K-Drama Must Go On!

Me & R are very messy people & totally unpredictable ducks cuz we've decided on another chance again. Man, I've thrown out & removed all the photos liao! @_@ Eh. Too bad. All what's left are Malaysia pics on CDs & one (!) pic of us two on my MSN. Well and some pics at PhotoBucket.
Aiyah, alright.
A NEW START.
I hope that this will go well & I swear that I'll try not to be too sarcastic cuz my boyfriend takes things too personally & he can't bear it well. *evil giggle*

Anyways, anyways.

How was your Easter? ^^
Mine was great, I was in Piestany with K & UE and we had a POOPY GOOD time. Heee~~ In overall we were doing nothing, eating, sleeping & playing cards. PURE LAZINESS. Beautiful.

Few days ago we (me & parents) were at one trip and I took pictures and...my mother is persuading me to send one pic to certain CZ National Geographic photography contest.

Here is the pic:
It looks better in all its 3.1 megapixel beauty of course & in overall it's kinda nice...

...But is it good enough for NG contest????

I don't think it is. =_=

Oh well, but maybe I'll send it there. Just for the fun. :P

I'll write more & post more pics later, now I'm lazy to...sorry!





Listening to: "In The Name Of Father" by Jay Chou
Yay!: SPRING IS HERE! K-drama goes on! No school even tmr!
Grrr: My teeth are yellow like shit. Aaarrgghhhh.
TASKS: Change the hibiscus' soil finally. If there's a soil left, change the yucca's soil as well. Oh yes & tmr go buy thongs! :P Re-discover the miracle called "shower" & "toothbrush". x_x

Our K-Drama

*ahem*
Because typical Korean dramas are supposed to end up happily, me & Ray decided on not considering this as a definite break up, only as a time off. In one month, exactly at Sunday May 14th we'll meet at MSN and talk again.
We've been SMSing each other and it seems like we don't lack care or love - we're just really tired of each other for now, or better, we're tired of having a more or less MSN-relationship.

No wonder. Imagine yourself being in an 11 months relationship. Sounds beautiful, right? ^^
But now imagine that from those 11 months you spend only THREE (3) MONTHS together!!!!! Isn't that like 27%? Aaarrgghhhh!!!! 3/11! *fumes*

Oh my, 27%. =_= Like my usual grade from Physics. Hmpf. Bwahaha.

I was crying all night long, I had red eyes like albino bunny, headache, even fever (!), I felt cold & hot and cuz I drank the delicious jasmine tea before, I went to pee every 2 seconds.
OMG, if you saw me, you'd run away as soon as possible. @_@ :P

Now I feel way better. ^^
I can't imagine running to R's skinny arms in this second but I can imagine it later. I know, "move on" you say, but what can I do when he means a lot to me? Hm? O.o
His art of pissing me off is really impressive, I must admit, but at least I can practice patience. *evil laughter*

One month.
Seems so far away! O_O +_+
Far away or no, we need it to sort out thoughts. Ray says he just want us to tolerate each other like before. Eh man, I know we lack it. x_x I'm too demanding to other people and not to myself & he's taking things too personally and we both are too immature. Sounds dangerous but it can be handled.

Thank you million bulus hubooby, ducky sis, Ilkka, Pom, Pui, cuzin & K for making me feel better. ^^
THANK YOU.
Without you I'd still look like an albino bunny & feel like dying.
Especially hubooby & ducky sis Nisah deserve my deepest berbulu glittery ducky cocobra-ish thanks - TERIMA POOPSIH MY DEAR SAYANGS FOR ALL THE LISTENING & FOR ALL THE HELP!!!!! ^____^ Without you I'd be a LOST GILA DUCK.


Let's see how will our K-drama continue.
I hope it ends like it ended in Mulan II - that was so lovely! :D The problem was that Li Shang & Mulan were completely different - just like yin yang. They had a huge conflict & almost broke up there but it all ended happily anyways.
Oh man, those are fairy tales but I'm a Korean drama heroine so I deserve a happyend. Mwahah. ^.~


Listening to: "Aku Cinta Padamu" by Siti Nurhaliza
Yay!: I'm VERY happy that me & Ray are talking. I was really so much afraid that he'd erase me from his memory & disappear from my life. Even typing it here makes me feel like having something heavy on my heart (like a huge Hell-No Kitty ribbon from Fe!). If it happened, I'd probably turned gila! @_# Ray, Ray, let's just slap each other & we'll be okay.
Grrr: Hm, nothing is too grrr....well, this time off is of course...but in the same time it's good. Today I heard the dudes who take care of dustbins taking away what was in the dustbin... That means all what I threw there yesterday. All letters, packages, photos. Man, so sad. But we can start anew!
BY THE WAY: I'm off to Piestany until Monday with K & UE. I won't be online nor blabbing here but you can always reach me by SMS. ^^ Take care my duckies, I must go pack now.
And WISH LUCK TO ME & RAY!!!!!!

Sail Away From Each Other

Once upon a time we had a lot to fight for
We had a dream,we had a plan
Sparks in the air we spread a lot of envie
Didn't have to care once upon a time

Remember when I swore
That love was never ending
That you and I would never die
Remember when I swore
We had it all
We had it all

Sail away, it's time to leave
Rainy days, are yours to keep
Fade away, the night is calling my name
You will stay, I'll sail away

Once upon a time we used to burn candles
We had a place to call a home
The dream that we lived
was better than divine
Everyday was like a gift
Once upon a time

Remember when you swore
Your love was never ending
That you and I would never die
Remember when you swore
We had it all
We'd never fall

Sail away, it's time to leave
Rainy days, are yours to keep
Fade away, twilights calling my name
You will stay, I'll sail away

No reason to lie
No need to pretend
I'm gratefull to die
To live once again
I'm fearless to fly
And reach for the end
And reach for the end
ohhohhhohhhohhh...

Sail away

Sail away, it's time to leave
Rainy days, are yours to keep
Fade away, the night is calling my name
You will stay, I'll sail away

Sail away
The night is calling my name
Sail away


It's over with us..
Now we shall go separate ways and if we meet one day...let it be. Be happy, Raymond. This is probably the last time I'm typing your name, the last day when we chatted, the last day of me hearing your voice & you hearing mine... It was beautiful with you & I'm thankful for everything you've ever done for me..I won't try to erase you from my memory - I'll let it all fade away by itself.

I've ripped all the photos already, collected the letters and packages and threw it away.
Now all what's left is to give away the CD, the t-shirt, the hoody, the necklace, the bracelet, the hairpin, the book and the fluffy notebook..
I won't sell it - it's like selling our past love for money, you know?
In your memory I'll give out the things to the poor & needy.
Photos in my mobile phone are already deleted. It was painful, every photo I wanted to delete I had to see first.... Our happy faces... You sleeping... You kissing my cheek...

It disappoints me that after today you wish not to contact me anymore. It saddens me that you wish not to keep me in your MSN... I'll keep you..and one day when you feel like coming to me & talking as a friend, I'll welcome you with opened arms.

I know we no longer loved each other and this will relieve us greatly. It's still sad to break up... We've shared lifes for 11 months and I remember the early stages of our relationship - it was beautiful, lovely, romantic, shy...it was something I wish you experience again with someone else, someone better than me, someone who deserves your love & care.

Writing out all this really helps me...this is the purpose of a blog...it's like a therapy for me. I write out my heart & hopefully get some feedback from friends.

I wonder if I have to delete the link for the Mich-Ray blog?
Oh, what a long time ago it was when we're setting it up....we weren't a couple then, I was still with Pom and at that times you've asked me whether I'd want to get my 1st kiss from a boyfriend or from someone else than him.
I answered "from my boyfriend of course" and you then revealed your feelings to me... You see? I still remember it as if it was yesterday.

I know you're not reading this entry, I know you don't want to recall my name anymore. It's wise although bitter.

You said I should consider all our relationship just as a bittersweet dream...but you know what? I can't do that. I've learnt many things from you and I hope that you've learnt something from me as well. The times with you were priceless... In Malaysia I felt like home..I felt free, happy, beautiful, perfect...I was in love and I was crazily happy.
That all was thanks to you. Without you I wouldn't have experienced such - so let me thank you for that..

You was my first real boyfriend. The 1st guy who has ever kissed me. The 1st guy who has ever hugged me. The 1st guy who has ever held my hand.
You know how I felt when you held my hand for the 1st time? Like in a crazy dream. I was telling myself - "Oh my god...he's holding my hand! He! This Ray! This Ray I've known thru the net!"

All this joy is past. The past we had in Malaysia & few months after that. It's no longer like that...no longer the happiness.
A long time ago it got screwed up...and who knows why...
I feel like blaming myself for I know I've changed. The other part of me is saying that it's not just my mistake, that you have a part in it too..

No matter. We're over & a long time ago was over our love.
However, I still care for you. I want the best for you... I don't deny you still have a place in my heart - as a friend I hope. One-sided friendship? Sounds pathetic.

Forget all girls, forget me, forget all the pain..
Move on with your life & be happy.
I want you to smile, I want you to do well in school, go study to the UK...I want you to hang out with friends often, finish your school with As and get a well-paid job so you can make all your dreams come true.
Practice guitar and get better....maybe one day I'll see you in a music magazine & I'll know it's you and I'll be proud of you..

Take a break from all the women and one day find someone who'll love you more than I did, more than anyone...find someone who'll love you forever, care for you, always be by your side & never...NEVER leave you.
I wonder who'll be the lucky one.
Tell me then, okay? I'd love to see your wedding then - be it in 15 years from now, no matter! I'd love to see you smiling & in love with a beautiful bride by your side...a future mom of your children and a woman of your life.

Thank you for everything you've ever done for me..
Thank you for being in my life..
Thank you for letting me experience all what I did..
Thank you for all the kisses, hugs, cuddling, touches, caressing..
Thank you for loving me..
Thank you for all the gifts, for all the money you've spent at me even despite not having enuff for yourself..
Thank you for encouraging me & supporting me all the way..

THANK YOU.
Let's meet one day and smile together at our past love.. I wonder if we aren't supposed to be together later one day - who knows.
As I promised, I'll ring you up when I'm in KL one day. Come with your girlfiend then, alright?

GOODBYE, NOT FAREWELL, RAY.
I hope we will meet one day again.
TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF & BE HAPPY!











*sigh*

An entry dedicated ONLY & ONLY to C. J., the man who deserves my love forever!

Although I'm in the middle of a very serious chat with my boyfriend, I can't ignore the humble & lovely C. J. who left fascinatingly polite comments on the TagBoard.

C.J: A Sparkling Duck WHAT THE 1*beep*2!! You really sound stupid like you look!!

C.J: Cabreras like u. Get a life dyke. You must need a guy like me. I guess ugly girls like u need luv 2

C.J: Hey Mich..Your a paki.. You should have never disrespected the name of my site

Thank you C. J.
You're the man I've ALWAYS ALWAYS dreamt about! Since the day I was born, I knew that an ugly stupid girl needs someone AWESOME...like you.

You're the light of my night.
You're the sunshine of my cloudy evenings.
You're the prince of my kingdom of love.

You're the fart of my unwashed ass.
You're the sweat from my grandma's armpit.
You're the saliva of my cuzin's dog Balu.

You're the man I'd love to have, love, hug, kiss, sleep with, marry...

...ONLY IF I WAS SO FUCKING DESPERATE FOR LOSERS LIKE YOU!!!

Please, if you so can't stand me & my dear friend Ilkka, just DO NOT CLICK AT URL http://sparklingduckling.blogspot.com & http://duckz.blogdrive.com. Thankyouverymuch.

Dear fart of my unwashed ass:

Next time just don't go to blogs of people you don't like.
Next time don't think that we all are IN AWE when seeing your blog. I'm not going to critisize it now, anyone who hops there sees that it's... *ahem ahem*.
Stop being TOO self-confident. We see that you're a loser, we see it even despite your bragging on how gorgeous you are.

Moreover, stop being confusing!
See, you make no sense:

You say that I'm ugly and stupid. But as we all *know*, you're hot, gorgeous & the best man ever. Such men need beauties like Beyonce or Amerie, or no?
Apparently NO.
You say that even ugly girls like me need love. You say that I *MUST* need a guy like you. You're being rude to me.

In kindergartens when boys like girls, they pull their hair, slap them, tell them that they're stupid & fight with them.

Maybe you're on a mental level of boys in kindergarten. Why would you tell me that I'm stupid & ugly and go see my blog and comment rude things there if you didn't like me? HM?

I think I have a point in this, don't I?
In case you're a homosexual then you can't like me & it can mean only that you're a rude dickhead.
In case you're a heterosexual, I deduce that you like me, you're on a mental level of a 4 yrs old boy & you're a loser.

Either way, stop disturbing mine & Ilkka's peace. Thankyouverymuchagain.

Asian food is sent to mortals from hot Asian gods.

I had a super yummy Japanese fish soup with seaweed yesterday & the jiao-zi fried dumplings with minced meat. It was HEAVENLY! ^____^ *drools*
The Asian Restaurant in Aupark is expensive (one stupid stir-fried Chinese cabbage & mushrooms - 286Skk!!!) but the meals are oh so delicious.... *melts*

I love Asian soups and yesterday I was deciding between Miso shiru, Thai chicken soup with coconut milk & this Japanese fish soup. Man. Such a dilemma. O_O :P

ASIAN SOUPS. AAaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~ *o* ^.^v

Please, please, my future husband (if I ever have one), be able to cook, okie?? My love for you will increase with each Asian meal you cook for me. ^_~ Unless you treat me like a shit of course, then no meal will help you, not even fresh prawn dim sum & bubble tea as breakfast to bed. <--- Oh!!!! ME WANNA!!!! *o*
That Phy test yesterday.....OMP. #_@ That was interesting! I think I'll be happy if I get 4 (D) cuz at first after finishing it I felt like it's relatively OK but then I've remembered some things....and I've found MANY MANY MANY mistakes. Bleh. =_=

Btw! I've decided that I'll buy 2 (+2?) matching thongs & send 1(2) to hubooby!!!! XD We'll have MATCHING THONGS!!!! So sexyyyyy~~~ *quacks & shakes ducky berbulu butt* Wahahaha!!! Maybe next week I'm off to Obchodna street to check out some thongs. THONGS R FUN. XD


Oh duckies, Easter is coming, so - HAPPY EASTER!!!! ^_____^
If I weren't such lazy ass, I would tell you how we celebrate it. It's quite nice & rather freaky but well, it's nice I think. But...I'm lazy, I'll just tell you to check it out HERE. ^^;;;


Irrelevantly.. I bought the delicious Chinese jasmine green tea & Japanese Genmaicha yesterday... I tell you, there's nothing better than a good tea. Except of delicious FOOD of course, hahah. :P

You see, how SIMPLE am I???????? *slaps head*
Mentally I'm on a level of Homo neanderthalensis. All I want is a good food & good drinks and a cave - in my case, a bungalow on a Thai seashore OR a nice apartment in some kool Asian city.
Oh & a fur to cover my nanoboobs with - that is, a nice clothing. *rolls eyes*
Okay, I need LOVE & a certain intellectual stimulation (sounds so silly) too what can be for example books or art & etc.

But still, I'M THE LAST DAUGHTER OF THE LAST HOMO NEANDERTHALENSIS! *scratches furry ass*


Man, this entry has no head, no tail. =_= If you've gotten here (sane or insane), then I should send you a bouquet of orchids. Congratz! O_o


Listening to: "Love Love" by โฟร์+มด. Ohmygod, it's so stupid. XD *slaps head* Before this I was listening to "คนเคยเจ็บ" by one kinda good looking dude called อาหรั่ง. Not that I have any idea of what he was singing about but he is quite cute. ^.^
Yay!: I'm going at some concert of Kika & her choi today. I'll be making make up for Kika & for myself too - whohooooo~~~ And finally I can wear those high heels! YEAH! :D
Grrr: My skin is awful. =_= Tolong. Our rship is rather.... *ahem*. ._.
DON'T FORGET: Many things!!!!

• Clean up Pikachu's cage!!!!!!!
• Give Kika that maths stuff from grandma
• See whether we have enuff ingredients for the easy Thai recipe. I even bought jasmine rice for that so I *should* cook it!
• Go buy new soil to the flowershop - optional~
• Draw, paint, draw, paint, draw, paint.
  

Random Quack No. 78455

A horribly boring entry!!!! Actually instead of PROCRASTINATING like this I should've been STUDYING Physics & English but I can't seem to drag my fat ass to do that. Kill me.


It's over 11pm.
*ahem* I still haven't studied that Phy nor checked out that maturita Eng. =_= Mark my words, I'll end up HORRIBLY tmr.
HORRIBLY.

I'd better run away to Laos now, while I can. There I'll marry a poor handsome loving Laotian fisherman & we'll live happily ever after in a little house in Muang Vangviang with one shaggy dog and 4 children and we'll eat DELICIOUS FRESH FISH my hubby will get us everyday. Yum yum! Hahah!

Wah, I'm so lame & idiotic. *rolls eyes*

Sorry my future 5 husbands (sayang Ray, personal cook Pom, Bae Yong Joon, Choi Dong Wook & eternal muse Sachi) for making you jealous & heartbroken. I love you all eternally, I really do. XD

My mother told me today that I look like from a Korean drama. Hahaha!!! Amazing. ^^ Imagine tight blue boot cut jeans (they weren't tight when I was buying em! *grrr*), white moccasins with those sparkling faux 'brilliants', grass green tank top, purple cardigan, green headband (29Skk, Made In China!!! Haha~) and a high ponytail. Oh and I had a really fine dark green link on my upper eyelid + the obligatory mascara.
K-drama? Can be...but where's my Kang Joon Sang??? *sniff*

Far away in Malaysia he is. Grrrrrrrr.


11.18pm. MÉRDE!!!! O_O
HOW, I repeat, HOW can I learn that Physics & English?! HOW?!? *dies* No way for me to do it. I'm one irresponsible asshole who deserves to die. Aaaarrrgggghhhhhh. Grrrrrrr!!!

Better go & pretend some studying and not blab crap here. No one reads it anyways! Hah!


Listening to: "วันที่ฉันป่วย" by Armchair. Since I've decided on my ultimate materialistic goal - that is, having a bungalow on a Thai seashore - I'm often listening to Thai music. It makes me feel like I'm already at my bungalow's patio sipping honey lemongrass drink. Wahaha, so PATHETIC!!!! *slap slap*
Yay!: Ahem. Yay to......hmm, what? Maybe new Avene cream? :P
Grrr: Grrrrrrrrrr to meeeeeeeee. I SUCK DUCK!!!!!!!!! Tmr I'll end up HORRIBLY & IT. IS. JUST. MY OWN. MISTAKE!!!!!!
DON'T FORGET TO: Ask husband & cook No. 2 whether he had bought the Armchair's CD already or no. As I know him, he surely hasn't. Must kill him also but before that he must make his hair wavy. *evil laughter*

Physics is my enemy...

...so I'll die cuz we'll write the test TMR. The prof was mercilous & agreed on not giving us the test today (as planned) but tmr. Not that it makes any difference, I'm gonna fail it anyways. =_=

I'm just now listening to THE STUPIDEST SONG EVER CREATED on Earth! Haha! Thanks Pui for letting me see the video for it which was also rather stupid with these 2 kawaii Thai girls in kawaii tank tops & fluffy lacey skirts & a dude wearing a pink T-shirt and all...haha!

See here if you feel insane enuff. ^^ That's โฟร์+มด with "Love Love" and don't ask me what the Thai thing means cuz I really have idea. :P And know what? It's GREAT in its stupidity. XD I love it cuz its so stupid. XD

Hmmm well. Not that it's much to say... Spring is here...and inspired by the spring beauty outside, I'm painting spring too...my oil on canvas is almost finished. ^^ My art prof said that the colors I used are beautiful & it has a very nice athmosphere! ^__^ *looks around proudly*
I'll post pics of it once I'm done with it. ^^

Oh well. Got many things to do for tmr....shit shit. =_=

Yay!: Me got a new pretty metallic belt. ^_^ Wahooooo~~~ Oh yes & had a nice sweet & sour chicken at Fong's.
Grrr: Fucking bitch at Eng, fuck off!!! *takes out Kalashnikov & shoots her* Phy tmr...just kill me. =_=
DON'T FORGET: Phy test. Eng assignment abt primary schools in SVK. Eng oral presenation abt those maturita stuffs from maturita book. WTF. *dies*

Sssssshhhhiiiittttt

No Bangkok my dearest duckies. It costs like 90, 000Skk for 4 weeks!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!

*jumps off a cliff & waves farewell with Thai flag*




How sad is this? *sniff sniff sniff*

I must find MORE volunteer programs in Thailand & preferrably in Bkk or Pattaya or just not on the North cuz how can I meet with mah wavy haired hiphop boy then?? And with mah wavy haired bedminton boy?! Chiang Mai is too far away from wavy hair.

(Oh! I'm still forgetting TWO things: a) Pom's hair is straight now AND b) I said I won't make fun of him anymore!!!)


But..but...I wanna go! T_T The country where my future bungalow lies!!! Aaaaaahhhhh!!!! *cries heavily* Haha well, actually it's not like we would die of poverty if I went to Bkk & it would cost us 90k Skk - it's just that if I go to Thailand in summer, we won't go to Thailand in winter!

Hahaha!
WTF. Let's compare it:

SUMMER THAILAND:

- hang out with Pom & Phong quite often cuz I'll have evenings & weekends free (that is, if they don't run away in horror when seeing me)
- learn a bit of freaky Thai lingo
- free Thai food (oh, yum~ *sips tomyum & her body burns down to the ashes from all da chilli* XD)
- free accomodation
- free calls within Thailand
- the above things are not free considering the 90,000 Skk which has to be paid
- finally I'll do something good & meaningful like teach little kawaii Thai girls that if their future husband slaps them once, they must leave him & kick his ass and balls and make dog food outta his body
- possibly can visit some beaches, unless I'm somewhere up north around Chiang Mai
- new experiences
- me will be ALONE! Yeeey!!! :D
- my parents will again be stuck in SVK while I'll be enjoying myself somewhere 10k km away from them in a country where ppl share the same passion for food as I do =_=

WINTER THAILAND:

- visit Chantaburi with all its gem markets, waterfalls & etc.
- visit Pom & Pui who both live in Chantaburi
- meet with Pom, Pui & Phong and maybe even with Gib (I LOVE Thai nicknames! Haha!)
- less time with them...or none, in case they all run away in horror when seeing me!
- 100% get beautiful beaches at Koh Chang & nearby islands *hearts in eyes*
- visit Bkk too
- yummy Thai food paid by parents
- beach lil' bungalow accomodation/hotel resort
- more money for shopping!
- also new experiences
- maybe can go to Cambodia (via organized tour of course) = one more country to see!
- escape the fucking cold snowy Slovak winter and ENJOY THE HOTNESS IN THAILAND!
- celebrate Xmas in Thailand - and how kool is that?! Waaahhh~~~ *_* ^__^
- still maybe can learn a bit of freaky Thai lingo - if I annoy Pom enuff haha (poor him! @_@)


That winter Thailand looks better esp. cuz of those BEACHES DURING THE COLD SLOVAK WINTER.
Aiyah. Can't I just move there? >_> Or to Malaysia? >_> That'd be better! *mumbles*


OK, OK, I'll stop blabbing, this entry had no head no tail.


Listening to: "ตกลงเราเป็นอะไรกัน" by Gear Knight. I swear I don't understand ANY SINGLE THING. XD
Yay!: Linda is coming over tmr. We'll go for an unhealthy delicious cake! Yay! :D
Grrr: Why don't I have a golden credit card so I can travel both to Bkk in summer & to Koh Chang in the winter? u_u
DON'T FORGET: UUUUhhhhhHHhhhhh, Physics test TOMMORROW!!!!!! Just kill me, just kill me. =_=

Volunteering ideas ^^

Many links in this mindless entry. You've been warned!

My oppa has bday today! :D Wahooooooo~~~~
He's so old, 32 yrs, oh, someone buy him an anti-aging facial cream. *evil laughter*

So!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JONG MOON OPPA!!!!
^____^
Be happy always...and come back to SVK someday again!
*huugggeeee bday hugs*
Miss ya, man!

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I was thinking of volunteering somewhere in Southeast Asia (prefferably in Thailand or Cambodia) in the summer but I can SIAL OFF. The minimum age for all the programs is 18 years & I'm 17. =_= >_<

The Elephant Mahout Project by Pattaya looked so FASCINATING.
The English teaching is kool too!
Another volunteer program in Thailand looked really great & trustworthy.
This also wasn't bad.

But.....oh!

OHMYBERBULUPOOPNESS!!!!! *hearts in eyes & watering mouth*

The Cross-Cultural Solutions offer a volunteer program in BANGKOK even for 17 yrs old ppl as long as they fill out this application!
^______________________^
BANGKOK!!!!!
Aaaaaahhhhh!!!!!
BANGKOK, geddit???!!!???

You know HOW KOOL would it be to be in BANGKOK?!?! *tears of joy*
Ahem, after watching Ong-Bak I was telling myself that if Bkk is that dangerous, I'll never step my foot there but I'm sure it's not so.... *glittery hearts in eyes*

As the evenings & weekends are FREE I could hang out with itiks gila Pom & Phong around and go to beaches, Chantaburi, shops (important!), markets, cook (Pom can cook - he must teach me a bit or I die of sadness), restaurants, parks, ANYTHING.

WTF.
I must apply for that. *_* I've just printed out the special application for under-18-ppl & I'll email them there & etc.
It costs quite a lot..or maybe no..well, I dunno but I think I'll enrol. ^^

Then, in case I get accepted, I'll fly to Bkk & get lost the very second after my arrival & horrible perv Japanese 50 yrs old pervs will kidnap me cuz I'm an exotic young sweet beautiful virgin farang and they'll abuse me sexually until Pom comes to rescue me & he'll do that in a very special way, that is, he'll make his hair wavy again & they'll all look at him in wonder and run away laughing their perv asses off.
HA! XD

You see it's good. As long as Pom has WAVES, I'm safe. XD *laughs evily till she dies*
(Oh poor boy, I won't make fun of him anymore, I'm too cruel. But sadly, it's MY HOBBY to make fun of him. He must kill me. XD)

Volunteering in Bangkok....MMMMMmmmmmmMMMmmm..... ^__^

See:

"Volunteers and interns in Bangkok, Thailand, are involved with caring for infants and children, teaching children, teaching English, assisting teachers, sharing their professional skills/experience, caring for the elderly, observing and assisting local medical professionals, caring for people with disabilities, working with people affected by HIV/AIDS, and assisting teachers of special education."

Fucking kool. I like that "teaching children" and "teaching English" stuffs and also the "assisting local medical professionals" (as we know, I love medicine & pharmacy). ^^
Maybe I could learn a bit of Thai too while I'm there. So I'll know more than those 15 words (or less) that I know now. :D That lingo is as freaky as not knowing it is a crime. XD :D ^^

Waaaaaahhhhhhhhhh.
I'm EXCITED. *____*
*dances samba cheerfully*

Ilkka, Ilkka baibee, aren't you going with me? ^_^ It's gonna be fun! Ask your parents, PWWWEEEAAASSSSEEEEEEE!!!!! *puppy dog eyes* ^___^

Now I must quack away & tell my mother abt that. It's FASCINATING & I WANNA GO THERE. I wanna & must. I must & wanna. ^^



Listening to: "Heart, Mind & Soul" in Japanese by TVXQ. I like songs in Korean more but this one is nice even in Japanese. Thanks, Justine! ^^
Yay!: Yay to the GREAT TRIP my parents, me & Haku went on today... I've discovered a new kool path & it was really perfect. ^^ And of course HUGE yay to that Bkk thing. OMP, if I don't get accepted, I'll die of sadness!
Grrr: As usually when I was offline, Pom was online. Eeehh... =_=

Boyfriend & Girlfriend

Me & Ray decided on ANOTHER CHANCE.
I dunno how will this rship continue but for now it's relatively good... I just hope that what we said weren't just empty words which won't turn true. We shall see.

Boyfriend & Girlfriend.

Will the love be the same or different? .......... Different for sure, things do affect us. It's still awkward to talk normally.

Oh & of course....

HAPPY DUCKY QUACKY FEATHERY BIRTHDAY DEAREST DUCKY SISTA NISAH!!!!!!!
^_____^
Lots of love, happiness, shiny feathers, great experiences, dreams coming true & lotsa lotsa yummy food!!!! :D
SAYA CINTA KAMU!!!
^__^
*hugs*

I have no gift, I'm really sorry! I wanted to buy something but then I realized that I don't have your address. u_u *sniff*
Next time! ^^ Or this time! Just gimme your addy my lovely ducky sis! ^^ Thaaanks!!! *hugs*

Where in the poophell is Pom? He said he'll come online & told me to wait for him. I'll wait, I'll...no prob...but still... *scratches nose impatiently* Well, anyways. Come Pom or I'll wave your hair again. *wags fingers* Bwahahaha. :P Or don't come today if you're tired but come tommorrow.


Listening to: Guess~~ =_= RYU!!!!! *slaps head* My Memory. Ooohhh, I'm so hopeless. So so so hopelessly hopeless! @_@ XD
Yay!: Yay goes to the another chance. ^^ Yay goes to Pom not going to army/navy so I can meet with him (and Pui & Pong) on Xmas. ^^ And IT'S FRIDAY!!!!! ^___^
Grrr: I really want to buy some belt. But I can't choose any...all are so-so but nothing satisfying my picky taste. >_>
DON'T FORGET: F&%*(^$@&(((* PHYSICS TEST ON MONDAY!!!!! AAAAAaAAAaAAFfgggghjghhdd, can you just kill me 1st????!!!??? O_O x_x

Random short quack No. 343563267

Jatupong AKA Pong/Phong is a perilous man who knows DANGEROUSLY ADDICTIVE GAMES WHERE THE PLAYER DOESN'T NEED ANY IQ. :P
Please, see here:

*Grow CUBE
* Vanilla Ver. 0
* Hatch Today
* Pelpet ver. o

There are more. And they're all fascinatingly SILLY. XD


I apologize to Ray for NOT being able to come online tmr at 3pm. u_u Sorry mann..... I'm off to Aupark to see ICE AGE 2 - THE MELTDOWN. Very intelligent movie but oh so funny! :D
I'll be online on Saturday, I promise I will. Or on Friday but later, at 6pm maybe...

I have to download that Physics now...and tmr got the 0th class....must go now...GOOD NIGHT!!! ^_^



Listening to: "Bug A Boo" by Destiny's Child. Ehehe, it's old I know, but it's good! ^^
Yay!: Yay to...hmm...lunch at Chinese restaurant today. Wan tan soup is yummy. ^^
Grrr: What'll be with us? O_o
DON'T FORGET TO: Email Ji Sun for Jong Moon's home addy. Reply to Hyun's email. Check shops at Aupark for some nice belts.

...

How fragile such love can be... Imagine a fresh bright green leaf of a tree...or butterfly's wings...glass...wave...raindrop...imagine your health...or your own happiness. -_-

*Wishing*

If only we could be back
To where it was months ago
We both know
Turning back the time is of no use
To what must happen we can't refuse
We're changing and the time with us
We both wonder
Whether our love the hardships can pass
It's tough & painful
Yet maybe necessary
For if all is like a fairy tale, it can't be real
But the real life with real love
Causes the pain, the way we have to feel
Let's wish it leaves no scars
They heal so slowly
Let's wish we'll learn that
We're for each other only..

(By Mich)

Ah yay. Who would've imagined that things like these will be happening? Not that it's rare or something...but still... *sigh*
I'll never ever say again that I wanna live in a Korean drama. ._.

Friday, 3pm, MSN.
I wonder how will it be. I wonder if we can be the same again. I wonder if it has future. I wonder about so many things. *sigh*
I tend to remember people & what they did (e. g. I still remember how was the *ahem* wannabe "relationship" with Pom, I remember all good & bad at it & no matter how hard I tried to forget, I just didn't & couldn't~) and I tend to regret my decisions a lot.
I'm not the type who'll just forget everything & move on...and especially when love is involved. ._.
I feel guilty for being the way I am, for treating boyfriend the way I do, for having many stupid inner problems & making other people suffer for it. I feel disappointed in myself cuz I proved not to be as good and tolerant and 'made for romantic love' as I liked to think that I am. I feel pain cuz I see the past happy moments fade away for good...all I can see now is insecurity abt the future. What's behind the corner for us?
Who knows. Maybe a hole full of shit & maybe a path with rose petals.




Listening to: "My Memory" by Ryu. Yes, I'm completely hopeless, I'm listening to it everyday. But it's just so...so...BEAUTIFUL! *_* ^__^
Yay!: Hmmm...maybe...maybe it's yay-ish that I got a good gift for my mother's bday. HAPPY BDAY 2U!
Grrr: Read this entry... Also I must kill Pom cuz he felt very gila & rang me up 3 times/night and sent me one SMS so I was always waking up & falling asleep again. Wah, I like attention but not at 3.45am. :P
DON'T FORGET TO: Friday, 3pm, MSN. Physics assignment. Seek Jong Moon's addy. Send out the letter to R...

Short pointless blab No. 798989765432,0000458 which I advise you just to skip!

Pardon me for being damn materialistic & blabbing NONSENSE but today I've decided that I really wanna have a bungalow on a Thai seashore. XD

Alright, alright, I know that it's not modest at all + poor people all over the world die of various reasons.. Kill me, I know I deserve it. x_x

But aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my bungalow.... *dreamy sigh*
Orchids in the kitchen.....cherry flowers in front of the house...palm trees....sandy beach with shells...crispy green grass...morning tea at the patio breathing the air full of sea scent...seafood anytime...honey lemongrass drink anytime...mmmm...~~~ ^____^

I won't annoy you with all the details but come visit me then, okie? ^_~
Wahahaha. I'll make sure my handsome gay Korean cook will prepare YUMMY food to you all, my dear guests. XD

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*ahem*
It's impressively ANNOYING how much can I go blab & blab forever about totally irrelevant & at-least-for-now impossible things, ain't it? I know it is, stop pretending to be polite. >_>
A BUNGALOW ON A THAI SEASHORE?! WTF. >_> It's as possible for me to have it as for Ilkka buying a feathery pink lacey thong with glittery ribbons. Although - what do we know??! XDDDDD *imagines Ilkka wearing that & dies laughing*

Waaah! I can't find Jong Moon's home address!!!! F*^&!! How can I send him the bday card then?? I remember only that he lives in Seoul... >_>

I've downloaded various Destiny's Child's songs today...mmm...nice nice. ^^
This song is 5689753yrs old but I think it's wonderful & has beautiful, although way sad lyrics...me loves it a lot...download it too, if you wanna.
Oh & I'm also uploading the sexy Amerie's "Touch". Me got very R&B/hip hop mood these days, that's why. :P

* Destiny's Child - Emotion
* Amerie - Touch

Eeeh.
It's late now. =_= I dunno what's written in the time column by this blog entry but I see that it's 1.29am now & tmr I'm meeting up with Kuci at 8.50am in front of the Slovak National Theatre cuz we're supposed to go watch a movie (whole the class) at the nearby cinema.



Listening to: "Beautiful Life" by TVXQ. Thanks a, Justine! ^_^ K-POP RULEZZZ. Mwaha. ^_^v A nice song this one, so...laid-back. :P Who would thought that boybands can sound so un-boyband-ish?! :P (The TYPICAL boyband-ish song - "They Way You Are" by TVXQ!)
Yay!: You know what a sexy beautiful scent will I have, after I shower with the wild roses shower gel? Hahaha, so vain, I know. :P
Grrr: I really must start the Physics assigment. It was supposed to be handed to the prof on Friday. So grrr to me for being irresponsible. >_<
DON'T FORGET TO: Buy food & stuff for chinchilla. Remind Pom for the 5776589th time of buying me Armchair's CD. I've reminded him today in email so hopefully he won't forget until tmr. Heh. If yes, I'll send him a pink thong with violet glitters. >_<


BTW, I SEE THAT SOMETHING LIKE 5:25pm IS WRITTEN AS THE TIME OF POSTING THIS. WTF!!!!!!!! >_<
It's 1:38am now, you assholes. >_>

Seaweed? And where?!

Alrighty duckies, me is back.
Only me & UE could meet up as Kuc was feeling bleh and didn't come...she didn't come even to the art course! Ue has a new hairstyle & color and it looks really good. ^^

We went to the Tokyo Sushi bar (the one where sushi is awful & Japanese & Thai food is good) and UE had Yaki Soba chicken & me Tetsuke pork with seaweed...however - where was the seaweed? In the pork? WTF?!? Some stupid nori seaweed in the pork, I couldn't even feel its taste. >_<>_> NEXT TIME.

I was passing by the posh Baldinini shop & it was very painful cuz as usually they had veeery pretty shoes there. *sniff* And Jimmy Choo.... *deep greedy sigh*
Those sandals... *hearts in eyes*
Satin bridal shoes...I swear that on my wedding I'll be wearing Jimmy Choo's creamy white satin sandals with 7cm heels. Or 10cm! But then I'll die. =_= Wahaha.

I was talking today to the-one-who-has-wavy-hair-no-more-and-loves-me-eternally & he was tirelessly throwing me various compliments/flirtatious stuffs. WTF. I hope he understands that I'm an attached duck. >_>

"U have nice eyes."
"I like it when u smile." <--- Pui told me this also. But if you've seen BAE YONG JOON's smile...oohhh....OOOhhhh.... *faints & melts*
"U look good with glasses." <--- I disagree. Tsk.
"I luv u, stupid gal!" <--- Erm, was this a compliment or an insult? -_~ :P
"Ur hair is so pretty."
"I luv u!"

HAIYAH.
His eternal love is really touching but do I feel like kicking Ray away in this very second & running to his arms and kissing his no-more-wavy (AAaaaAAhhh so sad!) hair passionatelly?!?
NO, I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT.

Anyways...let's leave my no more wavy haired *sniff* personal cook alone... :P

I bought a GLITTERY NAIL POLISH. Yes, you read it right. Muahahahahah!!! XD It has a color like caramel coffee with milk (I wonder if such thing exists) and it's glittery. Wah, I'll use it on my toes, that's gonna be so poopylicious! ^^
I'm turning into a bigger & bigger ah lian. One day I'll be like some Xiaxue. Heheh.

Ugh whatever, I have nothing interesting to say so I'll just disappear from your sight. :P



Listening to: "Stickwitu" by Pussycat Dolls
Yay!: Hm, yay goes to my new nail polish & wild rose shower gel I bought.
Grrr: Got Chem test tmr. F*&**. >_<
DON'T FORGET: JONG MOON OPPA'S BDAY ON APRIL 8th!!!! NISAH'S BDAY ON APRIL 7th!!!!

Corporate slaves cómo mi madre

Ha! I've just sent the link for Fuckstress to my mother cuz I think she'll enjoy reading her blog - they're both similar corporate slaves. Mwahaha. If only I could persuade her to have a blog too....BUT BUT....she'll get persuaded only if I show her mine but that's what I don't want to do. Aiyah!!! *faints* -_-''''

Duh, momi momi, when I'm big & wise, I DON'T want to live the life of a CORPORATE SLAVE. I wanna be the art director who'll earn 100 000Skk/month & drive some silver sexy Lexus. Wuahaha.

OOHHH MY HEART IS BROKEN.
O_O
Finally a miracle has happened & I've caught Pom online and...and...AND....HE HAS A NEW HAIRSTYLE AND HIS HAIR ISN'T WAVY ANYMORE!!!!! *cries heavily*
So heartbreaking.
I must find something to make fun of.
His glasses? Nose? Mouth? Eyes? T-shirt like idiot? There's always something obscure to make fun of at him so no probs. *evil laughter*

Well duckies, I'm pooping away. Got art class now!
Byezzz!

The life plan which won't happen like I wish anyways

I know I'm blabbing too much. >_> It's an incurable disease, I apologise for it! :S

Why, oh WHY do I have to see this when randomly surfing the net?!?! TT_TT

WHY, OH WHY?????
WHHYYYYY?????
Why are Thai islands so gorgeously fascinatingly heartbreakingly awesomely BEAUTIFUL?!?

And why, oh why can't I live in:
a) Thailand
b) Malaysia
c) Singapore
d) Korea ?????

Ugh. Unfair life. =_=

But *ahem*. A girl can dream so let me daydream now about things I wish to happen but am sure that they won't happen as I wish cuz that's just the rule.


But still, LET ME DREAM while I can:

18yrs~21yrs - Communication Design Bc. at Cenfad in the wonderful Malaysia
21yrs~24yrs - continue my studies at some Design uni in Korea. Me wanna Master's. And me wanna overdose of Korean dramas, music and food too! Haha!
After uni - find a good job with a good salary!!!! ^^
At least 26yrs but can be even 40, who cares~ - go marry someone who'll be good, caring, gentleman, non drinking, non smoking, a handsome Asian, caring, know how to cook & will love me forever and always no matter what's going on. NOOOOOOO, I'm not demanding AT ALL, right? >_> *slaps head* <_< style="color: rgb(51, 153, 153);">When having enuff money - go buy a bungalow in Thailand. Mahogany floor is a must! XD And pink and golden orchids in the kitchen won't hurt also, especially if the kitchen isn't any IKEA crap but some special design thingee. All white with sleek lines and an elegant luxurious look. MMMmmMMMM aaaaahhhhh~~~~ *dreamy sigh* BEAUTIFUL. ^_^
Oh yes & a must is also to have A COOK. I think having a HANDSOME KOREAN GAY COOK is the best, at least my future husband won't be anxious, nervous & jealous and yet I still can drool. Wahahaha!!! XD
When living in the bungalow - buy the wonderful Connemara pony. But just in case I'm not too busy with my work. :P Well, but buy some dog at least. Something Haku-ish. ^^ I LOVE Haku. ^^
When feeling like it - Why not have a kid? And adopt one? I wanna adopt a Cambodian or a North Korean girl and be a good mom to them. But WTF, kids get on my nerves like no one now..hahaa....hopefully it'll change. XD
When old, wrinkly & with saggy nanoboobs - spend my wrinkly times TRAVELLING.
To everywhere.
My hopefully-still-alive-wrinkly-husband will travel with me of course! ^^ To North Korea, Tahiti, Fiji, Puka Puka, Irian Jaya, Kamchatka's peninsula, Iceland, Finland, Sweden, Greece again, Japan, Cambodia, India, China, Tibet, Nepal, Russia, Andaman islands, Seychelles, South Korea, Philippiness, USA & its national parks, Canada & the Nunavut area, Colombia, Paraguay, Brazil, Carribean, Costa Rica, etc. etc. etc. ETC. HA!!!! I guess we'll have to have 30 platinum credit cards in order to pay up these trips. XD
When too old, wrinkly & with saggy nanoboobs - spend my wrinkly times in my Thai bungalow playing with our old wrinkly dog. Ha! I'll be looking at the sandy beach when sitting at the patio and listen to the waves crashing and contemplate about my life. ^^ Then I'll go to the downtown to buy some gorgeous Baldinini heels for my awful wrinkly feet with puprple nail polish (!!!) cuz even we, old wrinkly women want to be pretty. WAHAHA! XD
And when I die... - take my ashes and throw 1/2 of it to the crystal blue Thai sea & the other half to the mighty beautiful peaks of High Tatra. ^^ Okays? ^_^



MUAHAHAHAAAA, alright, I'll end this pointless entry now!!! :D *everyone sighs with relief*
A girl can dream. ^^
A boy can dream also so duckies, tell me about YOUR dreams, k? ^^ Me is looking forward to see it at your blogs. :D ^^


Listening to: "Touch" by Amerie. Maaaannn, such a sexy song, whaaaa, it rocks!
Yay!: Cinema tmr! Jap/Thai food tmr too! ^^
Grrr: Hmm...maybe grr that I can't be in that pic of Koh Samui above? T_T

Another annoying sentimental entry which you'd better don't read cuz it's boring, annoying and self-pitying! >_>

I miss Singapore & Malaysia so much. T_T

It comes in sinusoids...that means..periodically...waaahhh... T_T Sometimes I'm OK with being here, sometimes I'm dying for being there.

Now I'm dying for being there.

I was just looking at that little violet teddy bear I've found on the street in Singapore when hubooby, me & Amir where heading home.
Also I'm looking at the pretty oval piece of coral with a hole in the middle I've found on the gorgeously white sandy beaches at the island around Pulau Tioman...

Both things are in front of me on the desk with PC.

OOOHHHHHHIIIIIGFRER AAAAHHHHGEEEEHHHHHUUUUUHHHHH UUUEEEWWEEEASDFGYHJTGASHJL!!!!!
*dies crying & continues wailing incoherently*

And today... Today I was wearing my grey Singaporean 3/4 pants...those I bought at Orchard Rd when shopping with Manis. u_u *sigh* Orchard Rd..... I love the athmosphere there. It is beautiful! Tall healthy green trees, lights, cars, benches with people, scents, flowers, food... PERFECT.

And... Whenever I look at myself in the mirror... I see the blue Roxy butterfly from Ray... *sentimental K-dramaish sigh*
u_u He gave it to me on the last day of my stay in Malaysia.... *sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff* Me, already being depressed like never almost died seeing it...
And then... I knew it's time to go to the airport, the place I love & hate in the same time. u_u

UUUUGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH........................

This is MY personal Korean drama.
WTF!!! :P
All complete with sappy situations (*Ray giving me a little red choc heart when arriving to Vienna*), sad ones (*me flying home & dying of sadness and crying for TWO days in a row*), the eternal love/obsession from another guy (Pom), music reminding us of each other (Natalie Imbruglia, The Corrs), stupid conflicts (*us getting pissed off for anything idiotic*) & the brutal situation of my mother saying that I can't go there this summer!!!!

F*CK!!! *dies*

She really thinks I can survive it?!
I've wanted to go there once again at least for one fuckin month....to see Ray..Munie..Mek..CY..Tweresa..Chris..wtf, to see everyone!
...To see my future college, to ask Ray's mom to sew me the prom dress from Thai silk, buy heels, eat 567 tonnes of Korean & Japanese food, die eating spicy tomyum & go to that beautiful park in KL again.
And now I was told I can't go there.

*jumps of the window*

I'm at the loss of the words, emotions & feelings. O_O
FUCK IT.



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Typically I was online today, checked my emails & saw Pom's email saying that he was online yesterday and will be online on Monday. Still I've SMSed him that I'm online now and I'll be online on Monday too.
I've stayed online for another 1.5hrs and then went off. And now I've signed in again & found another email from Pom saying that he was online TODAY. And like 45mins after I logged out. >_< WTF!!!!!
If I don't catch him online tmr, I'll really kick someone's ass. Waahh, I wanna know what he thinks of my wonderful artpiece!!!! *sniff sniff sniff*

Sorry sayangku & everyone for not being on MSN today. Linda was here and we were writing emails to some unis in Paris, London, Berlin & Münich. We also went out to eat pizza & cake... It was kool. ^_^

Aiyah. No school tmr but art course, cinema with 2 friends and Chem test on Tuesday. =_=



Listening to: "Violet" by Ryu. Still the Winter Sonata OST. I'm incurable!!!!! :P
Yay!: Yay....to the cake & pizza today. And to the fact that it was as warm as I could wear the 3/4 pants for the 1st time this year.
Grrr: No contact with anyone cuz no MSN today. Sorry la. SUPER-MEGA-GRRRR FOR FORBIDDIN ME TO GO TO MALAYSIA & SINGAPORE!!!!!! >_< Saya tak boleh tahan liaoooo!!!!!!!!!!! <-- Hubooby, thanks for teaching! ^_~ AARRGGHHH so shitty. >_<

Aaaarrrggghhhhhggggggrrrrrrrrrrrr >_<

Question No. 1:

WHAT SHOULD I BE DOING EVERYDAY 12 + 2 MONTHS BEFORE GRADUATING FROM MY SHITTY SCHOOL AND APPLYING FOR CENFAD'S COMMUNICATION DESIGN????

Answer:

Drawing, painting, photographing, photoshopping. Drawing, painting, photographing, photoshoping. Drawing, painting, photographing, photoshopping. Drawing, painting, photographing, photoshopping. Drawing, painting, photographing, photoshopping. Drawing, painting, photographing, photoshoping. Drawing, painting, photographing, photoshopping.Drawing, painting, photographing, photoshopping. Drawing, painting, photographing, photoshopping. Drawing, painting, photographing, photoshoping. Drawing, painting, photographing, photoshopping.Drawing, painting, photographing, photoshopping!!!!

Question No. 2:

WHAT AM I DOING EVERYDAY 12 + 2 MONTHS BEFORE GRADUATING FROM MY SHITTY SCHOOL AND APPLYING FOR CENFAD'S COMMUNICATION DESIGN????

Answer:

Chatting with friends. Eating. Chatting with friends. Drinking. Daydreaming. Reading blogs. Blogging. SMSing friends, the more far away they are the better cuz that increases my bill. Eating. Eating. Complaining. Reading books. Chatting with friends. Listening to Korean music. Listening to Ryu's "My Memory" which is a fucking beautiful song and I'm still not tired of it even after hearing it for 6787568975489 times already. Playing with Haku. Eating. Daydreaming. Drooling over hot Asian guys. Missing/being pissed off at Ray. Listening to Ryu's Winter Sonata OST. Chatting with friends. Eating. Eating. Eating. Surfing the net pointlessly. Reading Malaysian & Singaporean blogs. Blogging. Chatting with friends. Eating. Thinking about food & drooling. Chatting with friends. Blogging.




CAN YOU SEE ANYTHING LIKE DRAWING, PAINTING, PHOTOGRAPHING, PHOTOSHOPPING IN IT?!?!?!?! >_>

If no, it's perfectly well & horrible in the same time. I can't also! >_< wai!!!!!! >___< href="http://www.vsvu.sk/">VSVU cuz I just wanna be in the warm M'sia where my bf is, my friends are nearby (S'pore, Thailand), there is lotsa good food & drinks, nice shops, cheap stuffs, beautiful beaches, wonderful nature and Korean dramas aired on TV!!!!!!!
AAaaaaAAAArrggghhh, I better go paint something RIGHT NOW after I eat something little cuz I can't stand myself anymore. >____<



Listening to: "Only You" by Ryu from the Winter Sonata OST. I love it all, it reminds me of Bae Yong Joon. Wahahaha, I'm so damn pathetic. XD
Yay!: Me & Ray DIDN'T argue today after a long time of being pissed off at each other for no intelligent reason. CONGRATS~~~
Grrrrr: GRRRRRR read this entry again, GRRrrrRRRRRrRR!!!! >_<

Edit at 1.31am, April 2nd 2006:

I was a good good girl. ^^ See!!!


*Ahem* Not that this is, what I've wanted to show you but I couldn't resist doing stupid stuffs with my cam. >_> BEFORE you had almost no pics of me, NOW you have too many!!!! >_<



Aaaaerrrggghhhhh this is so fuckin ugly. >_<>_< _=" *depression*">_>

Aaaarrggghhhh, I drag my lazy huge ass to painting and the result is fuckin awful. >_< Is there any justice in the world? =_=;;; AAARRGGHHHHH. GRRRRRRR. Cenfad is suddenly rather more far away from my sight than before. ._.

Spring is here

Lotsa random blabbing today. *rolls eyes*

I forgot to take my cam for the trip with parents & Haku today so I can't show you the beauty of the fragile white & violet flowers growing in an impressively green leaves of the wild garlic & grass.....it's in my mind only and unless you master Legilimency, you can't get in. Muaha.

I was just talking to Chris (Ray's bro) and to Pong.
WTF, I never come online when Pom is online and always come offline when he comes online. *ahem, it kinda made no sense but whatever XD*
For example today he was online from 7pm to 9pm of Thai time waiting for me like stupid. And of course just in that time I wasn't online. >_> This is no fun anymore!!!! *cries angrily* I wanna hear his opinion on my fascinating display pic for him! T_____T ^_^

(Btw, maybe I'll log into his account today and change the personalized msg again. WUAHAHA.)

Waaah, Tsung Long is online today after a long time. ^^
Eh, offline already. We had a nice talk. ^_^

Chris told me one wise thing today: "Don't pull the rubber band too strong or it'll snap." In other words - "Mich & Ray, you assholes, don't argue too much or you can break up!"

Hmmmm, I was just trying to find some nice pics of 비 (Bi) at K-Google and besides him I've found this website with nice manga wallpapers with few jkool bishies: MABINOGI!!! ^___^ Enjoy the bishies. ^_~

Aaaeehh. Nothing more to say. Linda will come over tmr, I'm looking forward. ^^


Listening to: จะโกหกกันไปถึงไหน by D2B (I wonder what are they singing about, haha)
Yay!: SPRING IS HEEEERE!!!!! :D
Grrr: Very vain me has no nice nail polish. XD Bwahaha! Grrr also that I still dunno what Pom thinks abt my ARTPIECE. Hah! XD

The April's Fools' Day is MY DAY ^^

Besides the many pics from the school's April Fools' Day thingee I wanna show you...I have to confess something too. :S
I don't feel good saying it aloud tho...especially when I know that some people will be hurt after that...however, honesty is good & right. :S And LYING TO MY BOYFRIEND, POM & PONG would be totally UNACCEPTABLE. Right??? :S

Guys.
My dear guys. My harem! My sayang, my personal cook & my...errr...admirer!!

Dear Ray with hidung gemuk...
Dear Pom with wavy hair...
Dear Pong with funny cheeks...


I AM A LESBIAN.

Did you know that that Li Hong I'm always talking abt is my....my gf?!
Yes, she is.
I know that she's way older and all..but...I just love her. I really do. Plus she's an Asian and you know how much I love Asians...her waist long shiny black hair, soft pale skin...gentle lips (her kisses are so soft! Oh!)...dark lovely eyes...petite figure, warm boobs & those curves...
HOW ELSE CAN I SAY IT?!

我爱你，李虹！

Yes indeed, I can say it in Chinese...my 爱人 understands me now...completely...and always..
I'm sorry for breaking the heart of all you three. :S
I really am...and it's hard for me to accept my sexual orientation also. :S
C'est la vie - please, find someone else...and I..I'll stay with 我的爱人李虹 (wo de ai ren Li Hong - my darling Li Hong) and hope for this love to never end.

Now the pics will come:

The best picture as first! XD It's amazing to see HOW big asses can be. Hahahahaha!!! XD

Does it need any comment? MY BEAUTY IS UNREACHABLE FOR YOU, SHITTY MORTALS! Pha!


I think that this is a HILARIOUS PICTURE!!!!!!! XD I totally love it! Wahahahaha! I look like pregnant there too....man...how will I call my son? Or daughter? Son will definately be either Ilkka or Anupong. The first name is pretty, the other WAVY. Waahhahahhaha! XD And the daughter? We shall see! ^^

Camwhoring around. See the flower scrunchy on my head? ^^ Muahaha, I'm SOE SEXAI.

Me & UE being all sexy in our bed blankets. The spotty thing on my head is from the pillow! :D

Sexy poses. Luckily I were wearing my panties & boxers or else.... :P

You see? WE WON!!!!! We won the 1st prize (not gift, WTF, I suck) at the BEST PAIR category. Wah, we're so proud, this is really an important achievement. XD

TWO CAMWHORE PICS WITH MY NEW CAP FOR TERRIBLE 330Skk:

That flowery stuff isn't there originally...I added it cuz I felt like it. It spoils my hip hop look tho. >_> I should've played ard with photoshop a bit more...and the flower would miraculously disappear. ^^

Ooooohhh, see my shiny lips? Doesn't it look intriguing??? Like you wanna kiss me NOW?! Yum yum yum, thank you, photoshop sparkling brush. ^_~

Listening to: "Don't Forget Me" by Ryu from the Winter Sonata OST!!! WAHOOOO!!!!
Yay!: It's Friday. ^^ Linda coming over tmr. ^^
Grrr: It's almost 2am and I'm STILL not asleep. >_>




Oh and yes...






































Am I a lesbian???
Ha!






APRIL FOOLS' DAY, YOU FOOLS!!!!!

Don't tell me you've believed me!!!! XD