Quacking At Last!

Yes, yes, I know, I've been silent for SUCH a long time. Been very busy. Kept my Slovak blog updated. Kept my social life blooming. :)

Things with me & L are going steady and even though he has his mistakes, I feel like I wouldn't change him for anybody, EVER. Yeah, he's a smoker. Yeah, he likes to drink. Yeah, he sometimes doesn't understand that as I'm leaving in 15 days for KL on the other continent, I should be his priority, not his cousin that's leaving for a city 500km away.

Everyday though, I'm finding out how much I care about him. He means SO MUCH for me! The best word describing my feelings would be CONTENTMENT. Yup, I'm really content. I feel like this is the right way; it should be this way, forever. :)

The last drop was today - I've found out that I AM UNABLE TO GET ANGRY AT HIM!!!!!

Me. Unable. To. Get. Angry. At Someone.

SCANDALOUS. @_@ :P

He has promised me to meet up with me today but he has forgotten on that goodbye party of his cousin...so...at last we hadn't met. I was really disappointed & pissed off and I've wanted to tell him so many things...like...
"Why the fucking hell you promise something to me & then you don't fucking do it?! I can't stand that behaviour! You're such an irresponsible, egoistic asshole!"

Sigh, baby. You pathetic fool. Those were my angry thoughts flying around in my mind.

However, after I've picked up the phone.... I said: "Awww...you know...I understand that family is family...but still, I don't like people promising me things & then not doing them...please, don't do that to me, I'm leaving in 15 days and I really care about being with you now..."


CAN I GET ANY MORE PATHETIC?! XD
Hardly. :P
I'm feeling extremely vulnerable cuz my sarcastic & easily-pissed-off attitude is often my only defense. And now..I can't get pissed off....who am I? :P
Hahahaaa.
Lucky lucky L, he's the only person I can't send to burning hells with my raw words. :P



Aaaaah, I'm REALLY tired. Tmr (technically, today) I'm off to meet up with him...nice. :)
Good night!

Hmpf!

Those were the days when I was cracking my head above the academic issues and issues regarding my future. I'm turning the leaf to my usual Korean drama life! :P



There's this my friend from the art class, let's call him L.

He's the one that has invited me over for a coffee for a grand total of three times of which we have actually met for zero times, due to unknown reasons. :D At that time I found it rather ridiculous for him to invite me over for anything, I didn't know him that well and I didn't feel like guys should interest me at all, after the pleasant break up with R.

Time went by and we've became a really good friends, recently we've been together at a club, before that at a bar with his friends (I've been laughing for 1.5 hours straight; those guys were the funniest & freakiest lot I've met in a loooong long time) and then he has left for an awesome road trip around Europe with his friend.
We, of course, keep in touch, we text each other pretty often at what's new & how are things going and where are they and what's new with Dr. House.. :D :D :D Ah yes, he watches it too! :D

I sense that still kind of likes me *that* way...I assume that he has liked me *that* way even before, hence the still; people don't invite other people over for a coffee just because, do they? :P

And NOW!!!! I think I also do! And FUCK IT!!!! I'm leaving in SIX WEEKS, okay?!
Grrrr.

There are things that are pro doing anything significant around this issue:

1. I can hardly meet another dude with THAT of a lovely character & THAT of a freaky sense of humour
   
   
2. I live just ONCE! Grab the chance, bitch!
   
   
3. Six weeks is quite a lot, isn't it? Who knows, maybe we could last for three days. Live at presence, babe.
   
   

And then there are things that are contra doing anything significant around this issue:

1. I can hardly meet another dude with THAT of an addiction to cigs and apparently, to alcohol as well. Very gross. Cannot tahan.
   
   
2. I'm leaving in SIX WEEKS. 10 000km away. Wake up. WTD.
   
   
3. Maybe he is totally phlegmatic about me & I'm just seeing things, thus, doing anything would inevitably mean a total embarrassment. Not that I'm not used to embarrassing myself, but still!!!
   
   
4. Even if he liked me & we would hypothetically get together, I'd leave and then I'd be yet in ANOTHER long-distance relationship, now in the exactly opposite way as before (me in SK, bf in MY), now it'd be me in MY, bf in SK! Who wants THAT?!?! 12 hours long flight is a 12 hours long flight. WTP.

Jesus Christ, I'm not gonna elaborate on this any longer, it's too much of a Korean drama for my three brain cells. @_@ He's coming back from his road trip sooner or later and then will, hopefully, things clear out. Wahlau.

Good luck to me & good luck to hubooby with a similar problem! B-)

Le Poseur


*RANTING QUACK*


I'm feeling like I'm living in a fake world where everything is unreal, all people are false assholes & I'm one of them.
ARGH!!!!
Probably I *really* am a poseur. I'm NOT myself in front of everyone. Sure, we all wear some 'social masks' but still....
I don't even know why has it gotten so much to me now but I've suddenly realised that I'm DUCKING TIRED of all the pretending.

You assholes. Not you, my 0.05 readers, that was meant in general to stupid people~
WHY SHOULD I PRETEND ANYTHING IN FRONT OF YOU?

Why should I dress up sexily? Just so XY creatures that use dicks instead/as brains can masturbate when projecting my look?

WHO cares about any make-up? Li Hong is right, natural is the prettiest. Only I'm not sure if I'm able to stop using it, I find it quite necessary. Yeah, I know I'm contradicting myself. :P

Why should I waste money on mojitos & branded stuff? Fuckers, it's just a pose. And I was a DAMN HUGE poseur last summer. I'm tired of mojito (virgin, I drink the virgin one) and besides, it's just another drink...and EVERYONE in BA that wants to look cool, hip, stylish, rich, down-to-earth & laid-back drinks it. =_=
I'm sick of you, fuckers.

At least I'm not going with the flow (partially due to the lack of money) in terms of the apparel.

Got Lacoste?
Hilfiger?
G-Start Raw?
Diesel?
Replay?
Guess? Cavalli?

NICE. You're DA MAN!!!! *pats back*
Maybe you remember, maybe not, how I was going with this flow last year. I've SO wanted a violet Hilfiger coat & around 50 Lacoste stuffs.....but those were the days when I had yet to understand, that I'm acting like an idiotic kid.

I'm also having second thoughts about learning tennis cuz I don't really feel like I'm that kind of a tennis person, you know? I LOVE LOVE LOOOOVE badminton, but tennis seems too complicated & technically difficult to me.

(Credits)

Most importantly, I've never been particularly *interested* in it, only this year, I somehow persuaded myself that it's a very happening & interesting game and if I won't keep a track of what's going on in it, I'll be a loser.

Ah, sounds like just another pose. -_~




Dunno, dunno, dunno.
I'm trying to be someone I'm not & I'm not trying to be who I am.
Sounds confusing? I hope it doesn't. In times/moods like these I feel like it'd do me the best if I've just packed my toothbrush (and my eyedrops of course!) and left for some tranquil, crispy clean & beautiful place with NOBODY humanoid around where I could just chill.

(Credits)


AAAAAAHHHHHHHH. ^____^

I'm counting on Malaysia, btw.

New people, new place, new school, new almost everything.
I solemnly swear that I'll be ME, MYSELF & I and nobody else.

LIFE = CHANGE & CHANGE = LIFE.

^^

"Acknowledged"

Does that "Acknowledged" in my LKW online enrolment application status thingy mean ACKNOWLEDGED as we know it in the good old English? ACCEPTED?! Or is it just my application & the payment accepted, but it's not that I'm actually accepted into the uni?!


Sheeeeesh, quack, sheeeeesh. *breathes heavily & tries not to bite nails*


I foresee sleepless nights until I get (or NOT!!!!! *bites bulus*) the Letter of Offer. O_O




Look at this:

Payment Date	6/25/2007
Application/Payment Status	Acknowledged
Application ID	*quackquack*
Applicant Name	Michaela I...you know my name ;)
Application Date	6/25/2007
Semester	1
Intake	September 2007
Selected Course	Bachelor of Arts in Graphic Design (3+0) [ KP/JPS (KR5166) 09/09 ] Faculty of Design Innovation Curtin University of Technology, Australia

Am I bodoh or am I bodoh? O_o Tell me it MEANS that I'm accepted, tell me so. Even just for a one damn semester. If I'm accepted, the remaining fees will be paid in no feather time. *_*
*bites feathers anxiously & quite in disbelief*






AND!
Look at my horoscope at Facebook:

"A door in your life really needs to be closed before you can open another one. Lock it up and throw away the key! You have to, for your own sake."

OMD. This Facebook horoscopes almost always comes true. It's updated just three times a week but that kind of makes it more...believable.

I keep thinking on WHAT DOOR TO CLOSE & HOW TO THROW AWAY THE KEY.
The opening of the new door is clear, it's the university thing (that's making me this anxious....*this* anxious, ot's 1.46am and I'm quacking here and checking my application status).

Close a door. Hmmm, hmmm. My SK life? I can't throw it away, this is my homeland, okay...
Or, my HIGH SCHOOL life?? I could as well throw *this* away cuz I don't really miss my ex-classmates or anything but it seems too rude to me to do that.

Okay, let's say we have closed the door, whatever door it has been. Now the question is, HOW ONE THROWS AWAY THE KEYS?! That's a real mystery to me. Change my name? Tell everyone you hate them & them emmigrate from the country?
Hahaha, okay, that's too extreme. :P

But really, how one does it? Have you ever done it? O_o






Almost 2am.






PLEASE, LKW, SEND ME THE LETTER OF OFFER.
I'll then hug everyone & start dancing salsa and book my airticket & kiss Haku & cry & laugh & get scared & get excited & get sad & get happy ALL IN THE SAME TIME. ^_____^
Let's PRAY.

Strange Little Things That Are Happening To Me


* I don't give a QUACK about make-up anymore.
After that operation and after that one week of sleeping/breathing with closed eyes I no longer feel the insane urge to prettify myself with make-up and whateva cosmetics. Got UNused to it, I guess. Soon I'll reach Li Hong's phase when I'll wake up, wash my teeth & face and hands and comb hair and then GO. Hahahaha! But before *that* happens, I'll go and get my complexion cleant. :P


* I suffer from a severe QUACKING DIARRHOEA.
You have noticed it also, haven't you? Three quacks/day, that's like, MAD.


* I have a stronger affinity to the ultimate girly color - PINK.
How sad. I'm turning into Xiaxue!!!! T_T @_@ Nothing against her, I like reading her blog and I am in awe on how active she is & everything - she has achieved everything with her own hands with pink fake nails; however, I DUN WANNA BECOME HER!!!
When I start buying pink mobile phones & continue on by putting glitter on my pink laptop, say nothing and just KILL ME.


* Dreams & goals are being achieved.
That said, IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING, as Adidas very accurately states. I've registered for Limkokwing today. Now let's ducking PRAY & HOPE that I ducking GET IN!!!!!!!













Weird, weird, mysterious life. O_O ^_^

Yiiiippppiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

It's OVER!!!!!
It was OVER already yesterday but I was too exhausted to think straight. In fact, I'm still not really GETTING it; all those 8 years of my grammar school are...... *OVER*. *_____*
Gosh, I won't believe it until I get that precious graduation report card!!!!!

Btw, the grad. My results are awesome:

1 - Literature & Slovak language
1 - English
1 - History of Arts
3 - Social Studies (but that was absolutely unfair, I should have gotten 2 or even 1!!!! The prof is apparently a complete bitch, I hope her boobs rot & drop off)

1 is like A and 3 is like C.
I'm proud of myself but I can't say it was entirely my geniality kickin' in cuz it was partially about an INSANE LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gosh. I've chosen - from all the 35 questions that I haven't studied for - the only one question I haven't studied for as well, but knew about it anyways. That was the "Slovak folk arts and costumes".

Then on Slovak I've chosen the "Baroco & Classicistic" literature to which they gave me three pages with excerpts I had to work with - and that's just what I needed as I'm bad at memorising stuff and good at working with texts. By the way, the other questions had just two papers with excerpts. Lucky lucky me!

English was nice too. Know what have I chosen? ART & CULTURE. Teheheheeee! So we ended up talking about the visual arts I like and about me hopefully going to KL & etc. :P

And then Social Studies, I've chosen a Q where I had to talk about the human rights & the political parties & etc. I've told that bitch EVERYTHING. And she gave me 3???!!!! FUCK HER AND I LIKED HER!!!!
GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~ *fumes*


Anyways, I'm happy cuz now the doors to Limkokwing and to everywhere are open wide AND now I have the chance to fulfill my dream & go study Graphic Design overseas. ^_^

Sadly, I've been slacking in the terms of drawing & painting... I must start painting again. For the past three hell of a weeks I was doing three things only: STUDYING, EATING, SLEEPING. Seriously, I've learnt more during these three weeks than during all those 8 years! Hahaha!

I AM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
^__________^


Today I'm going to give back the books they borrowed us and then I'm going to Prague with dad. :) I'm soooo looking forward! ^__^ We'll be going for a KOREAN DINNER and I'm salivating for a Korean food for like 18 years of my life or so. :D Yesterday I've found THREE Korean restaurants in Prague (compared to ZERO in BA) and I really dunno to which one shall we go....it doesn't matter though......as long as we'll go to one! ^_^

I'll have a day off in Prague and I plan to go shopping in the downtown. I hope I won't get lost too often - I've been to Prague million years ago and I don't remember a single thing, not even where the Vaclav's Square is and how do I get to the Karl's Bridge. @_@ OMG, emmbarrasing....and to think we were one country once.... @_# :D

Bikini, sneakers & a bag, that's what I need. So I shall hunt for it. :) I'm thinking about buying some funky Converse shoes cuz I've always been eyeing them but never bought them cuz my cousin told me that they are quite shitty. Well, as they say "Trust but try out"...I shall do so. :)

THen the bikini....well, I've been thinking about buying Lacoste bikini but thinking about it again, it's a waste of money. Do I need to have a crocodile on my boob?! NOPE!!! :P Besides, it's a tennis brand and from a certain time onwards EVERYWHERE I GO, THERE GOES TENNIS. It's like, STALKING ME!!! @_@ I'm starting to hate it!

Wherever I come, there are people talking about tennis. I switch on the TV and there's tennis (but that's understandable, as the Roland Garros is now). I meet new people and they turn out to be tennis players. GOSH.


Whoops....I'm in a quacking mood today but I must go liao - the books are waiting! It's going to be the very last time of myself in *that* school. ^_^ The LAST TIME will be on Monday when we'll get the GRADUATION REPORT CARDS and then.... I'm OFFICIALLY FREE. ^___^

LA DUCKY VITA!!!! ^_^

"No Time For Love"

Fine.
There's FINALLY/SADLY/LUCKILY nothing else for me to contemplate about because one episode of my drama of life has just ended.
It was bitter like a lemon fernet for me and I'm still swallowing it, but c'est la vie.....
Now.
To the point:

DOGGY: "How was your badminton? What, ain't the Prague option interesting for you?"

ME: "Not NOW, after the grad maybe...I'm in PN now....but then, I'll come...for 85%! "Life is about changes" as the Heracleitos from Efez has said!"

DOGGY: "I know. Is it there where those vinyls are? I won't be here (in SK) right after your grad but I'll surely come back later. And if I'm right, it's as the Epicuros has said: 'Foreigner, here you will feel good, here the pleasure is the biggest contentment.'"

ME: "Anyways, now I'm in PN and it's fine here; fresh strawberries in the garden, badminton, food, relax, music...aaaahh. :)"

DOGGY: "And what about the lovers? And the beer? I was kinda thinking when you were talking about that your ex....you're still waiting for your prince, aren't you?"

ME: "Hahaaa, today one guy that was dropping the flyers almost dropped off his bike when he saw me in a short skirt! :P And yes, I am waiting....and with my requirements I think I will, for a long time... =_="

DOGGY: "Don't you worry, those that would like to please you (physically, he meant), they are in heaps! You're just SMSing with one I guess.... But if you're waiting for your prince, it's not gonna be me. I don't have any time for love now."

ME: "Well, I could have LOTS of them last Friday at Dopler (SK version of the Zouk) but..no, thanks...I'm not in for shallow relationships. Is love for tennis enough to you? ;)"

DOGGY: "It is. It's just that sometimes one needs to vent out the hormones. If you'd have a similar problem someday, I'll be glad to help...but now I'm off to sleep. Nites & sweet dreams. I'm going to dream and I think it'll be about making love with you."

ME: "Good night and I hope there's a tennis racquet lying by your side.. ;) Well, and if you were calling me to come to CZ just so you'd be able to shag me, then I definately won't come. Sweet tennis dreams!"

DOGGY: "Nah, just like, for a visit. It's not like I can call you for anything else anyways (he has a gf but he's planning to break up with her after the grad).. Well, nitez and sweet dreams about the Miletian school." <--- I was studying the Philosophy, hence all these Philo jokes & references :)

ME: "Well, that's another speech now! I shall see. Take care!"






Wow, so kool, I've always wanted to be the one the guys wanna shag. =_=''''
Well.....no comment.
GUY READERS OF MY BLOG, PLEASE, TELL ME THAT YOU *DON'T* WANNA SHAG ME AS WELL!!!!!!!!!!!! @_#


My feminine dignity and pride is shattered. Gosh, if ALL GUYS are like this, I'll be a lesbian. =_= :P

The Two Chirping Birds

I have never believed on anything like SYMBOLS, SIGNS and etc., but I was forced to rethink it few days ago.
I have never 100%-ly believed even in this Feng Shui thing and I think I'll be forced to rethink it too. :P

Three days ago, in the morning, I was in the living room, just about to leave for the school. Suddenly, I heard a REALLY loud chirping and even though I was in a hurry, I turned around and saw two pretty birds on the balcony fence (or whatever) 'dancing' around each other.

It was *them* who were chirping so aloud.. And I was looking at them, smiling, they were chirping and then they flew away....still together. My mother hasn't noticed a thing.

"The birds?", I thought, "The birds are supposed to be a super positive sign according to the FS...and TWO birds, that may be a sign of a positive turn in my love life or something!"

Little I believed in that anyways and I went to school.
And then I came back home & logged into MSN & ICQ. I saw Doggy online and I was really tempted to IM him but then I collected all my pride & dignity and my hurt ego & told my friend:

"I'm NOT gonna IM him ANYMORE. It's leading from nowhere to nowhere & nothing's gonna happen anyways."

A minute later he IMed to me & invited me on mutual webcaming.


And from THAT DAY onwards I am chatting with Doggy almost everyday and he's inviting me to see him in Prague (there's a tournament these days) and to "listen to the music by the candles"...oh yes, and he has told me that the way I looked at him once on the webcam (but I swear that was just for fun!) was "really tough weapon" and so on.

O_o


Duck. I can't believe it's JUST BECAUSE. O_o
Who knows what's gonna happen today..tomorrow...later? :)

I have politely declined his Prague offer because I'm graduating in freaking few days and I need to STUDY, not to watch him playing tennis...haha...however...maybe I might go to CZ AFTER the graduation.

I just hope that things will go fine! If not, I'll kill those silly birds for making me believe in things that weren't for real! @_@ :P



*

Slovak lingo composition: 92,6%
English description: 90%
English graduation test: 92,5%


The ORAL GRADS are coming. I'm freaking out....it's not like I've studied too much. @_@ WISH ME LUCK & MANY MORE BIRDS ON THE FENCE, PLEASE. ^_^

The Painstaking Path Of A Nerdess

Didf that sound pompous enough? Teheheeee.... I hope it did. :P
Reading it again, it sounds more WEIRD than POMPOUS, but.... Okay, I'm not prince William to speak perfect English, just my teeth are almost his size.

It all leads to one thing anyways - I am (un)pleased to announce that TODAY I've officially launched my newly-found schizo part of myself, that is, THE NERDESS.
*Yes, I also don't think such a word exists.*
I've managed to study for FULL THREE AND HALF HOURS during which I've learnt the mysteries of State, Democracy, Peoples and the blahblahs around it and then Neolit, Paleolit, Egypt, Mykena and Creta and its art, architecture and sculpture.
AWESOME.
UNBELIEVABLE...yet, POSSIBLE.
O_o *_*

I've never thought I'm able to study THAT much! OMB!!! O_O @_@
The nerdess path is gonna continue tomorrow and even fiercely than today, as today was just the warm-up.
Gosh, isn't it scary? :P Ain't *I* in particular scary?! @_@

I believe I am and as a true nerdess I'm now listening neither to Beyonce nor to Avril Lavigne but to a CLASSICAL RADIO via iTunes.

Oh. My. Poopness.

XD




Don't be scared though.... I assure you that the nanosecond after my graduation I will turn into my usual self and enjoy the art of procrastination yet again in its full glory.

It's sad but NOW, in my new Nerdess role, I can't procrastinate as much as my soul wishes to. T_T
True, today all that studying exhausted me as much as I was reading Potter 6 for most of the time after it but....again, today was JUST A WARM-UP. *shivers*



*


Period is bodoh. My complexion is awful, my small of the back hurts bluntly and I can't even go to power yoga because many of the asanas aren't recommended to women in *those days*. :( I've wasted 150Skk already, as I had booked and paid a power yoga class at the morning (8am ~ 9.30am) but I precisely remember waking up at 4.22am and finding out that I have a period.
Sigh.
Next time then...but not even tomorrow...maybe next week... TT___TT

I don't dare to go to yoga despite of the period because I believe that during those thousands of years of yoga's history the yoga masters surely must have found out what's beneficial and what's not for the body, right?!
Aiyah.
Then if they say this asana isn't good when you have the period, I shall not do it.

But I LOVE yoga! ^_^

It's so awesome....those gracious, slow movements we (desperately try) to do...the breathing in & out....the meditative music....those beautiful, balanced asanas...

My most fave ones are the ones where we stand on one leg and hold our hands either together as in a prayer or held out in that 'lotus flower' way or whatever it is called. ^^


*

Midnight liao. Eeehhh. I'm just sipping my Sweet Dreams tea & listening to the So 90's iTunes radio and feeling REALLY sleepy already. Got school tmr! UUUAAA!!!! TT___TT

Nite, nite. Love ya all. *kisses*












AMERIE'S "TAKE CONTROL" ROCKS DUCKS!!! ^_^ :D
I've heard Se7en was supposed to be in it but maybe our TVs aren't airing that version or what....sigh...!

Pink

I'm scaring myself with my sudden growing affinity to the color PINK.

Two days ago I bought dark pink-bordeaux-blackish sunglasses. Yesterday I bought a bright pink bra, it has that almost invisible powderish shade, but still, it's PINK. And today I bought a pink (in the scariest combo EVER with BABYBLUE) toothbrush!!!!!!!!!

*wails in horror*

I'm scared that one day I might end up like Xiaxue having everything...




OMD!!!!!!!
@_@
Wouldn't THAT be the biggest horror?! UHHHHHHHHH. @_@

Maybe it just means some subconscious need for love (as pink symbolizes romance, feminity & blahblah) but - I ask myself: WHAT LOVE?!
I'm enjoying my singlehood, okay?! I have Haku's love, that's the only one love I need and as I've understood that men (save for baibee & BYJ) are bodoh I don't need to trouble myself.

The other option is that...


...maybe I'm just becoming a REAL ah lian.
It had to come one day, it really had. =_=




Irrelevantly, I had a dream about PRINCE WILLIAM.

WAHAHAHAHAAA, no kidding! I think in the dream we were in bus or something and we became friends and all in all, the dream was as if I had smoked sa good old ganja before I closed my eyes. XD Amazing, it was SO real! :P





Hmmm. The beauty of my room is STILL intact. In fact, I've removed my curtains today because I felt (or lured myself to feel) that due to their filthiness they emit the bad yin qi and I cannot tahan that.
Somebody please SHOOT ME soon, okay?

Today I was even determining my Four Pillars (whatever it is) now I have a super beautiful Four Pillars chart with me being the "Yin Fire Snake" and etc. but I don't really understand what am I supposed to do with it. Like, ooops! XD

I've checked my ASTRONOMICAL WEIGHT today & this is what I've learnt:



Your astronomical birth is 3 (liang) 6 (chin).

Solar DOB: 17 Mar 1989
Lunar DOB: 10 Feb 1989

You will have a very busy schedule ahead, but this is good as you will be busy attaining great success in life! You enjoy excellent family affinity and they will bring you lots of prosperity luck. Lucky stars will always shine on you, helping you achieve all your wishes. Keep a wealth vase at home to enhance your wealth and prosperity luck further. And do not be afraid to be ambitious. You have a lot of potential based on your birth weight, which you can realize if you have the conviction and courage to do so.


Sounds good, I just hope it's TRUE! :D







I'm sooo sleepy today. Not even this FLUFFY PINK bathrobe I have on helps me to wake up! T_T @_@ Probably it's cuz of the grey skies outside and the sleepy chillout lounge music I'm listening to. Sigh. *yawns*

Time to try finding something nice to eat.... And maybe I'll just cook a plain, white rice, I love its aroma. ^^

FengShui-ing Around Da Room

Just as the title quacks, I've gotten yet another feng shui mood & I've almost compoopletely tided up my room, cleant up everythong that could be cleant up, threw out almost all useless stuffs AND - and this is an upgrade! :D - even drew a plan of my tiny room and determined which corners of the room are said to be full of the negative qi that can't be roused.

Sadly for me I HAD to rouse one negative qi corner, the Northeast one because I had a mirror there and according to FS, the mirror doubles the qi. In my case it was doubling the negative qi (if we assume that we believe in all these qi quackings) and that really is NOT good at all! @_@

Right now there are two candles lightning up my room. One of them is in a LOTUS shape, now, could you find anything more......feng shui-y? O_o :P
Cantik. ^_^ Me likes! :D

I think I'm getting paranoid cuz of the upcoming graduation and therefore I wanna make sure that EVERYTHING is perfect with me & around me.
(I'm even planning to wear RED TOP & UNDIES on the grad that will bring me luck. In fact, I've realized that whenever we have a difficult test, I tend to wear red. Seems like I'm kinda superstitious. Uhhh. =_=)

Sadly, Snakes (me) are the compooplete opposites of Pigs (this year is the Year Of Pig) and that means that in general this won't be a good year...and that adds up to my pre-grad paranoia. :P

If you catch me buying some esotheric qi-enhancing golden whatever next time, STOP ME!!!! @_@ It means I've gone seriusly GILA and I need just few tight slaps. -_- :D :D



Hmmm, there might be something true about these qi things because immidiatelly after tiding it up here I feel much much better. ^^

It's miraculous - THERE IS NO DUST ON THE FLOOR!!!!! *faints*

Such things rarely happen to me. :P



Eeeeh. It's full moon. Know what that means? That I won't be able to fall asleep!!!! T___T I'm weirdly sensitive to these full moons and I don't sleep well when it's so. I'm not a werewolf (WEREDUCK???? That's more likely :D) though, don't you be scared! :P :D




Feng Shui.
Feng Shui.
Feng Shui.

I like it......at least for the fact that it keeps me tiding up my room. :P

In case you get inspired by me & FS your room too, then WATCH OUT FOR THE WEST, NORTHWEST & NORTHEAST!!!! *waggles feather*
The negative qi (some 'bad stars' or whatever) are said to be there in 2007 and the less you disturb them, the better. In case you NEED to disturb them, at least don't disturb them as the first ones - you better start in another corners of your room.


Now, am I educated or not? :D

HAHA!!!! :P





Uh, now it quacked me. MY BED IS ON THE WEST!!!! @_@

*Borat voice* Nice, nice, niiiiiice.....NOOOT!!!!!!
What do I do? Sleep badly until 2008???? -_-


*inner voice*
Ducky Princess, PLEASE. -_- Wake up lah. Don't take FS THAT seriously....it only has 5000 years worth of history! :P






Okay. Off I go to take my freshly showered plants (new yang qi), put them in my room, then I'll freshly shower myself, set the alarm clock (6.25am T_T) and go sleep to my negative qi corner. Sigh. Hahaha. :D

GOOD NIGHT!!!! ^_^


(And, btw, YANG qi is the good one and YIN qi is the bad one and they must be in harmony. I'm so clever. And check out www.wofs.com) :D

What Are The Odds...

...of Doggy living on a street to where I went with Haku for a walk twice 2 days ago AND I was standing in front of Doggy's house, not suspecting anything, for good 5 mins cuz Haku was strangely attracted to it? I see the beginning of this street from my window, btw.

...of learning from Doggy himself that me & him went to the same primary school & were taught by the same teacher?


My life is just SO absurd. :D ^^;;;;


I must do something about this..... I think I do want him, maybe I'm attracted to him cuz he's so diligent & hard-working and introverted....sounds like my opposite, hahaha...! Either way, he's a nice guy, although he's strangely paranoid about people knowing where he lives. :P Maybe it's cuz of his famous father who won the men's singles Gold Medal at the Olympics 1988?

He should be thankful that I'm no tennis freak! If this case was my case, he would be afraid of his life. XD


Please, even if you know whom I'm talking about, don't say his name aloud here! @_@


Anyways, what's new?
We're writing written graduations now. Yesterday was the mother tongue essay, today was nothing and tomorrow will be English. It's annoying...especially the fact that I MUST be there at 7.45am and I MUSTN'T be late!!!! If I'm late, they won't allow me to enter the class and I'll have to write it later. Pain in the ass. @_@

Well, what else?
I have an event to attend as hostess on Sunday. I'm looking forward to it cuz a little financial injection is exactly what I need now. Then I can pay up the framers' and finally give my cousin the aquarel. Whoops, I'm more than one month late, ain't that kool. -_- :P


Today I went to the fitness to take with the schedules and prices. It's kool! On Saturday evening they offer one hour long Body Dance, during the week they offer Body Complet, Fitball and etc.! ^^
I'm feeling like the laziest glutton ever and I can't stand it anymore. As soon as my cold is gone, I'll go exercise and move my fat ass around. :)


Alright! I'm going to make one poster now cuz I have a kool tennis (haha, yes) idea in my mind. :)

The Super Shocking Saturday Continues

In my previous entry I've quacked about how weird life had been in Saturday and how many shocking things had I gotten to known then.

Whew, this was a difficult grammar and I'm SURE it's all wrong!



Now, sit down.

Pom called me two times, once on March 17, then on March 18, both in weird and very late times. I thought he wanted to congratulate me but as he had been calling in such stupid times, I SMSed him, saying that next time he calls me, he'd better check out the local time here cuz I actually also need some sleep.

Yesterday at 1.11am (I remember it precisely) I woke up on the annoying sound of my cellphone announcing an SMS.
I got up, took my mobile phone and with very sleepy eyes opened it. And to my utter horror, I read:

"Mich, u know why I wasted ur bedtime n woku u up, my mom is dead, she died last saturday night, i've nobody, God is not fair he took my family T_T"







O_O @_@
I still can't get over this. And then, poor Pom! If *I* can't get over this, what about HIM?! Fuck, I so wanna be with him but I can't. T_T

What's with this year?! O_o
Everything is so sad & weird. Like my Bruneian friend's possible diagnosis or like Pom's loss.
Everything is also so happy & weird. Like Peng coming back or me getting to know one crunchy yummy guy whom I call Doggy cuz he looks like a cute Golden Retriever puppy. ^^

About this later, thought.

















A MINUTE OF SILENCE FOR POM'S MOM!!!!!! T___T
I'm sooo sorry, dear Pom. T_T

The Super Shocking Saturday

I have to have my mud mask on for 20 mins and because it's over 12.30am, I shall write quackly cuz I AM TIRED.
There were many amazing and absurd things happening during this weekend, but I'd like to highlight the Saturday.

I've gotten to know three shocking things.

The first one - my friend quit her Fashion Design course and she's going for Tourism instead. O_o WOW! That was a BIG shock for me, cuz before she sooo wanted to do this FD!

The second one - MY FRIEND MIGHT HAVE THE BRAIN TUMOR. I'm so fucking scared of her. I'm as 'religious' as my mousepad but I am SO GONNA PRAY FOR HER. @_@ I'm so scared!!!!!! Oh godness.

SHE MUST BE HEALTHY.
SHE MUST BE HEALTHY.
SHE MUST BE HEALTHY.

It's enough that she had to break up with her long-term bf because of religion and everything.....I can't imagine that pain and vacuum she must be feeling now!
Well! NO! That obviously wasn't enough! GAH!!!
*THIS* danger of having the tumor had to come as well. God, if you exist, then I'd like to kick your ass. AARGHHHH!!! I'm so angry cuz I'm so desperate! I can't help her, I can only cuss and try to lift her mood. Aiyaaah. T__T

Please, PRAY WITH ME FOR HER HEALTH.

I know you don't even know her, but WTD, you can pray anyways, it's nice to be good at least once a year, isn't it?



Well, and the third thing. That was damn WEIRD! O_O

Remember the Taiwanese Peng (pseudonym), the asshole guy and before one of my best friends ever?
Well, I lost the contact with him like six years ago or so because of him. He chose to ignore me and after few desperate attempts for contact from my side I lost my patience (I have some pride too), told him that he's an asshole and I don't wanna talk to him anymore cuz he's not worth it.
He, then emailed me something along the lines of a deep apology but I was still pissed off and ignored it.

Korean drama, I know. :P

Well, since then I hadn't thought about him at all, save from YESTERDAY. Yesterday was the first time my thoughts drifted to Peng after like six years and I silently asked myself how had he been and how weird it is that he's not in my life anymore....

It felt weird cuz I felt really sorry for all this happening. I liked him a lot, you know! He was like a brother to me!

OK, so, after that I logged into MSN and quacked a bit with Manis and Teresa and all my duckies......AND THEN~!

I got an instant message.

From Peng.

He remembered my bday all that time. And I remembered his, by the way (that's VERY rare, I never remember dates!).
He asked me if I'm STILL so angry at him, he said he felt horribly sorry for being such an ass, he said he regretted it million times and that he missed me all the time.

I was shocked. O_o

He then said he realized that I was a beautiful part of his life and by losing me, he felt like something is missing.

See? We were REALLY great friends, really, almost like siblings. ^^

WTD!!!! O_o
I lost all my ability to speak and then virtually squealed:

"OMG!!!!! PENG!!!!!!!!! HOW HAVE YOU BEEN?????? I'm so shocked!!!!!"

We've talked. And it felt so warm and fuzzy like...like an old friend coming back. ^^ Only now I've realized that I DID miss him, even though, just subconsciously.

Isn't life just AMAZING? ^___^
I don't think about a certain person for six years, then ONE DAY I think about him wondering how is he doing AND 20 mins after that HE ACTUALLY CONTACTS ME.
O_o



Please, duckies, don't tell me that there's no DESTINY. :D

I'm so happy! :D
And sad as well. u_u
Please, pray for my friend. I love her so much and she had gone through so many hard times......this just CAN'T be happening to her! T__T
Hey, Allah! Don't be so cruel to her, she loves You so much!!!!!! T_T