climb to the top. If you are climbing down a rope, then it indicates that you are experiencing disappointments and decline in some business affair."

MUSIC.
Uhm, don't laugh, but in the forest there was a concert of those losers from Slovakia Seeks Superstar. XD

"To hear harmonious and soothing music in your dream, is a good omen of prosperity, pleasure and the expression of your emotions in a positive way. Music serves to heal the soul.

To hear discordant music in your dream, signifies unhappiness and troubles in the home."

HOUSE.
There was some new, architecturally perfect house by the tree me & that my Asian friend climbed.

To see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche. In general, the attic represents your intellect, the basement represents the unconscious, etc. If the house is empty, then it indicates feelings of insecurity.

To see a new house in your dream, indicates that you are entering into a new phase or new area in your life."

HA!!!! It's THAT!!!! I told you! A NEW PHASE.

One last thing to interpret: All those ASIAN PEOPLE!!!! O_o Hah! Recently I had that Chinese exchange student in my dream, now this Asian girl. In both cases we've liked each other a lot.
So:

ASIAN.

"To see an Asian person in your dream, represents an aspect of your own self that is unknown to you. Additionally, to see an elderly Asian person, represents wisdom and knowledge."

Whohoooooo. I'm seriously at a loss of words. My dreams are amazing & (if we say that they have meanings) very meaningful.
A new phase?
Everything in the dream indicates it. I'm curious about it liao!



Listening to: "Dragon Days" by Alicia Keys
Yay!: It's Saturdaaaayyyyyy~~~ ^_____^
Grrr: Probably got a Physics test on Tuesday. T_T

A Very Long Pointless Quack About Everythong ^^

Duckies!
I think my IQ is like 40. Those IQ tests I had today will prove it, you bet! *sniffffffffff* Oh anyways, let's not poop down to my personal misery. Bleh.

Since nowadays me & madre are all crazy into ESTATES & we're reading estate mags like everyday & picking up possible apartments, I've decided actually to show you what, how, where & blahblah.
*Click* on the pic for a larger image.

See? Our current apartment at Na Revine street is the only one dark violet dot on the left. It has 49 square meters, 3 rooms, a loggia and...errr...that's it. Thanks to the locality this average, older, boring apartment costs around 2,1 million Skk (Euro 55 456) - anybody wanna buy? ^^

Kika, my cuzin lives 4 mins by feet from us.

Gulko, my friend lives very nearby, 10 mins by feet from us.

S, the poodle of my 6-yrs-old daydreams (I've realized that his hair is like poodle's, so there! XD) lives 15 mins by feet away from me. Not that it helps by making him feel that I'm the meaning of his life. Hahahah.

Just like S. XD Credits for his cute uncombed grim portrait to TerrageThen! XD

Uh! I digressed!
*Continues*

The violet dot at Cesta na Kamzik is one nicely looking apartment option. We're going to check it out on next Monday or Tuesday! ^__^

The other one at Sliacska is very VERY TERRIBLY WONDERFULLY fascinating but I'll have to give up my nostalgic 203 trolleybus rides home á la Winter Sonata.

No more wishing gazes at Jeseniova street for S's silver Fiat as 203 is passing by.
No more getting off there 'just because' & going up Jeseniova feeling all sentimental.
No more standing at Karpatska trolleybus stop & remembering how S stood there wearing this & that and my heart was pounding like crazy.

But know what?
Actually I think it's GOOD.

I like (love?) him a lot, very steadily (6 yrs) and I got so much used to talking about him, thinking about him, mentioning him here & there as it's already tiring me. I'm a pathetic fool. Pche!
If we're meant to be together, (what I highly doubt but I'd appreciate it) then we WILL meet, probably not now, but maybe after 25 yrs when we'll be both tired of life, relationships, work & everything.

OHOHOOO!!! Wrinkly S with greyish dark brown curls!!!!!! *dies laughing* I loooove that image!!! XD
WAHAHAA!!! Wrinkly me with greyish dark brown hair!!!!! You bet I'm gonna have saggy nanoboobs, big cellulitic butt & single eyelids.
Also I think ( hope) I'll be a well-off, elder snobbish ex-designer and I'll be wearing only black, fuchsia & grass green. In my fantasy I see myself in XXL black jumpers & blue jeans...wearing some ungodly expensive heels which are gonna damage my granny's feet with fuchsia nail polish.... HAHAHA!
You bet I'm gonna wear a matte (fuchsia) lipstick too. And crazy artsy expensive hair accessories in my greyish hairs. XD And real pearls. Aaahhh!!!
(Click for a bigger pic.)



MmmmmmmmMMMMmmmmmm, I can't wait for that! :D
Looking all scary like that is just so.....SOOTHING. ^___^

And S.... I bet S will have greyish curly hair, wrinkles around eyes, he'll wear the posh Swarovski glasses with a silver frame and lenses from the crystal, drive a shiny boring Volvo and he'll have reuma (btw, I'm gonna have Alzheimer's for sure).
HAHAHA!!! LOVELY!!! :D Maybe he's gonna have a belly and he'll try to cover it up a bit with Lacoste shirts & polo t-shirts. MUAHAAA!!!! I'M LOVING IT!!! XDD


Btw, in case you're wondering why I started to mention S so much since I broke up with R - here's the simple reason: R would be angry & jealous of me talking about my poodlecrush. So there. Now I'm single, free & able to quack out it AAAAAALLLLLL!!!!!!

A SEXY PIC OF PRINCE WILLIAM AHEAD!!!!!!!
*dies laughing*

William???

....


It's very funny but from the strict Asian guys lover I've developed to something even more amazing - I like just a certain, very weird type of guys who MUST have:
(HERE IT IS! XDDDDDDDD)

1. *THAT* shape of lips, like both BYJ, S & William have - I really don't know how to describe it but it's just....hmmm.....lovely! ^^ I wouldn't wanna kiss William though....ahahahhah... I'd die of laughter before it! XD

2. CHEEKS. I'm a sucker for cheeks. Please, someone prescribe me a medicine.

3. NEAT, CLASSY CLOTHES. Wear polo t-shirts, jumpers, pullovers with polo t-shirts, classy pants - anyways, look like you're just going to play golf - and I'll for 100% look at you and all. Yes, I'm that vain.

4. GLASSES. I loooooove guys with glasses!!!! They're cute! And they look intelligent! :D



Today in the trolleybus I saw a guy looking SO SUITABLE to me & my vain standards.
He had it all - glasses, cheeks, *that* shape of lips, relatively neat clothes. He ALSO had CURLY HAIR & LONG EYELASHES!!!!!!!
WTFFFFFFFF~~~~~ O_O
Why didn't I at least smile at him???? He was looking at me anyways, it wouldn't kill me to smile at him. =_=

Who knows, maybe he'd have been a great boyfriend. With fascinating eyelashes as well. Hihihi. Too late though, I can't do it anymore. Next time, perhaps? ^_~



OMB, I think I really should stop blabbing. I've borrowed two Agatha Christie detective stories from our school library so I think I'll just go & read it. ^^


Listening to: "Don't Forget Me" by Ryu
Yay!: That guy. Wah. Those estates. WAH!!
Grrr: I'm SERIOUSLY scared of my IQ test results. :S

The Truth

I was just trying to find a nice new template for this blog (this one is too sweet, ain't it?) & now I'm rather confused cuz I chose few equally pooperfect ones:

• This pure, neat 3-color Asian one
• This amazing Japanese one
• This interesting one with wonderful colors & a really kool design
  

HELP!!!! :P
I can't choose! Shame that I'm a retard and I can't make my own templates. -_-

WELL, actually it'd be wise if I chose some duck-related template, I'll go check 'em out tmr. ^^


Tmr I'm going to have 3-hours long PSYCHOLOGICAL TESTS in the school which most of 3rd graders had as well. It's a complex test where they test our IQ, EQ, everything.
Man, I'm so SCARED of that IQ part. What if they find out that I'm actually a complete imbecile? :S
It's for us to know what jobs would suit us & it's also for us to know more about ourselves - I guess I'm gonna get to know what I already know & that's that I'm a horrible individualist, egoist & an asshole. Heh.

THE TRUTH about myself.
Tommorrow!!!!
EEEEkkkkk!!!!! @_#


Today at the Social Studies class we took a short test about our political preferences (the election is coming, hihi) and my result was a brutal liberalist. Hah! Well, I'm not surprised though, it's just a logical result with my annoying 'fuck-outta-my-business' attitude.


Oh! I've downloaded the Alicia Keys' "THE DIARY OF ALICIA KEYS" album & I'm totally loving it. ^_____^
I have her debut CD ("Songs In A Minor") too & now I downloaded this one.. Well, I'm planning to buy it, I'm a vain duck so I'd rather spend 750Skk on a legal CD with a nice shiny booklet & lyrics than keep an ugly awful burnt CD here. :P

I'm uploading 2 songs for you here from the CD. Just as a sample. That woman is really talented, I LOVE her music!!!!!!! ^___^

• Alicia Keys - "When You Really Love Someone"
• Alicia Keys - "If I Ain't Got You"
  
  

This "When You Really Love Someone" song is a VERY GOOD GUIDE TO GUYS so please read the lyrics & learn:

I'm a woman, lord knows it's hard
I need a real man to give me what I need
Sweet attention, love and tenderness
When it's real it's unconditional, I'm telling y'all

Cause a man, just ain't a man,
If he aint' man enough
To love you when you're right,
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak,
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher
When the world got you feelin low.
He's given you his last, cuz he's thinking of you first
Given comfort when you're thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone
I'm telling y'all, I'm telling y'all.
Cause you're a real man and lord knows it's hard
Sometimes you just need a woman's touch
Sweet affection, love and support
When it's real, it's unconditional, I'm telling y'all

Oh cause a woman ain't a woman if she ain't woman enough
To love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak,
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher
When the world got you feelin low.
She's giving you her best, even when you're at your worst
Givin comfort, when she's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done, when you really love someone
I'm telling y'all
Whooo

Sometimes you gonna argue
Sometimes you gonna fight
Sometimes it's gonna feel like it will never be right
But something so strong, keeps you holdin on
It don't make sense, but it make a good song
Cause a man, just ain't a man,
If he ain't man enough
To love you when you're right,
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak,
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher
When the world got you feelin low
He's given you his last, cuz he's thinking of you first
Given comfort when you're thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone
I'm telling y'all, I'm telling y'all, I'm telling y'all
That a woman ain't a woman if she ain't woman enough
To love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak,
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher and higher
When the world got you feelin low.
She's giving you her best, even when you're at your worst
Givin comfort, when she's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done, when you really love someone
I'm telling y'all
I'm telling y'all


Mmmmmmm.... Now when you're all educated, I'll happily go take a shower, knowing that guys aren't assholes. Kisses, duckies! I love ya! ^_~


Listening to: "If I Was Your Woman" by Alicia Keys
Yay!: We had a nice lunch at Tokyo Sushi Bar with Ivor & UE & Kuci today. ^_^
Grrr: THOSE PSYCHOTESTS!!!! I'm scared of my results!!! O_o :SSSS

Summer Plans

Can't wait for today's evening. 10pm is MY TIME when I shall indulge myself in staring at the snobbish Wednesday Selection. ^___^

SAMSUNG SUPER LEAGUE, *<-- click* geddit????? WAAAHHOOOOO!!!!!!! :D
This time it's gonna be in Luzern.

Horses, horses, my love! ^_^


Talking about horses, I'm planning to join that horseclub with that weird trainer. Heh. It's called Zlatá Noha (Golden Leg, stupid name I think) & it's just 4 trolleybus stops by 203 from me or in other words, like 15~20mins by feet.

I miss horseriding way too much. Saya tak boleh tahan liao. (I told you I'm learning new lingos fast, muaha!)

Well.....my horserider's apparel (the black velvet helmet, the half chaps; anyways, see the pic if you don't know what I mean!) is 5068865yrs old already & it's way too small.... Especially the jodhpurs.
OH DUCKNESS, I wouldn't wear them even on my toe now!!!!! Haha!
As far as I remember it was size 36 (now I'm 40!) & it was damn over-priced - like 2000Skk. @_@

I ask myself, why I even bought it???? *slaps head*

Perhaps for the important horserider's feeling I got when wearing them.
I almost felt like a part of some snobbish British horseriders' club where damn rich royal ppl come & brag about their recent polo match with HRH this & HRH that & the Duchess of this & that, all using the funny nasal Oxford accent. Hihihihihi.

I also have to go to Piestany & take my dark blue long whip from there.... And the half chaps.
Here they are:

*Credits*

Well, mine are dark brown & from a suede AND I'm afraid that they'll be TOO SMALL as well but hmmm.... We shall see. If they're too small, I'll buy new ones which are again gonna be ridiculously overpriced. =_=

[OH NO, I just looked at the Eurosport's programme & what do I see??? I see NO WEDNESDAY SELECTION! O_O Does it mean.....no Samsung Super League today???!!!??? Oh no no no no, uuuuaaahhhhh, and I was looking forward to it all day long. -_- TT_TT *sighhhhhhhh*]

Well, at least I'll draw. That won't hurt me as I can't even draw a straight line. -_~


BLAHBLAHBLAH.
Lemme go wash my hair & my face and apply 50 healing ointments on it (my skin is again awful) and then....THE DRAWING shall begin. I swear I won't procrastinate!!!!!




Listening to: "The Fighting Spirit Of Dong Bang" by DBSK. THANKS A LOT, JUSTINE!!!!!! ^_____^ It's a great song, the guys have really nice voices in it, me loooooves it! ^___^v
Yay!: The sky is so blue & wonderful, I love it, ya know? ^^
Grrr: We wrote a Maths exam today. Great, great, great. =_=

Quacky Quack

Have you noticed, that I'm no longer a Sparkling Duckling, but SIMPLY QUACKYLICIOUS?
So me.
Hihihi! ^^

Mi madre bought a glasses frame for 13 600Skk (Euro 360, 364) today...oh man....talk about wasting! XD They're darn pretty though. I'm alright with crazy prices for glasses (mine were for 11 000Skk - with the lenses though) cuz glasses is something you have on your face & WHO wants to have an ugly thing on his/her face?
And cheap = mostly ugly. So there.

I really REALLY envy her. Final day...... Isn't that wonderboobful? *_*

My final day at Vazka will be a crazy happiness! I mean, I'll miss the people, the library, the new playground but I definately won't miss *certain* professors. Ugh. Phew!!!
Still. Nostalgic memories.... S S S S S... this thing, that thing... Oh well, I've still got like 9 months to go. *sigh*

I know that I'm changing my uni preferences like every two weeks but NOW, I swear that this is gonna be my LAST DECISION. A very modest one, mind you.
Two possible scenarios of my uni future are ahead of me.
Scenario 1:

We buy a horribly expensive (4 500 000Skk+++) flat at Koliba. No money for anything. No money for my study-outta-SVK ideas. Thus, I settle for the good ol' VSVU, Graphic Design course or for the STU (Slovak Technical Uni) and its Product Design.

Scenario 2:

We buy no flat OR we buy a cheaper one, far faaar away from S (I'll wither away then, hah). Got money for me to quack away. So there might go the Parsons College or some uni in the UK, preferrably the best one! Communication/Graphic Design courses, please.



Hm!
I'm very proud of myself!
I AM NOT BITING MY NAILS!!!!
Ain't that a miracle??? O_o :D

Me is so proud, proud, proud. ^^
Quack it up, ducky.



Okay. A very pointless entry, I KNOW!!!!!

And aaarrgghhh, I'm an irresponsible cheebye (see, I'm learning new lingos very fast! XD), today I wanted to DRAW, DRAW, DRAW & CHECK OUT DA MATHS. Also I had to go out with Haku on what I forgot & father almost strangled me.

Guess what I did?

0/3 tasks done. Ugh.





Listening to: nothing
Yay!: Bratislava is getting nicer & nicer. All tourists, please finally FORGET PRAGUE, VISIT BRATISLAVA!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
Grrr: Got school tmr & 46876 tests again. =_=

Amazing Dream

I just woke up (12.19pm, muahaha) & came here to write down a dream I had before I forget it. It was really weird & amazing, mind you. I even spoke English in it!

It was quite an awful grey afternoon after my classes & I was walking home through Jeseniova street, thinking of S & how much I'd love to date him and blahblah.... I don't remember anymore whether I've met him there or no. I think I did? Dunno.

Well, I came home then and got to know that a boy Chinese exchange student will come to our flat & stay there for few months. Few days after that he really came....and I took him out to the downtown, but we went there through Jeseniova (again) during one nice sunny day & I was yet again thinking of S, sometimes telling things about him to this guy.
I don't remember much what we were doing there but I know that we've been to the pretty must-see (for all the foreigners) historical centre of BA.
We've returned only when the sky was indigo blue already....and I know that I've started to like him very much & felt so loved, protected and just - natural - around him. We've became great friends in like 2 days!

This Chinese guy was maybe 18~19 yrs old, he was tall (185cm?), he had a short spikey black hair (no gel, it was natural), glowing bright beige skin - flawless!, beautiful hands & a dark sparkling eyes which had that 'loving' look in them. I think he wore some glasses too...or no? O_o Can't remember.
Oh yes, and we spoke English for all the time.

One day when it was as cold as this June (15C) and it was drizzling a bit & the wind was blowing like crazy I took him out to the downtown again. Holding hands! I was asking myself that "why?" are we holding hands (when I love S somemore) & whether it's not stupid but I felt so happy & secure with him by my side so I continued holding his warm hand gently.

We went to my school & I took him to the PE section with the gyms. There were some guys outside playing basketball & there was a simple kiosk at the beginning of the outside's playground. Well, a kiosk - it was more like 4~5 ropes straining at in the shape of a square with one old shabby dirty Romany woman as a seller & many dresses, winter caps, gloves, tank tops & etc. hanging from the ropes.
I was looking at the dresses & thinking of buying one but then those crazy guys playing basketball started to play it brutally & after few balls almost killed me, I went inside.
My Chinese friend stayed outside & played with them.

I waited there for few hours & then got greatly bored and went home by 203 trolleybus.
There I again waited for few hours until I got horribly scared of the Chinese guy and Kika, my cuzin, found me applying nail polish on my toenails (haha) being terribly worried.
To my surprise (and joy) she told me that in few mins she's off to school to pick me up & the last words she told me were:

"But you know, he really likes you.... You two really like each other, you know? There's so much love and care in the way he treats you....he'd be the right one for you."

I blushed & felt very fuzzy & feathery and then KIka went to pick him up.
He came up to our flat by himself & we've hugged really tightly.

"Why did you left the school? I was sick worried of you & you looked so troubled."
"Vice versa... I'm sorry! I was so bored there..no one talked to me.. And I forgot about you not knowing BA too well. But now I'm glad that you're here with me. ^^"

And then I woke up feeling totally confused.

If dreams have meanings, then WTF was this one about?????? O_o Lemme see.

HANDS: "To dream that you are holding hands with someone, represents your connection with that person. Your dream may also reflect anxieties about losing touch with him/her or that you are drifting apart." (HOW can I lose touch with someone I've known only in my dream?!? Or they refer to S?)

LOVE: "To dream of love of being in love, suggests intense feelings carried over from a waking relationship. It implies happiness and contentment with what you have and where you are in life. On the other hand, you may not be getting enough love in your daily life. We naturally long for the sense to belong and to be accepted.

To see a couple in love or expressing love to each other, indicates much success ahead for you.

To dream that your friend is in love with you, may be one of wish fulfillment. Perhaps you have developed have developed feelings for your best friend and are wondering how he or she feels. You are so preoccupied with these thoughts that it is evitable that it find its way into your dreaming mind. On the other hand, the dream may also suggests that you have accepted certain qualities of your best best friend and incorporated into your own character.

To dream that you are making love in public or in different places, relates to some overt sexual issue or need. Your dream may be telling you that you need to express yourself more openly. Alternatively, it represents your perceptions about your own sexuality in the context of politic and social norms. You may be questioning your feelings about sex, marriage, love, and gender roles."

I'm nicely confused now. =_=

SCHOOL: If you are still in school and dream about school, then it will naturally serve as a backdrop to your dream world. Alternatively, a dream that takes place in school may be a metaphor for the lessons that you are learning from your waking life.

STUDENT: No meaning for "student", only for "studying": "To dream that you are studying, signifies that you intellect and knowledge will catapult you into a path of success and wealth." Nice. But not that I'm getting it.

HUG: " To dream that you are hugging someone, symbolizes your loving and caring nature. You are holding someone or something close to your heart. Alternatively, it may indicate your need to be more affectionate."

NIGHT: "To have a dream that takes place at night, represents some major setbacks and obstacles in achieving your goals. There are some issues in your life that you are facing that are not too clear. You should put the issues aside so you can clear your head before coming back to it."

COUSIN: "To see your cousin in your dream, represents something or some aspect of your character that is somewhat familiar. Perhaps you need to spend more time in cultivating and developing some emerging ability or character."


Oh no. It's so confusing. =_= Makes no sense to me!!!! I'd better go & think about it, that it was just a lil bit weird dream. :P

You Don't Know My Name
*click* for the credits

Baby, baby, baby
From the day I saw you
I really really want to catch your eye
There's something special 'bout you
I must really like you
Cause not a lotta guys are worth my time
Ooo baby, baby, baby
It's gettin kind of crazy
Cause you are takin over my mind
And it feels like oooooo
But you don't know my name
And I swear it feels like ooooo ooooo ooooo ooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)

Oh baby baby baby
I see us on our first date
You're doin everything that makes me smile
And when we had our first kiss
It happened on a Thursday
Ooooo it set my soul on fire
Ooo baby baby baby
I can't wait for the first time
My imagination's runnin wild
It feels like ooooo
You don't know my name
And I swear it baby, it feels like oooo ooooo ooooo ooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)

"I'm sayin, he don't even know what he's doin' to me
Got me feelin' all crazy inside
I'm feelin like"
Owww! Ooooo Oooooo
Doin more than I've ever done for anyone's attention
Take notice of what's in front of you
Cause did I mention you're 'bout to miss a good thing
And you'll never know how good it feels to have all of my affection
And you'll never get a chance to experience my lovin'
Cause my lovin' feels like ooooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know
And I swear it feels like oooo ooooo ooooo ooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
Ohhh

Will you ever know it, no no no no no
Will you ever know it?
"I'm gonna have to just go ahead and call this boy.
Hello? Can I speak to -- to Michael?
Oh hey, how you doin?
Uh, I feel kinda silly doin' this,
But um, this is the waitress from the coffee house on 39th and Lennox
You know, the one with the braids?
Yeah, well I see you on Wednesdays all the time
You come in every Wednesday on your lunch break, I think
And you always order the special, with the hot chocolate
And my manager be tripping and stuff
Talking bout we gotta use water
But I always use some milk and cream for you
Cause I think you're kinda sweet.
Anyway you always got on some fly blue suit
'n your cufflinks are shining all bright
So, whatchu do? Oh, word? Yeah, that's interesting
Look man, I mean I don't wanna waste your time but
I know girls don't usually do this,
But I was wondering if maybe we could get together
Outside the restaurant one day
Cause I do look a lot different outside my work clothes
I mean we could just go across the street to the park right here
Wait, hold up, my cell phone's breakin up, hold up
Can you hear me now? Yeah
So, what day did you say?
Oh yeah, Thursday's perfect, man:."
And it feels like oooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
Baby Baby I swear it's like oooooo
You don't know my name, no no no
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
And it feels like oooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
And I swear on my mother and father it feels like
Oooo ooo oooo ooo ooo ooo
Oooo ooo oooo ooo ooo ooo
Oooo ooo oooo ooo ooo ooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know?)


Yes.
You've guessed it right.

I SAW S MAYBE AN HOUR AGO IN HIS CAR....heading to the downtown.

Fuck, I think I really love him.

Chronologically....
Me & madre were bored at home & then I've asked her whether she wants to hang around Koliba. She agreed to & - this is an interesting detail - even though normally I don't dress up any specially when I'm off just around here, today I felt like I should cuz I might see S, who knows?
Well...went to the streets around Jeseniova cuz I wanted to show her one fascinating villa....that terracota one.
Then I suggested that we should go check out those Vila Koliba & so we did. We went there & I've remembered that maybe 500m down there at Hlavna street there are another new apartments being built & that as I don't remember the web addy of it, I'd bettetr go check it.
We went there....I noted it in my mobile phone & we turned to go back.

Now, Hlavna street is a long road going uphill all the time in various curves & at one point there's this one another road called Jeseniova.
(The lil map of it which I can't upload directly here cuz Blogger is being an asshole)

Me & mother slowly went to the 'meeting point' of those two roads & my weird 6th sense somehow.....errr...announced me....that in the 2 cars going from Jeseniova to downtown....that in one of them will be S for sure.

AND HE REALLY WAS THERE.

Is this a 6th sense or what? :P

Seeing him in the evening's darkness (oh yes, I saw him even then, he was away from me only maybe...40cm....but he was behind the car window) made my heart flutter, jump, dance samba, squeal, leap out in joy & die of sadness, all in 2 seconds!!!!!!! O_O XD

Duckies, duckies, this is a PATHETIC LOVE. -_~

Pch. Okay. I'll try to get him *I'm so irresistible* & if it won't work out then OKAY. I WILL forget him & move on, yet again wiser in the matters of heart. *sigh* ._. -_~

***THE END OF SENTIMENTAL K-HEROINE'S PAINFUL BLABBING***

Future Designer? Where got one?! -_~

I'm SO disappointed in myself. *slaps herself*

Today at the art course I've decided to stop my fav mindless drawing/painting of springy landscapes, blue flying dogs, artworks á la I-have-smoked-a-lot-of-weed-just-now, busts which resemble S (he's in my subconsciousness, I swear he is - this year I was painting one Greek - or whatever - bust & it turned out like S!), dreamy fantasies with butterflies & flowers, idiotic craps & other DUCKSHIT.

Instead of this waste of time - and a great exercise of my fantasy - I've decided to take the pencil & draw the opened door in front of me, with a room in the back.

It looked fairly easy but................................................................................

...it seems like I CAN'T EVEN DRAW A STRAIGHT LINE!!!!

Really!!!!! AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT???!!!??? *bangs head everywhere*
I seriously had problems with holding my hand straight & drawing one darn straight line!!!!

Nice.
1 year before the exams to the uni I find out that I DON'T HAVE A FIRM, SKILLED HAND.

I'm seriously "DELIGHTED".
Now.
What I have to do in order to learn to draw straight lines (in my 17 yrs, mind you), is DRAW, DRAW, DRAW, DRAW, DRAW, DRAW, DRAW, DRAW & DRAW.

Draw the corners.
Draw the stairs.
Draw the windows.
Draw the houses.
Draw the villas.
Draw the swimming pools.
Draw the sofas.
Draw the kitchen.
Draw EVERYTHING AROUND ME.


Shit.
Too much laziness + no drawing + sketching horses/flowers/etc. + no talent = ME

Okay, I may have creativity (I know I DO have it) but sadly, I have no talent. =_=



Designer???
SO FUNNY.

Still I'm gonna try it. :P




Listening to: "Only You", piano & violin version, Winter Sonata OST
Yay!: I've survived those three tests....and tmr we have no classes! ^^
Grrr: Another Maths test on Wed, Thu & probably on Fri too. Oh yes, and on Fri we've got Eng test as well.

On Welding & The Compatibility

WELDING?? O_o

See my AWESOMELY PERFECT Letter Of Application for English tommorrow:

Dear Mr. {name of the dude},

I’m writing to apply for the welder position advertised in the Pravda Career section. As requested, I’m enclosing my two welding licenses - the Z-M1 one & the STN EN 287-1.

I have graduated from the Stredná priemyselná škola in Michalovce in 1980 and so far I have worked in the welding field for 25 years. In 2004 I’ve participated at the construction of the Apollo I and II skyscrapers in Bratislava.

I’m fluent in Hungarian and Russian and currently I’m studying French. I’m very flexible, responsible, devoted to my profession and even though I’m a woman, I work equally hard to men.

I’m looking forward to hearing from you soon.

Yours sincerely,

M. I.


This CV is actually based on a real ad for this job I've really found in Pravda newspaper in the Career section!
MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!!



THE COMPATIBILITY????? O_o

Well, I've found out that S was born on November 11th 1985 what makes him a Sagittarius & an Ox.

Pisces + Sagittarius = A perfect match

(...) "What's the best aspect of the Sagittarius-Pisces relationship?
It's that they can benefit from one another's wisdom and at the same time get along so well together. Pisces shows Sagittarius how to empathize and care; Sagittarius teaches Pisces how to turn fantasy into reality! The ability of each to provide what the other lacks makes theirs a truly reciprocal relationship."

(Credits)

Snake + Ox = A perfect match (the best one actually)

(...) "The Ox and the Snake share a compatibility of nine, on a scale of one to ten."

(Credits)



WTF! O_O ^_^
It's not like I believe in horoscopes much but this delights me. Muahaha. ^^;;;;

Gah!

He still hasn't authorized me.

._.
u_u
T_T
#_@
:S





And I had a dream that R wanted to add me to his ICQ (which he doesn't have)!!!! OMP!!! Weird, isn't it... Well, it went like I turned on on the PC, logged into ICQ & then a big vanilla yellow authorization thingee with R's pic & a rather angry & sad heartbreaking K-dramaish message from him popped up on my screen.

YEAH, I know that ICQ doesn't have such a thingee but hey, this was in a dream!

I was looking at it, not knowing whether I should or should not authorize it. I felt like I wanna talk to him but then I imagined that it'd be rather bitter & for 100% I'd have to hear some nasty twits on my nasty behaviour to him. On that idea I shivered & stared at the photo for a while and then closed the pop up.

Too much computers, they're in my dreams already. =_~

And too much contemplating over R, I must stop it for good finally. No use of it.

AS WELL too much thinking & dreaming of S. Damn, he has no interest in me & wtf, I'm one pathetic fool here hoping for something. Yeah, a nice Korean drama. -_~ If S will ever like me, I'll seriously start to believe in fairies & Santa Claus.

Isn't it ironic?

I somehow had gotten an (ex)bf from the far far far faaaaaar away Malaysia (12~17hrs by plane from SVK) & it didn't even take a lot of time. Few months I'd say. Same with Pom.

However, during the long, freakishly long 6 years I didn't manage to get S even though he lives 15mins by feet from me.

HAHA! Yes! 15 mins by feet!
(And in case we move to Vily Koliba, he'll be like 3mins from me.)



Oh well.
Fuck you, destiny.

Hihi. *sad smile*



Listening to: nothing
Yay!: It's still SUNDAAAAY!
Grrr: I've got 3 tests tmr! KILL ME!!!!!!!

Definately Absolutely Horribly Freakishly Insane

What have I just done?????!!!!!!!??????



I've just downloaded ICQ & added S there.

I'm awaiting his authorization now, not knowing whether I should anticipate or dread the possible chat with him.

OH MY GODNESS, WHY AM I SO FUCKING MAD??!!??
*bangs head on the window*



Btw, my ICQ No. is 273997013, add me if you're my friend or if you're Bae Yong Joon and/or Choi Dong Wook.

Merde.
O_O
S.
S!!!!!!

Shit!!!!
What if he authorizes me & I'll talk to him & make a complete retarded idiot of myself??? OBVGHgfxcdxhgdrXGRGrdxhtcfDXRGdtt546xgdxt dxthd bv dfszrwYRwtheHT !!!!!!!!
*dies on the spot*

Now I shall pay the consequences for my insane actions. x_x

His ICQ nick is "Jano".
Seeing it in my ICQ makes me feel very..erm...mixed. He's so near, yet so far & him becoming my (boy?)friend is also relatively near & yet so far and it's all IN MY HANDS.
AAAUUUHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! @_#

WHAT HAVE I DONE???!!!!???? *faints in horror*

If I'll behave like a retard, my 6-yrs-long S-liking will be useless. He has never liked me AND he will never like me as well.
But if I'll behave nicely, politely, friendly & just - great - my 6-yrs-old S-liking will take some turn. Then it'll be like he has never liked me AND he will sorta like me now.

Duckies.
One day when I'll be TOTALLY ignoring you all, it means I'm at ICQ talking to S. K? ^^



Oh, I'm so shivering & smiling & cursing & flying & banging my head...!!!!!!


S.
O_O



What has to happen, will.
I believe in destiny.
My life can't fucking lack S!




Listening to: Some FTTS song.
Yay!: 50% chance of *HIM* authorizing me.
Grrr: 50% chance of *HIM* NOT authorizing me!

Black hair? PHEW!!!

Hahaa!
See this:

(Credits to Newsen.com & Ahnyeonghaseyo)

This is a pic from Cha Tae Hyun's wedding (CONGRATZ!).
See the guests???
NONE of them has the natural black hair. :P
Apparently various tones of brown & red are favored (like Se7en, highest row, 2nd from the right). No black, Black is a nono!

Isn't it funny?
I dyed my hair black to look more Korean & in the summer I've used to fry myself under the sun in order to get tanned - without a sunscreen (or with a very mild one), mind you. Oh yes, and I also don't like various weird waves at my hair. I like it straight, curls & waves look good only at S.

A typical Korean would dye his black hair to whatever non-black color in order to look more angmoh & often he/she would curl it as well. He/she would also use whitening cosmetics and never step to the sun without a brutal sunscreen.

Those people in the photo are as white in face as I'm completely losing my complex of looking like a ghost...haha....just look at Se7en, he's HORRIBLE!!!!!!! O_#
I mean yes, he's handsome, but he'd be much hotter if he weren't that deadly white. *sigh*


Korean guys would love me. I'm also deadly white. XD


Hey, Yong Joon oppa, whaddya waitin for???!!!! ^_~



Listening to: nothing
Yay!: Nice day today. Nice dinner. ^^
Grrr: I have SO FUCKING MANY TASKS to do to school & I SO FUCKING AM LAZY to do them. =_=


BODOH EDIT:

Life would be beautiful if S were my boyfriend & wore this:


AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH, SO WONDERFUL!!!! *___*
I love perfectly clothed men. *___* ^___^

Contradictory

How awesome.
It's Friday! ^____^
We didn't write the test frpm Physics cuz it's been rescheduled to Monday (when I also have a test from Maths & Chemistry - seriously a HEAVENLY COMBINATION!).

Beautiful Monday, I'm dying of happiness. =_=


Yesterday me, grandma & madre visited my art teacher Mrs. Herenyiova-Belanova's atelier. Madre & grandma wanted to see that our exhibition & well, they've seen Mrs. SHB's artworks too for what I'm glad cuz that is the art.


See??? *impressed sigh*
*_*
I admire her talent, her artworks, her ideas, her technique, I admire her for who she is. ^_^ Other people apparently admire her too & some admire her as much as they pay her for some painting of something - anything - they want. But then cheapo stuffs are made, cuz some of those ppl are brainless & don't understand what's art & what's not.


Yeah!!!! That's actually painted by the same person, Mrs. SHB! That horse & this...oh eh urm man.... *diplomatic silence*
(Btw, I'd better shut up cuz my stuff is not art at all.)


In the atelier I've realized that I'm rather contradictory. :P

By the clothing (or for example by the flowers or make-up as well) I love little patterns, soft colors, stylish details, originality, amazing cuts & a quality. I would never wear clothes with big patterns (like for example a dress with huge dots or wtf) or too brutal color combinations (I'm for a stylish elegance, not for a brutal roaring fauvism). I also can't imagine myself with those huge beads which are so in now - I'd feel silly wearing it. :P

But when I'm painting/drawing (I prefer painting) I love to take a big wide brush, use bright colors, happily make a line here and there, forget all the tiny details, careful shadowing & etc.
I like abstract paintings more cuz they're just so.... FREE. No conventions, no rules, nothing. ^^

You're painting away your emotions. Ideal relaxation for me. ^^

BIG BRUSHES!!!! ^^
Ohooohooo, I LOVE big brushes, you make a stroke *here*, fill out *that* corner, wash the brush, mix another color & paint a curly line *down there* and....voila! It's done! :D

You know, I'm a very impatient, lazy person & I have no darn patience for drawing still lifes with pencil & etc. Bleaaauurgghh. Ugh!!!! VERY annoying this it is indeed. *trembles*

Big brushes rule. Few strokes & the painting is done even before it really started. :P Reminds me of haiku! :D



Am I blabbing here too much? :S
Sorry ya.

Btw, IN CASE (oh dear Almighty Duck, let it happen!) we move to Mestske Vily Koliba, I won't go to Paris/KL/London/whatever city to study uni at first - I'll transfer there only for the last 1 or 2 yrs.
Living nearby S is wonderful. ^^

Everyone, PRAY that we're gonna move there!!!!!


Oh.....WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE WEATHER NOW????!!!!????

It has never happened to me that I'd have to wear a JACKET/FLEECE VEST/HOODY in June. Shit. >_< It's so damn cold, I HATE IT!!!!!



Ok. Ok. End of blab!




Listening to: "태양을 피하는 방법" or "Running Away From The Sun" by Bi. I loooove that song. ^____^ Anyone's got the mp3? *_* ^^;;;;
Yay!: Friday....mmmm....
Grrr: Next week is gonna be LETHAL. If I don't forget, I'll post here my schedule, you'll all die just seeing it. =_=

Bliss

Tommorrow (which will begin in 6mins) will be the day of the

LAST
PHYSICS TEST
IN MY
ENTIRE LIFE

I'm thinking of throwing a huge party. Hahahahaha!!! Who'll come & celebrate the bliss with me??? :D
I'm gonna get like 3% from it (along with the rest of the class) but I'm so happpyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~~~~~
^_____________________^

Friday has never been so wonderful. ^_^




*goes to bed singing aloud & dancing cheerfully*

(Not) Seeing The Desired

I just came back from the downtown where I was with Kika & grandma.
OMG.
We were all happily licking the ice cream when I noticed a guy in front of us. I saw him only from the back and well.....

He was tall, lanky, dark brown curly hair...
He was wearing an orange pullover, neat black pants, black shoes....

I know what you're thinking - "Was it S?!"

My heart started to race & I imagined his BYJ-ish face with those cute glasses & lovely lips...those hazel eyes with black eyelashes & that soft smooth flawless skin...

And then the guy turned his head to the right & I saw that IT WAS SOME COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PERSON - SOME DUDE WITH A HUGE NOSE, ACNE EVERYWHERE, LITTLE WATERY EYES, NO GLASSES & SHARP FEATURES (so much unlike S).

Aaaarrrggghhhhh!!!!
=_=

Out of the all misery I'm listening to the Winter Sonata OST (yet again) because Yujin's story reminds me a bit of mine. Eeeh. We all know that I'm destined to be a Korean drama heroine. ^_~



At that moment I remembered it all
When I see those memories they seem so small..
You're far away in a place that I can't reach
I can't wait for these words of love to be said

I really was to blame
Will I ever get to meet you again?
I can't even imagine that
I still love you and now I'll confess that to you
I wanna love you forever
It's not too late
Be with me forever

For a long time you've been in my heart
Much time passes and still you're far away, but I will stay alive

I really was to blame
Will I ever get to meet you again?
I can't even imagine that
I still love you and now I'll confess that to you
I wanna love you forever
It's not too late
Be with me forever

(Thanks Leo's Lyrics for Ryu's "My Memory")


6 years. SIX YEARS.
I've never thought that I'd be able to like S for SIX YEARS. Too much oxythocine in my brain (according to the Feb issue of NG, a lot of oxytocine in the body is responsible for the long-term love seen in happy couples married for 30yrs & so on)!

OK, I'll stop this wailing. It's annoying. -_~

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Yesterday I bought a wonderful stripy V-neck Esprit turquoise pullover in Peek & Cloppenburg's sale. ^^ WONDERFUL!!!! :D I feel neat like prince William, wahahahhah.

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We have a Physics test tmr. ALMIGHTY DUCK, SAVE MY FEATHERS!!!!!!!! O_O

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I WILL NOT BITE MY NAILS. I will not.



Listening to: "Only You" (piano version) by Ryu
Yay!: I had a niiiiice Chinese food today. ^_^ Oh, and mi madre likes the oil on canvas & she said she'll buy me all the oil temperas, the canvases, terpentine & appropriate brushes so I can paint even here. ^^
Grrr: That Physics.... *faints in horror*